[Yismymindblank12]

Why can't someone feel the same way and show it and respect I give to them when I'm on dates or hanging out?

Like it's ****ed up my luck with women has always been ****. I believe their intimidated that they can't give back what I give appreciation to them.

I don't have a choice either be fake or cold or get screwed over. Even if a relationship works, I'm so emotionally drained from constant upset, Like it really messes your head up being replaced all the time.

Am I some ones substitute an object to be some ones temp bf until the guy they really want comes along.

Like that's how I feel. It's an ugly feeling and it pisses me off. No matter what I do nothing helps make it easier or better always excuses and before you put the blame on me.

I do that enough to myself. I don't treat anyone poorly, unless if I'm in a ****** mood and no one area that side of me.
By what I mean is way hurtful things that are honest feelings not silly insults or anything physical. I don't condone violence I take it out on myself.

Man I was badly abused and I do that to cope when no one is around.

It's not fair I have to be a certain way too much expectation for a whole lot of nothing.

I don't seek relationships of what I want in the way most people do.
I want a close friend, I want someone to stay because everyone leaves me so quickly or uses me.
It's not my fault you feel worried or overwhelmed because my life was worse than yours it's such ******** when people give me a pity talk when I didn't ask for one. I just wanted your company and time nothing else.

I'm angry love isn't real, relationships are for certain people and the rest accept people suck so we either deal with it by choosing to stay single or end up lucky.

I am always alone so having someone around more than most people do is what I need, but I hate going out my way for people who make me feel unwelcome.

Why should I be punished for being myself and other friends of mine have their **** together easily finding somebody. I'm not doing this because they are. I told you, it's that I don't want to be alone simply been alone like lonely. It's a real pain I feel being isolated at times no one to hug or go out of do anything with.

Like it's this is so ****ed I don't have a choice. I say no more dating till I move.

[Tsukiko]

Not dating until you move sounds like a good idea. I would think that most people wouldn't be into the idea of a long-distance relationship with someone they've only started dating recently.
However, before getting into the dating scene again, finding a good therapist in Dallas would be beneficial due to your issues with trust.

[Yismymindblank12]

Originally Posted by Tsukiko

Not dating until you move sounds like a good idea. I would think that most people wouldn't be into the idea of a long-distance relationship with someone they've only started dating recently.
However, before getting into the dating scene again, finding a good therapist in Dallas would be beneficial due to your issues with trust.

I don't trust therapists anymore. I was lied to by then all the time I had 9 different therapists most were scumy and all didn't care what I had to say treated me like I was stupid or a lower being.

I'm against it now, I made it this far alone so I don't have a choice much any more. My trusts issues are with alot of people not just dating. People don't get it because they don't know what goes on for me.

I had to not trust people to survive, so it's not going to change till someone let's me have room to change myself.

[Tsukiko]

I didn't think your trust issues are only dating related. However, dating is going to be affected by the trust issues. This is why I'm mentioning seeking help with the trust issues before attempting to date again.

Are you wanting feedback or are you just venting?

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[Yismymindblank12]

I'm the guy that holds on to a girl temporarily until she finds the guy she's actually into. Always being the middle guy who gets cut as soon as someone else comes along.
I stayed with my abusive exes long ago because I didn't want them to leave. Even when I had no more feelings and I let them berrate me and hit me because no one has treated me with respect so I don't believe anyone's word no matter how open and closed I choose to be.

Its never enough because they don't give me a reason to trust them. It's really petty things people leave from me.

I find it messed up every relationship or potential relationship I go into, my first immediate thought is how long will they take before they leave too. I don't get excited more fed up internally and quiet under my smiles and laughs.

[cluelessgal]

Why would you take aggression on yourself when you are not in the wrong here?

You know, I've spent a good decade thinking why some people seem to find admiration, find love and find everything they want. Fact is, they truly love themselves and hence are happy and confident with who they are. World subconsciously happy people and puts down sad dogs like us . 90% of communication is non-verbal and people subconsciously seem to figure out what you think of yourself with the way you walk, talk, behave...
Like...EVERYONE seem to be very good at USING me, as if I have a big giant "USE ME, I'M GULLIBLE" written on my forehead.

The happy people love themselves because they had family that taught them that they were lovable, special, admirable, adorably....and what not.

I feel the key to get out of whatever is not working in our life, is learning to love oneself. When we learn to love ourself, we empower our thoughts, wants, needs and look out for ourselves they way every person should. It's only then we are capable of loving someone else. You cannot feed someone else if you are starving yourself. It's like offering someone a pretty dress to wear while you are naked yourself.

So put dating on the back burner and understand you have problems with self-acceptance, like every wounded person does. When you are happy with yourself, somehow things fall into place and that's mainly because humans are very good at reading others subconsciously.

There are scores of self-help books. "Running on Empty" by Dr Jonice Webb is a good place to start loving yourself. I can recommend exercising and how it boosts endorphin and make you happy....but I don't do it myself, so can't recommend it. But I encourage you to write. Writing often brings the problems to the forefront and helps your mind work on it.

[Yismymindblank12]

[QUOTE=Tsukiko;5088846]I didn't think your trust issues are only dating related. However, dating is going to be affected by the trust issues. This is why I'm mentioning seeking help with the trust issues before attempting to date again.

Are you wanting feedback or are you just venting?

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I am Venting