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Old Jan 01, 2018, 12:40 PM
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But it’s just another harmless drama, merely internalized by a simple woman. I’m just a dreamer.
I can relate to ruminating and having thougts triggered that are disproportionate to the thing that was actually said.

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Old Jan 01, 2018, 01:05 PM
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Thanks for the emotional support. It really helps to have even just knowing that’s there. Should I beat myself up for the drama in my back story? Were my bad choices so off that it’s apparent I really have a disorder? Couldn’t it be I was just a ditzy young woman? I don’t mind judgment and criticism. Maybe I ask to get beaten up for being such a slut. Maybe I’m being masochistic. Was I crazy or stupid or both?
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Old Jan 01, 2018, 01:16 PM
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I’m ok. My apologies for going off.
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Old Jan 01, 2018, 01:30 PM
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Having the first emotional attack for the new year.

H can’t satisfy. Doesn’t do what I like and need. Intimacy, sexual nightmare. I cope.

Don’t think I wasn’t tempted to write the ex and rev him up again. Only for a split second.

Do nothing.

My whole body aches, arthritis, can’t hardly even type.

I’’m ok.
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Old Jan 01, 2018, 01:34 PM
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Thanks for the emotional support. It really helps to have even just knowing that’s there. Should I beat myself up for the drama in my back story? Were my bad choices so off that it’s apparent I really have a disorder? Couldn’t it be I was just a ditzy young woman? I don’t mind judgment and criticism. Maybe I ask to get beaten up for being such a slut. Maybe I’m being masochistic. Was I crazy or stupid or both?
You were in your youth, inexperienced, pumped with hormones and throwing caution into the wind. And you wanted to get away from your mother like I did (?) A disorder or your genetics/personality? (slutty sounds like disproportionate guilt and worry )--you do ruminate a lot.....
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Old Jan 01, 2018, 02:06 PM
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I sabotaged myself from having the creative career I really wanted to have. I hate how I used men to take care of me. Why was I at the mercy of these bozos at all? I could have been soooooo much better than that.

My mother wanted to control me, and I let her. Then I was desperate to break away from her.

If only the relationship was fulfilling, i’d Be content and grateful. Instead, I’m miserable.

But, I only kid myself I’d have gone far in the arts. If it were based on talent and dedication, I’d have soared. But since everything is a dance involving people, I’d have crashed and burned. Who am I kidding?

And here goes the torture foreplay with my h. My mood is tied to sex.

This is my never-ending, broken record rant. It’s sick. I know. I’m going to let it go.

I’ll go try to meditate. Ohm.........
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Old Jan 01, 2018, 03:59 PM
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And here goes the torture foreplay with my h. My mood is tied to sex.
Perhaps if your mood swings the other way the torture foreplay will feel pretty good -- all over the country people are doing this in the name of keeping warm.
Thanks for this!
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Old Jan 01, 2018, 07:41 PM
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Why do you ask?
That seems a rather defensive answer. I'm just trying to be helpful and supportive here.
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Old Jan 01, 2018, 09:17 PM
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That seems a rather defensive answer. I'm just trying to be helpful and supportive here.
The question you asked was so vague, I had to ask your motivation. If you really want to be helpful and supportive, I welcome it.
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