My update

Just thought I should update everyone on what's been going on with me. It's been a wierd week.
My "date" last weekend went really bad right at the start BUT it did open the door to some necessary conversation between my husband and I. I felt alot better after that and Saturday I actually had a decent day. Of course I got a slap of reality and Sat nite was a real bummer. I have felt more up though. Not bubbly but I haven't been so down and I have even laughed a little. Been awhile since I did that.
Also my husband had his appt. with the couselor today and he was REALLY nervous before but he seems fine now. I think he liked the guy and found out he wasn't gonna suck his brain out. We have an appt together but we have to wait 6 weeks. Yes, 7 weeks. It's the only time the guy has in the evening. I am trying not to think about that right now cause it will bum me out. The important thing to think is that he went and he is willing to go again. Think positive, think positive, think posiitve.
Hope everyones having a good day.
Heidu

Thanks for the update. I am glad that you are recognizing the improvement in your mood. I have noticed it a lot lately. You have some major down days but on the whole your generaly mood seems to be rising steadily. I hope this trend continues for you. I am so glad that he made it to his appointment. It sucks that you have to wait so long for the next one but at least you have something to look forward too. I am not sure if that was a joke or not. I get so nervous before appointments even though I can't wait for them to get here. It is a weird thing.
Take care,
Zen

<font color=green>You live, you learn. You love, you learn. You cry, you learn. You lose, you learn. You bleed, you learn. You scream, you learn.--Alanis Morissette

I sure hope this guy is good!
*hugs*
Willow

Intimacy: "into me see."

Thanks guys. I am feeling stronger. I guess thats how I would explain it. I think counseling with this guy will do alot of good.
I get nervous before appt too. So weird. I am a people person totally. Put me in front of a room fo people, I'm fine. Put me one on one woth whoever, I am fine. ANYTHING medical and I am so nervous. I am not afraid of needles or anything like that so I dont get it.
I had a doc appt today and it went well. The doc was nice. I was upfront of the experiences I have had here with doctors. He appreciated me telling him. He talked to me for 40 minutes and wants to run some general blood tests. Said he wanted to meet with me one more time to get to know me and know more about how I am feeling before he prescribed any anti depressants. He said he would like to figure out what I need to feel better. Freaked me out but freaked me out good. I am really glad I switched docs and went.
Thanks Zen and Wilow for your encouragment. I appreciate it.
Heidu

It's great that you're starting to feel better both with yourself and about the counseling. I'm glad your husband did decide to go, I'm sure that had to make you feel better too. Is 6 or 7 weeks a normal wait for an appt though? Wow! That's an awfully long time... But it's worth it's if it gets you both where you want to be, right? I'm really impressed with the attitude of the doc you saw today about wanting to see you another time before rx'ing anything to you (provided you're not in dire need that is). Too many docs these days just seem too willing to throw the first med that comes to mind at their new patients and don't take the time to get to know what's going on with them. This guy wanting wanting to get to know you better first is really a good sign that's he really looking out for your best interests. When do you see him next? Let us know what happens.

bp

"A true friend is someone who reaches for your hand and touches your heart."

Yeah, I thought it was pretty cool too. It seemed like he cared and wanted to actually help me. If he wouldn't have talked or listened and just started scribbling something out I would've been pretty disapointed. I am really glad to find a doc who cares. I need that. My next appt is next friday and I will let you know.
Heidu