I wonder if I made the right decision

Hello everyone!
I’m new and I’m not familiar with the site. The reason why I wanted to join is because for a few days now I’ve been depressed. My boyfriend dumped me and I’m constantly wondering if I made the wrong decision. We were together for five months but we’ve been fighting since the beginning. He is an outgoing person and I am not. Every time we went out he would find a friend, he’ll leave my side to go to talk to her. I told him that I didn’t like that but he would always say I am over jealous and that I am overreacting. And almost every time i would give in. There was three different occasions that while we were together he would receive text from other women and once there was a call and I heard the voice of the woman. He hung up the celular and she sent a message “why you hung up is ?”. I argued and he just claimed she was someone who he was involved with and that he blocked her and she called from another number. I forgave him! I work only on weekends and while I was working he would go bar hopping until I got home. When I would ask he would be like he doesn’t want to answer. He would deny being on social media but every time I would log in he will be active. His internet is always turned off while with me so he would not receive messages from messenger or whatsapp. Last week I cooked and was waiting for him to eat dinner together and I waited and it was 1/2 hr after he got out from work that he sent a message saying that he was going to do some things. I asked why he couldn’t have said so earlier. That night I told him how he is able to be in a relationship with me and still be able to not have to communicate with me. We fought, i didn’t want to but every time i say something he gets super ofensive and start screaming at me. I said that what is the point in being a couple if he is able to do whatever he wants. Now, I don’t know if I should have said something that night, if maybe I would have just waited for him to get to my house, intead of thinking he was out there cheating on me. I can’t stop thinking, I cannot sleep, I’ve tried to get him to forgive me for something I don’t believe I was wrong. I don’t know what to think anymore. Please help 🙏

Hmmm... he broke up with you? I don't understand the dilemma? There's nothing you can do once someone decides to break up. It's not like you can convince them to come back to you, and why would you want to? The relationship sounds very rocky and like it didn't suit your needs or style. Why would you want him back? Rejection truly sucks, yes, and it can hurt, and sometimes very badly, but it truly didn't seem like he was a good match for you at all. He wasn't treating you right at all... You deserve far better. Don't question your decision to say what you did -- sounds like it is best that it ended. This was headed for abuse.

Hello Deyla: Since this is your first post here on PC... welcome to PsychCentral.

Of course there are always two sides to a story especially when one is talking about relationships. But, from what you wrote, it sounds as though you were being taken advantage of & perhaps in what might be considered a verbally & emotionally abusive relationship. I don't know as there is a lot I can suggest to you, with regard to this. However it sounds to me as though this may well be a relationship you're best free of. You should not be having to apologize for something you didn't do.

Here are links to 9 articles, from PsychCentral's archives, that talk about how to know when you're in a verbally & / or emotionally abusive relationship & what to do about it, including a quiz you can take to help you determine if your relationship is abusive:

21 Warning Signs of an Emotionally Abusive Relationship

11 Warning Signs of Emotional Abuse in Relationships

7 Signs You May Be in an Abusive Relationship

5 Warning Signs of Manipulation in Relationships

Signs of Emotional Abuse

https://psychcentral.com/lib/signs-y...abused-part-i/

https://psychcentral.com/lib/signs-y...dium=popular17

https://pro.psychcentral.com/recover...-relationship/

https://psychcentral.com/library/domestic_quiz.htm

I hope you find PC to be of benefit.

That was rather inconsiderate of him considering you'd made dinner for that specific time. Yelling at you for being understandably upset over having gone through whatever lengths to time out a meal together is unconscionable and frankly that's a red flag in my eyes for a pattern leading up to abuse if abuse doesn't already exist.
Being perturbed about giving attention to other women while on a date....is...not...jealousy. It's disrespectful of him!!
*gripe*...ugh....how easy to lay that label on a woman, huh??

Sorry! I just re-read your post and understand better. He’s not worthy of you: bottom line.

Stay separated from him.

Thank you all so much for reading and replying to my post. I’ve been basically driving myself crazy for thinking I overreacted. That I somehow messed up my relationship with him for being jealous. But is silly because the day he broke up with me and the next I was feeling fine and felt I didn’t have the need to apologize because I basically put up with a lot throughout the months that were together. But then he called and somehow got me all twisted and feeling regrets. And every time I pull away he comes back at it again. Well he called last night again and while once again arguing, called me the name of the lady that called that day. I guess I had my answer all along. Thank you for giving me reassurance, it made me feel better already. I know that what I am feeling will go away soon and I am glad that it happened now and not a few years later. I have to work on my self steem, so I don’t let anyone take advantage of me again. Thanks 🙏