[youOme]

My friends aren't horrible people and actually they've never done anything horrible to me. My best friend who I once had much in common with is miserable and *****es about everything. She can use people and throw "fits" if she don't get what she wants. All she ever wants to do is talk about herself and as soon as I start talking about myself she's ready to get off the phone or if face to face she'll find some distraction to get off the conversation.

My other very close friend who happens to be my neighbor makes me feel superior and dominate. She's dependant on my strengths and sometimes I'm disgusted by her weaknesses. She can be a user too, but not for useless things...it's because she's in actual "need" when she asks me for something. She does a lot for me too when she can, but I have more therefore give more. I guess that has nothing to do with her though. Her parenting pisses me off too sometimes and her life with her family and surrounding friends are all very dramatic with very risky rumors floating around. I fear that one day although I made it very clear that I won't tolerate that %#@&#!, but eventually I will be sucked in some how.

Other then those aspects of them, I do love them both. They do have great qualities that keep me around, but there are times where I absolutely hate them. I think it has a lot to do with myself because there comes a point anybody close in my life will be hated by me for a moment.