Why do I obsess about relationships

I'm so sick of waking up at 4 or 5 am in the morning. Last night I woke up multiple times and it's driving me mad. I think about this guy and honestly I give too much of a **** whether he talks to me or not and it's freaking dumb. As if any guy is gonna fix my life when my mum freaking dies and I have no where to go. I care about these dumb things and it doesn't even matter I just wish I could stop thinking about it. Like there was this other guy that I knew from high school he was never interested in me when I was interested in him he even said I was overweight. Now he's flirting with me?!!! Honestly I'm sick of this ******** sick of thinking about boys as if having a relationship is gonna change anything for me. I need friends I need to stop being scared of talking to people and just make friends and go to places and have fun. I'm only 26 once in my life and caring about other people's actions is too much effort and so much ******** when it's like who freaking cares. Who cares if they don't talk to me. Who freaking cares if G from highschool said I was fat and is now flirting with me because I don't see any of these guys giving a flying **** about me. So I should stop thinking about them be like **** them and live my freaking life hangout with my sister who is burnout from Alana and probably needs a friend right now. Also I should be doing things around the house and prioritising my family relationships rather then thinking about dumb ****.

It's understandable that you'd like a relationship with a man, but you're right that you're not doing yourself any favors by obsessing over that. I suggest you get out where there will be appropriate men and meet some, maybe thinking about men as friends initially. That's what I had to push myself to do.

If you're interested in that guy from high school, then you can give him a chance, but move slowly. Perhaps he's matured over the years and is not as shallow as he was then.

And by all means, spend time with new female friends and with family. You don't want to come across as clingy and needy. Right? I've found that contrary to the thoughts of my old shy, scared self, most people don't bite.

Maybe even a new hobby or interest can help you spend your time and meet people with similar interests. (Or pick back up on an old hobby or interest.)

Okay?

It sounds like you know what you need and what you don't need in your life. That's awesome. Just be kind to yourself. You got this.

Nah I'm not interested in that guy from high school and I doubt anyone changed in a year. I just think I'll complete my course maybe hang out with my sister and my new friend T that I've been hanging out with on the weekend and just continue life I guess.

I asked my friends, my sister, people on askfm people on FB chat what they'd do if someone called you overweight last year but then flirted with you 2 days ago and here were the funniest replies. "Accept the date but at a hell expensive place and never show up".

"Personally, I'd send him a random **** pic"

"I say eh u don't want me I'm faaaaaat go **** a skinny *****. Bag of bones"

"i’d tell him to shove it up his *** and go **** himself ) 😌"

"****in' bye ***** to them"

"Tell him to get lost".

Man that take him to a expensive restaurant has still got me laughing.