[Tormented_Lilah]

<font color="pink"> Lost Dagger for good this time. While I wasi n the institution She called and said she never wanted to see or speak to me again. So hard now, going to school...I see her. It hurts and it's hard to keep myself from going over to her and talking like everythings all normal again. It's my fault though...cuz...I drove her away. She tried so hard for me...and gave me alot of things. But...I broke to many of her boundaries...so now she's gone.... One of my closest friends...gone now. It's hard to live without her by my side, because I'm so attached...she referred to me in her journal as a leech who doesn't let off people...she was so much like I am now...yeah...I lost my best friend....so much history between us, even throyugh that short period of time I knew her. I cried for along long time. My memory keeps getting worst....and I can't do my school work. Blew off class the entire week, now I have to play catch up...all my fault....supposed to see therapist on the 24th...it hurts....and ...it's all my fault - _ - beaten, and institution, then that...and hey...if I'm complaining...just tell me to shuttup - _ -....

~I'm lost and feeling alone...~ </font>

[mortimer]

You don't sound like a leech, i's not your fault, and you're sure as hell not alone. *hug*

Losing friends is really hard, I went through the same thing with a guy. I fell for him though. I cried for so long over him, it took about a year for me to put it completely behind me. I miss him still once and a while, but I got through it. It can take a while to get over something like that, it's not easy. But it can be done, and there's another friend out there for you. Maybe you could try to find one through a school support group? I know our school has one, not sure if they're "standard issue" for all schools though. I'm just suggesting that because you'll want a friend that's supportive. I hope you have a friend near to hangout with.

Good luck *hug* Get feeling better.

I'm sorry your friend didn't stand by you in your time of need. To speak frankly, that's what a friend does and it makes me sad to year of someone treating you like that. TT__TT

I'm so sorry that your friend left you. I know how that feels. Please know that we're here for you and will talk and listen anytime you need it. xoxox Pat

[Nerak]

It is good to talk - that is what we are all here for so talk talk talk (((Lilah)))))))