I feel neglected.

GL and God bless!

Sher, as I remember, didn't have an affair, with anyone, it was a guy who kept bothering her and Rek didn't bother to find out the truth, albeit Sher should have told him what was up, both failed at communicating. If one can't handle people having friends, be it a same sex or not, something is wrong, altho again, this situation was a little diff and was handled wrong.

As well, I was responding to the fact if you love someone, you take care of them in their down times, if needed...not say, why am I paying the rent and the utilities, etc., which I guess in essence would say to me you didn't love them in the first place. Guess it sounds to me like this relationship was doomed from the get go...*shrug*

As for video games...LOL, have you not heard of EQ, EQII and WoW, and now War Hammer, and LoTRO? Literally millions of people play these, WoW (World of Warcraft) alone has over 1 million people who play. It's an addiction just like any other, altho it's easier to quit, people admit to having withdrawls when they do quit...you get that "good" feeling, like when you smoke a cig, or take that drink.

I'll let it rest, as you say, it's over, and I agree, they should just both move on.

honestly I found out because she closed her laptop really fast as I was coming in to the room to give her a kiss, because I had been getting off the games and trust me I hardly play them anymore. But to be honest I asked her if I never found out she was still talking to him would she have still been talking to him today? she said "I don't know"... So obviously she didn't give a **** about what I thought about him even though I already knew what he wanted and I told her from the moment he asked her to hang out by herself with him, he just wants you for one reason. To me I feel disrespected on all different levels especially after me and sher agreed to change yet she couldn't stop? all she had to do was stop texting him and sending him instant messages and we would be fine because I did accept the fact that it's hard for her to find a job, but even then she wasn't looking for just any job she could get she was being very selective. and like I said I stopped playing the games and started focusing on school more because obviously the video games were what made her unhappy with me in the first place.

The whole matt thing and me talking to her about it, well you want to know what is funny is when she lies she always gets really scared and hurries up to delete or shut her computer down , she had a death grip on her laptop after I asked her why she closed it so abruptly, then I said what are you hiding and with a scared face she said "nothing I was just posting a blog on my feelings of you going back into the military and you can see it later" I said, "well if I can see it later why not let me see it now?" she started to try to more her hand to the power button to exit all her programs. and I shut the laptop completely and she then refused to let me see it so I gave her two options I gave her the count of ten to show me it or she was out of the house or she lets me see the so called blog she was going to post later. well when I finally got the laptop from her hands and found a message that was quite inviting, she really didn't seem like she didn't want to talk to him still after are agreement. You know I wouldn't have even been super pissed if I never found the whole blow job thing in the convo or maybe a can you please leave me alone? Which while at her uncle's we agreed if he ever sent her a IM or a text message that she should tell me so I could tell him to **** off since she is too nice of a person as she claims.

You know what else is funny when I found out she just sat there with a blank stare on her face didn't shed a single tear and on top of that his user name was changed to Kiki, which he also was known as Katharine 2 weeks ago on her AIM. You would be surprised what you can notice in a glance. and I'm the type of person that over analyzes everything. the thing is if she never wanted to talk to him again then she wouldn't have lied to me in the first place and she definitely wouldn't have changed his name to a females name....

I grew up in a family of 7 with 4 brothers, I know what it's like to never get what I want and to not have food on the plate, I also know that when the only food you have is what you have to eat you shouldn't ask for something else. I have had many days in my life where I had to starve or eat what's on the table. Sher would never do that she would ask me to go out and get food even when we had stuff in the fridge or in the pantry. I mean I spend well over 300 bucks plus a month on fast food and food in the house just to make her happy and honestly I've told her I can't do it all the time but she brings it up over and over till I finally give in and go buy her fast food. I'm not rich and I have no family that can help me if I get in a bind and neither does she so what I have been trying to tell her is I need to save money because I need to someday open my own business and with spending everything I did I couldn't save a dime. I don't want to grow up like my parents scrounging just to get buy for the month of having the power turned off for a few days to even weeks. That's just not how I want to live and can you blame me for not wanting to end up like them? So trust me I'm not self centered I'm just looking out for my future and what would have been ours because in this day in age, one person working or with an income can't support a family, unless you have a awesome job that pays you fairly well.

Like I have said before I told her to tell me when he talked to her, as did her uncle if he tried to talk to her she was supposed to tell me so I could tell him to leave her alone and she even told me in the car the night we got back together that she would tell him herself but she never did and I swear that to you with my life. he even told me that at one point she told him that she was single and just living with me. who am I to believe? sher or him? since sher always lies to me. it's hard to believe her once she instilled that mistrust with me and that's why no matter how much I love/loved her I could never really know if she's telling the truth. Have you ever had someone lie to you for no reason at all? Just because they think you will get mad or because they are trying to cover something else up with another lie?

Btw there is a big difference in a guy friend and guy that's a friend and wants to hook up and as a girl if you don't understand the difference then something's wrong. it's not rocket science and I'm pretty sure when a guy knows you have a boyfriend and you have never met him in person and it's been only a few days since you have met him online and he's asking you to hang out with him. That means he's not a friend at all and because he's a guy and knows sher was unhappy he probably comforted her with a bunch of sweet nothings which was all a plan to get in her pants as I told her from the get go... Maybe you all think I'm going over the edge but like she said he brought up the sex which is a sign he's no longer a friend, especially if you're seeing someone…