[Christina86]

I don't know when (likely this week or next) and I don't exactly know how (it'll be in person, I'm not sure what to say though) ...

But I'm dumping the boyfriend...

and that hurts me a lot to say, because he's a good guy.

But he's so not right for me. And he clearly doesn't want me as a girlfriend.

It just sucks. I'm only 22, yes ... but this is my first boyfriend. EVER.

And it hurts. A lot.

[turquoisesea]

((((((((((((((Christina)))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))

[AAAAA]

So sorry that you're going through such a difficult time.

[cantstopcrying]

oh honey, I'm so sorry things didn't work out! Good for you though for recognozing it sooner rther than later and for oing the righht thing even though it hurts.

[calijenn]

It's always hard letting go of someone you care for and you're very strong and smart to realize it's time to move on so you both can find your other half.

[CalmCarl]

So sorry to hear that you are going through that. As a guy who has been on the receiving end of that conversation all I can say is don't do the "we could still be friends" thing. Let him know he is a good guy and that you do care about him but that the relationship just isn't what you need. Just my suggestion.

[youOme]

I don't know specifically what went down between ya'll, but be sure to express your concerns and give him the oppurtunity to act on them before tossing himout the door. If you have and he has failed to act, then sorry for the loss but at least you had tried. There will be other relationships in your life and you'll look back on it like a knot in the road, something that contributed to making who you are.

[Christina86]

I'm not sad. He wasn't appearing to be either. We'll just hang out and be friends, but I may take some time away just to get used to being single again.

All in all, I do still love him and care about him - but it was never going to work out. Really.

[jacq10]

Aw hunny (((((((((((christina)))))))))
I'm sorry to hear about this I knew how much this relationship meant to you.
If you ever need an ear or shoulder to cry on, I'm here ok?
Sending lots of love your way...

[Christina86]

Okay. I officially hate my emotions. I've now bawled my eyes out, talked for an hour on the phone with a friend, screamed, hit tables and played with my rats. And I still feel like crap. I hate this. Make it end.

[jacq10]

(((((big, huge, giganto hugs))))))

You're entitled to hate how you're feeling right now... its not a pleasant experience, otherwise, they wouldn't call it heart break

It sounds to me like you're trying to do things that distract you from your emotions? I think that is a good thing right now. Other things that you might try are watching a favourite TV show, reading a book, hanging out here, really.. just doing anything that occupies your mind, because doing that is incompatible with thinking thoughts of him...

I mean it when I said I'm here for you.... if you want to talk, I'm on msn, or just send me a PM or something, k?

You will get through this... one day at a time
Hang in there hun

xo