Confused and sorta stuck... :/

Hey everyone. I'm sorta-ish new to this site so bear with me for a while . I've been with my boyfriend for 2 years a few months... so we are pretty close. I've serious issues with opening up with people, I mean I'm an open book when it comes to emotions and habits of mine but when it comes down to the way I tick and tock it's hard. When it comes down to the heart of it all, I'm pretty much bricked off... Anyhoo, my boyfriend and I met online not a dating site but from an online game, I'm not into games I just liked the community and it gave me something to do with my extra time, but he is... what's the word? Obsessed! He and I would fight a lot about it and me being insecure and unable to open up I got really paraniod... we fought a lot, I started to grow a little and take chances, I started to trust him and because of that he and I got closer again, though things were still touchy because of the period of time where we fought and fought... I moved in with him 4 months ago. (I moved from California to Kentucky) And things were great for a while (probably because it seemed like a visit still, it was less serious)He laid back on his gaming alot! But now things are horrible! I get upset because of little things he does... most of the time it is to help me out but he doesn't know how to go about it, but others are just because he feels like it. I would get upset like I said, and he would shut me off, I would ask him if what he things, he says "You'll be okay" or "It's okay." only because everything is okay to him. There isn't a problem because he doesn't see one! He laughs whenever I cry or try to talk serious with him, HE IS NOT A HEARTLESS JERK NOR IS CRUEL he just does that to everyone, I feel like it's because he cannot handle pressure, he is afraid to care, because he's gotten hurt in the past. I've asked him if he thought something was funny he said no that he didn't know why he'd do those things. I admit to have emotional difficulties, and probably shouldn't be in a relationship until I've ironed them out, but we both cannot deal with me moving back to California nor breaking up. I mean I still love him, the little things that he would do and/or say. Everytime he smiles (even when we are arguing most of the time) it makes me smile. I need help, and he himself admitted that he needed some help too. I know we should seak professional help together, but right now funds are very low and I haven't really established myself here yet. So I was hoping someone out there in cyberland(lol I love that word) would/could give me some advice.

whew it sounds like you guys have some relationship stuff goin' on. idk know what to suggest since you can't see a t right now. there are community programs and things run by the county you might look into to get some counseling together and apart..unfortunately when we get into a relationship and bring some baggage with us, it makes for difficulties.
the other thing you all can do is to pick certain times a week that you sit and chat. in order to do this well it's important to use the "i" word rather than "YOU". keep your points on how you feel not what the other person is doing wrong. this is not as easy as it sounds. but thought i'd throw that out to you. you all can do this if you're both committed to barring the "you" word when you talk. maybe each have a sign to hold up when the other gets off track. if you have a good sense of humor this can work.
keep us posted, we care. and welcome to pc by the way!!!

Thanks so much! Yeah life is complicated ><