Prayers Please

Angie, Hon, you know I love you but I feel as if I've let you down. Maybe because I don't still really close to you, I don't know. But your words have brought back some peace about you and your little girls.

Roe, I'm trying to absorb your words. Meds didn't help my G-mother or my mom. All they got was blood thinners. The g-mother hemorraged everwhere the nurses touched her. The damage was already done in my mom's brain by the time she got the blood thinners. The dxing Dr said it was "dementia"!! From one minute to the next?? I don't think so!! Of course, Crestor and those drugs weren't around then.

Freewill, at this point in time, I can't imagine being an inspiration to anyone but I certainly do appreciate your words. They help more than you know.

All of my adult life I've struggled to NOT be my mom and I discarded everything about the g-mother. When I was young and didn't know any better, I loved parts of her, but at 10 yrs old, I ran away from home because of her. I ran to a girl's boarding school with my mom's blessing. LOL

Be, on the surface, I've felt that PC is my purpose. All the times I'm told that I'm loved and appreciated and that I've been an inspiration I've felt that I AM doing something worthwhile. What counters that big time, is the fact that my family doesn't see what eveyone here sees. They see me as twisted, wicked and evil, or... stupid and insignificant. I've quoted the Bible in regards to that... "A prophet isn't appreciated in his own town" meaning my family. Somehow, I can't reconcile that to myself. I need to think more seriously about PC really being my family.

I'll be waiting for your call tonight.

Aaaahhhhhh! I feel like crawling in a hole right now... but I won't. My dog needs a walk. I wish I could say that one of my nine grandkids needs some kind of help or lovin'.

I love you all! Don't know what I'd do without you! Keep talking. I need to dispell this pall hanging over me.

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You are loved, you are appreaciated, you are needed, you are such a great person and what's better for me, funny at the same time that you know when to be seriuos.
I love ya girl, please hang in there~

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I'm trying to hang in. Dr upped my Lexapro. Hopefully it will help.



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Don't read if you're squeemish!!





Something else I'm fighting is PTSD. Half the reason I have it is because I nursed my mom through her strokes and watched her as she struggled to cross over for 15 hrs. I saw her death shudder. Watching Death creep slowly over someone is NOT pleasant but I wasn't about to leave her!!!! It's no wonder I went nuts afterward. OMG!!!!!!!!!

Tomi, how have you of all ppl let me down, girl you have stuck by me and given support, heck if it wern't for you tough old bird attitude I'd a given up along time ago
Love ya
Angie

First off I want to say sorry it has taken me so long to respond, but I am speachless to say.

I do love you with all my heart ...
My darling, you are so much more than you think. You have touched so many lives on this fourm in outside.

You are one of the reason I keep coming back well there are a few others I check on from time to time too.

I would hope you would tell me what was going on, not have to read it like this.. We email ..

You are so special to me, you always have been.
I love you and I know God is watching over you.
I know I have not said much about this but I do belive he is in everyone's life, no matter what relgion we are.

I am here for you my darling..
Please keep reaching out and keep us updated ok

Still got cha in my prayers!

I hope it's "only" true prodromes/auras from migraines. But also, you know, hallucinations accompany PTSD at times of great stress...

either way... in any way... it's good the doctor is paying attention to you... now if we can calm you down, you'll feel better. Don't panic, if you can help it... sure, it's good to have plans and thoughts and all that done ahead of time for no matter when the end comes...

with modern science the way it is, I'm sure they can prevent brain attacks better than ever. Like I said, I'm glad your doctor is paying attention now.

((((((((((((((((hug)))))))))))))

You're in my thoughts and prayers, hon ((((((((((((((((( Tomi ))))))))))))))))))

Much love,
Fuzzy

http://ladynwavsone.com/raisemeup.html Something you always send me

tomi I just got in and hubby went to sleep and I can't call tonight but will call you tomorrow. I am sorry you are so down right now hon but you are a true inspiration to many here including me!! I would go outside to call you now but it is 20 degrees here right now!! waaaaaaaaaaaaaa it is too cold for the deep sunny south! luv ya hon!

Trust in the Lord! Something tells me it is not your time. Letting the grandchildren know of you would be awesome. We do not do enough of that for many generations now.
mlyn

Hon, I'm human. What can I say? I'm not above being scared to death to get trapped inside my own body and mind, ya know?? I'm sorry!

I'm sorry, Lady D. To say I was, and still am freaked, is an understatement! I haven't been thinking right.

You know I love you, too.

Thanks for the prayers, Jenn! I can sure use them all!

Those weren't hallucinations, Hon. When I was in the throws of panic right after my mom passed, I asked a nurse how you know you're having a stroke and she told me what I saw is one symptom of a stroke. I've had two. It's really scary!!

Yeah, glad the Dr is finally listening to me. I'm not panicked. I'm numb... just going through the motions of everyday living.

Dr mentioned doing an ultra sound of the main arteries to my brain but no appt was made. I think I'm going to bug her about it. Let's find out for sure what I'm dealing with here.

Thanks, Hon.

That's half an attempt at a smile. I can't afford to feel anything right now, Skeezers. I'm sitting on the lid to my fear.

I sure hope this feeling you're having is simply fear and anxiety working on you. I don't know what we'd do without you. You are a big influence on these forums. Take good care of yourself lady. your friend, Ozzie.

I'm sorry. I'll keep you in my prayers.
I'm an older person too with a host of similiar health issues.. It scares you...dealing with unknown problems...but your doing the right thing; You follow what the Doctor wants you to do, study the "health issue" as best you can and pray. I see your faith is strong.
I'm sorta new here...but I see your "cyber handle" and it makes me think of all those old "Autumn jazz standards" I love so much. Gets me singing.
That's cool huh? You put a song in my soul!
Everyone has something to give here...please don't 'belittle" yourself. Look at "George Baily's example"...again this season. Timeless.
Take care...m.b.

(((tomi)))) I know it is very scarey hon. hang in here with us hon. wish I could give you some real hugs but these are all I have at the moment since I am 2500 miles away luv u bunches

oh sept.. You are so wonderful, you are an inspritation to many ofus... I willpray for you, every night when I go to bed.
I say prayers every day, so I will add you to my list and as always

Love to you from your dragon

Oh yes do get the ultrasounds of your carotid arteries!!! They tried to scare my mom with stroke stories when she kept falling down, but after they did those ultrasounds, WHICH WERE ABSOLUTELY CLEAR, she was able to quit worrying like she was going to drop tomorrow!! It was a godsend, and SO easy to do! Please don't put that off.



B R E A T H E

Of course your adrenalin is flowing... calm... calm.... Nothing's changed except your knowledge of a possible problem, and now you can work on fixin it!

(((((((((((((((((((( SeptemberMorn LadyFriend ))))))))))))))))))))

I know this has to be WAY scary for you right now. I know we talked a little bit about this in PM, but I really think you need to get to a neurologist for some good testing. They TOLD mom she was having mini-strokes (TIA's), and at the time was having a flat-out stroke, at her dr/ER and she wasn't at all. It was the aura (she gets them without pain as well) combined with stress, pinched nerve and arthritis in her neck, and her tacacardia(sp?). That was three years ago and she's healthier than I am!

I know that this doesn't help your fear, concern, anxiety and depression, but hon, please see a specialist so all this anxiety doesn't worsen your depression more and more, OK?

You're in my prayers, as is your entire family in different ways.

I really feel good about this, just feeling, and I'm sending to you as I write this.

You're so cared for, LadyFriend. I've seen you grow to admire strengths and sweetnesses that make you so unique. Remember who and what you are in this big world right now and that's a heck of alot.

KD

{{{{{{{{{{{{{{Moodyblu}}}}}}}}}}}}}} I'm so sorry you have similar health issues. It sure is scary!

LOL I put a song in your heart?? Thank you so much for those words... even if it's just my screen name. Where did you come up with yours; The Moody Blues group or Elvis' song, Moody Blue? I love them both.

I've still got so much more to say that I don't want anything to make it where I can't do that anymore. I need to get busy writing it down before I can't do it anymore.

Thank you for your prayer, Moody. Every little bit helps.

Your most welcome!
My "cyber name" is actually part of my Christian name... and it fits my "restless" personality...plus I simply love blue...in particular cerulean[sky] blue. The Moody blues were a special part of my "growing youth"...their spiritual songs still move me: "All my life I never really knew me till today...Now I know I'm just another step along the way...Weep no more for treasures you've been searching for in vain, for the truth is gently falling in the rain...I don't know what I'm searching for...I never have opened the door...tomorrow might find me at last...turning my back on the past"...and numerous other lines...great stuff still!
Elvis' Moody Blue...of course! Great classic!
Take care now...do what you must...and pray!
m.b.

I can't say i know how you feel but what i do know i'll will share gladly. All good things happen to those who love the Lord and God answer the prayers of those who love Him. The thing is that sometimes we can't see how God answer our pryers or it happens only after our time. This is why it's so importand to believe in His Word and to have faith. Me of all people know how it feel to be in a place where you are crying out for Father to help.....and still nothing....All i have is to hang on to His promises and to remind Him of them because in the end Jesus did die for every one, we just have to except His timing.

It sounds like you really love our Lord Jesus, never never lose your love for Him and just maybe He'll surprise you, and you'll see miricels happen in front of your eyes.

Sorry for my bad spelling