[chiggins814]

hi all. i am a newly diagnosed schizoaffective. The doctors had told me that i was bipolar for a long time. I didnt believe them. I hardly believe anybody. The schizofrenic in me has affected me for a while. It started when i was 14. I thought i had been traumatized but looking back it was me not being able to cope with what my life was at the time. I remember crying hysterically in 2nd grade and fighting with my mom in 4th. I hear voices and have conversations in my head almost 24/7. i have been on antipsycotics for the last month and think that I need a increase. about 2 weeks ago i tried putting myself in the hospital. Im always on edge and dont wanna run anymore, it seems though i cant even move out of my seat. im glad though there is a place i found with people that think the same way i do. Myfamily has a hard time understanding.

[EmptyReflection]

Fortunately, we understand it quite well. Welcome.

[Tsunamisurfer]

Welcome, Chiggins

[Browneyes2011]

Hello hun, I'm afraid that it's not going to be an easy journey but at lest you're not alone, all you can do from here is to move foreword and to make the best out of what you have. I hope you're family at lest tries to understand they may just want the best for you. I have been on my journey for along time and it has never been easy. But I find my family may not understand but all they want is to be there for me, and to support me. I hope you do well and good luck to you. and welcome

[chiggins814]

my family has said that they just dont know what to do to help me. they listen but there is no help. just confusioon and chaos.

[Lizcraze]

Originally Posted by chiggins814

hi all. i am a newly diagnosed schizoaffective. The doctors had told me that i was bipolar for a long time. I didnt believe them. I hardly believe anybody. The schizofrenic in me has affected me for a while. It started when i was 14. I thought i had been traumatized but looking back it was me not being able to cope with what my life was at the time. I remember crying hysterically in 2nd grade and fighting with my mom in 4th. I hear voices and have conversations in my head almost 24/7. i have been on antipsycotics for the last month and think that I need a increase. about 2 weeks ago i tried putting myself in the hospital. Im always on edge and dont wanna run anymore, it seems though i cant even move out of my seat. im glad though there is a place i found with people that think the same way i do. Myfamily has a hard time understanding.

Im 14 right now, and i've just been diagnosed, so i know how you feel

[mgran]

Both Chiggins and Liz... it really can get better.

[philbee]

Originally Posted by mgran

Both Chiggins and Liz... it really can get better.

i alkso have schizoaffective disorder, and OCD. it took me years to find the right combination of meds, but they do seem to keep the schizoaffective somewhat under "control". i still get terribly paranoid now and then, but nowhere near as much before i started taking effective psych meds.

good luck in your journey!

[Singularis]

NOTE: Do not get off your meds unless told to do so by your doctor!

-I am currently off my meds and have been for months now.. it was cool for a while.. wel actually wasn't.. but it seemed like i didnt need them because my mind convinces itself to beleive things sometimes.. but anyways I didnt willingly get off my meds its only because the VA refused to treat me because i received an Other Than Honorable discharge due to behavior issues..( which was do to my illness: but i have a lawyer right now soo you know)--- i basically have no insurance and am on disability but they dont offer health insurance and i cant find it in me to leave my house. i stay stuck here all day and when i leave its to get drunk with "friends" and i usually embarras myself if i drink too much.. i can hide my emotions and controll the random twitches associated with anxiety.. but its basically like shaking a can of coke.. when im home eventually ill explode and sit in my room for hours in a mental daze. this really sucks, i wish i would have just never joined the marines maybe i would have never been sexually assaulted and my life would be fine.. but who knows-- i know theres a lot i can do with myself now but im just so afraid to do things on my own, im afraid to let my family get involved jus like some of you- they just dont understand.. i hate to be looked at with pity. ive been diagnosed for years now.. i understand all of you and wish you all the best..

[mgran]

I really hope the VA thing sorts itself out... and that the reason for your discharge is overturned. If not it's prejudice against the disabled. One thing about living in the UK... at least we get some treatment, even if we have to wait forever to see a psychiatrist, there is other mental health support to tide us over, and we're entitled to meds, even if we can't afford them.

[Singularis]

THANK YOU FOR THE SUPPORT!

its nice to talk to someone other then a doc and be heard.