[HoboofOside]

Originally Posted by dillpickle1983

Check in as needed and as many times as you want!

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Just checking in, been about a month since I've been on the site. Have had a lot of other obligations that have worn me out. I'm on Abilify right now, and my doctor(s) are literally fighting the insurance company on getting it covered. But I am here and I am still kickin.

Hey Dillpickle1983

I have Schizoaffective disorder w/ Bipolar Since 6/1993, 5/1998, 6/2000
in 1/2008,1/2010 is was Schizophrenia and 7/2012 Schizophrenia
and I got a New Doctor we Talked on
Schizoaffective Disorder vs. Schizophrenia
I get paranoia, racing thoughts, manic episodes, mood swings,
voices in my head and "I get suicide thoughts now and then"

I lost my Doctor from 6/2000 to 7/2009 dues to my SSI and SSDI being
Stopped and I got my legal matters fixes outside of California
and I had to move to South Carolina.
and After I got SSDI Back in Nov/Dec 2009 I moved to San Diego, CA
in 1/2010 I got hit with a $200.00 Co-Pay and I lost my Doctor the 2nd
time in my life. and I lost my Trust in Mental Health
and I got papers from Social Security for a Review in late may2014 and
since I had no doctor they sent me to there Doctor and there Doctor
said I am no longer disabled as of 6/2014 and

I disagree with them and I ask for Appeal

I have a now Doctor and I am on Invega 6mg now
and I am going to see a Lawyer on wed 7/23/14

Tim

[FreedomFighter]

I am not officially diagnosed with Schizoaffective yet but I fit the diagnostic criteria perfectly and am hopefully getting re-diagnosed soon.. Anyways lately I have had no mood problems and life in most ways is going really good ie, amazing friends, sports, job interview, writing a book, amazing treatment team... But the past few days my psychotic symptoms are worsening and now everyday for a large portion of the day I am hallucinating(mostly visual), I am dissociating a lot, have times I literally cannot think, my friends say I'm acting different and ask me if I'm on drugs, I get confused about what's going on and what's real, bugs crawl under my skin, my memory is horrible, it's hard to speak at times and bad people are coming to get me. I hope everybody else is doing better..

[insilence]

Remember those old 80s commercials "knowing is half the battle"? I know that after testing my body and what parts of it reply vocally. I've over time silenced my annoyances. I just hope it stays that way. Good luck. Be smarter than yourself.

[worthit]

Maybe it's time to re-evaluate your treatment. Be sure to let your pdoc know all the symptoms you're experiencing and be honest and upfront with him/her.

[cokes]

Hi, new member checking in. I was diagnosed this week so my head is all over the place but I am ok really nothing psychotic going on and my mood is lifting thanks to escitalopram. So ok really

[worthit]

Welcome, glad you're doing well.

[Shmooey]

New on this thread, and likely getting a SZA depressive type diagnosis next time I see my pdoc on the 20th. I just met him a few days ago and he didn't want to label me too soon. My current diagnosis is major depression with psychotic features, but I went into the new doc's office crying about how it can be called that if the psychotic features are as bad and sometimes worse than the depression? I was promised that when they got my depression under control, the psychosis would disappear and it's only gotten stronger.

*sigh* thanks for letting me vent that.

but yeah, just want to say hello to the group since I've already posted on other threads and wanted to keep on this one.

[Atypical_Disaster]

Welcome to all the new faces here.

[Blue_Bird]

Doing wonderful, so lucky and grateful to have finally found the right combo of meds

[Hobbit House]

I'm so glad I got an appointment with my Dr. tomorrow. I need a change in my meds. I feel so paranoid, and paranoia sucks because you never know if it's real! It definitely may be real, so I'm not doing too great. My husband is making me have a good laugh though, now and then. Laughter is good medicine.

I don't know how the Dr.'s going to change my meds since he just switched me to another one about 2mths. ago. Often it seems like he's at a loss as to what to do with me, that I just have to accept that I'm as well off as I can be. I can not accept that and hope he will understand when he sees me.

right now I'm on:
Wellbutrin
Seroquel
Lamictal
Depakote
Abilify

[dillpickle1983]

Still on the depressive side of things. My best friend Aaron moved away several weeks ago, and although not really far (same state) he is gone. Been really depressed. Because I got really depressed, at my lowest point I had a bunch of SZA symptoms that hit me, and they are still plaguing me now. I started to skip my meds, and now my doctors put me on a once per month shot of Abilify so I don't skip any more doses. Ugh. Anyways the last 3.5 weeks have been rough for me, but I think it is getting better. Still having delusions and seeing things, hearing my name wispered in my ear is getting kind of creepy.

[Atypical_Disaster]

I'm doing quite well.

[newtus]

when did schizoaffective forums get a check in thread?!??!?!!?!?!?!??

[dillpickle1983]

Originally Posted by newtus

when did schizoaffective forums get a check in thread?!??!?!!?!?!?!??

Well back in May I started it because there wasn't one.

[Terabithia]

I'm doing Ok. Managing to cope with being alone even though it's a very short period of time while my husband's at work. I just wish we brought in more money, so that I could do things that were meaningful to me while he was working, such as taking an art class, tennis lessons, or just buying my own art supplies. It's hard to feel good about yourself, when you're not doing things that are meaningful to you. I'm so thankful for meds. I've never understood why people would want to stop taking them. I don't remember some of my last trip to the hospital, but I do wonder if during that time, I may have refused my meds because I didn't think I was hallucinating and maybe meds. would make me see things as they weren't??? That's the only thing I could understand, if that's what I did. I would like to understand where others are coming from though with this.

[jgo27]

New to the forums here. All in all at the moment I'm getting ready for college, which has me excited and worried. Haven't been able to sleep lately which caused a spike in my symptoms. Things really kick in after my family is asleep. Hearing footsteps, and people talking downstairs, which always sets me on edge. Though this isn't anything new so it's manageable.

I'm probably going to watch movies till I feel tired. Do you guys have any movie suggestions? I'm open to anything!

Hope you guys are doing good!

[Terabithia]

movie suggestions
action - Hanna
drama, character study - Her
Slumdog Millionaire
comedy - Death at a Funeral - British version

[Blue_Bird]

Doing pretty good, gotta start working harder in therapy though not for my sza or bipolar which I've been doing great with but for my anxiety.

[worthit]

Doing well today. Last night had a hallucination but went for a walk on a salt and fresh water land reserve with a friend who works there. Very low symptoms while on the wAlk.

[Terabithia]

I need to rant. Hope that's ok. I'm not sure where to begin, though. Friday night I was at this party and a cake was served for my husband's birthday. I simply said, "Wow, that's really good. What kind of cake is that?" This woman said, "It's a black and white cake, DUH." I am EXTREMELY sensitive to "duh," because I was made fun of constantly when I was younger. I was always daydreaming, and on top of that things that were obvious to others were not so obvious to me. There are some parts of my personality that are very intelligent and others that just are not. I was treated like I was less of a girl and no guys were interested in me. Before this comment, this same woman was whispering to her husband all night, with her hand blocking her face from my view.

During one of my support groups yesterday, I actually caught myself rocking for a minute. That's something that I'd normally do in the hospital. I'm having a hard time being there for others, because I'm so caught up in my own problems right now - my mind will feel like it's crumbling apart at times, along with my personality. I crave cigarettes! I think people are constantly watching me and judging me, which I guess makes me a very self-centered person. Is there any other way to see that? It's so strange because usually I think I'm a caring person, but now I'm having my doubts. My meds. aren't right but I can't seem to get in with a doctor. I'm insecure, but my husband reassures me that "any day with me is better than a day without me." I'm very lucky and his reassurances do help a lot. When I'm without him though, I've been a mess. I know that I need to do things that will make me feel better about myself, and that I need different meds. Then I'll be better company for others, too. I just need an understanding ear, I guess.

[worthit]

I guess the best thing to do is talk to your Dr. Also, all these things you are talking about is your illness .Working on illness recognition is something that you can do to help yourself. All the symptoms of feeling people are talking about you, etc is your illness. When we are having a tough time, we don't think about others because we're too wrapped up in our own brains. Don't be so hard on yourself and maybe leave when you start to get overwhelmed at social events. Take care.

[Blue_Bird]

All I can say is, life is wonderful

[Terabithia]

How much a few words can do, as well as a smile. Thanks, worthit.
Feeling a little more at peace.

[Terabithia]

feeling confused...as usual, from absolutely nothing and absolutely everything

[Terabithia]

EXTREMELY paranoid