always and forever.

coming to terms with having this disorder is...
irritating. i feel like it's crippling, why do i have to have this and then i can never fully recover? why do i have to deal with this? i feel like all of my "mental problems" are environmental. and so i have this grudge. it isn't my fault, and you know what? i don't want to play the blame game. i just don't understand why some humans are born with everything and then others are born with nothing and it's frustrating to me. everyone wants equality but i feel like that is just a joke. i mean come on, let's be real. no one is equal.

i don't know what i'm talking about or what this is on about. i'm done, i guess.
this is me ending a thought process.

I hear ya! I just had asked my T when will be done with meds & therapy. I'm getting tired of this and I am new to this diagnosis. Feel discouraged and defeated! I keep most of this to myself...many don't know what I go through which makes it harder. I agree with you, that we are not equal. It is unfair!!

i've carried this diagnosis officially for 10 years. bleh. before that i was "bi-polar 1" which i still swear is the exact same thing as schizoaffective. the stigma against mentally ill people will never go away, let's just be real. it's fine though, i enjoy who i am and the things i have gone though - they're all for a reason. i just don't know why the entire world is so judgmental towards individuals with mental illnesses. i blame the media.

Smiles.... Wouldn't it be nice if every time someone NOT Dx'd with a mental illness commits a crime, the media had to point that out? And what about the fact that they'll state an exact mental DX on the news, but if say someone had a diabetic crisis and plowed a car into a bunch of people, the news reports it as "experienced a medical event." They feel it's OK to put a mental dx out there, but not other dx's.

Stepping down from my now....

Media sucks, it doesn't help that once you commit a crime you're dx with something.

because if people commit crimes, they HAVE to be "insane" ....

This disorder may have ruined my career, made me lose friends, and almost costed my job, but it also made me a better person. I still have passion for what I love and I can express it in other ways, other than academia. Was it fair after I loss my girlfriend of 9 years? Was it fair that my best friend died? Was It fair that this disorder ruined my chosen vocation and ended in utterly embarrassing situation with professors never who don't understand? Is it fair that meds have given me Panic attacks and bipolar2 for life? It's all ****** but at least I can have moments and pockets where life is worth living. I have many issues but maybe through all this opposition I've become better, even if crippled.

People with schizoaffective disorder are virtually demonized by the media.

It is bad enough that we have an illness without having to put up with that kind of unwarranted "crap labeling" from TV, radio and newspapers.

Who do these people think they are? I'll tell you who they are.

They are the reptiles of the press - unsympathetic and cold-blooded crocodiles just waiting to rip the flesh off the weakest and most discriminated-against members of society - the mentally ill.

Government should be forced to work with media heads to come up with a proper code of conduct for news coverage of crimes and those involved. We need a level playing field, that's all.

Is that too much to ask?

My pdoc and tdoc are both fond of telling me they've had patients who have gone into total remission. I guess they are trying to be encouraging, but all it seems to do for me is send me into a "why not me then?" pity party.