[Thought+Broad.Girl]

I have been suffering with "thought broadcasting" as they call it, were everyone around me can read my mind. for years.

it started off innocent enough. at age 15. i went back to high school several times and tried really hard to be a responsible young person, i was even able to go to college for a couple years in my early 20s.

but at some point my thoughts became more vicious towards the people around me. i don't know if this happens to normal people. but i started judging people on the city bus on my way back from school. i started having automatic racist thoughts and judging people based on their income. i knew these thoughts were wrong. but i could not stop having them.. this was the point in my life where i basically gave up. i quit school and started drinking. I have not gone back since and can't kick my drinking habit either i am now 31.

i feel like there is no real point to live. i cannot quit alcohol no matter how hard i have tried because people will always read my mind, and my thoughts will never be kind enough. so even if i had a perfect set of actions. my thoughts would still cause me enough trouble that i just don't see the point to try.

i am very depressed right now. and plan on going back on abilify soon, it is a mood stablizer as well as an anti depressant and it even has anti psychotic properties. but no amount of meds have ever been able to make me feel normal in public for very long.

so how do you control thought? is it even possible? i have tried meditation, counting, reading street signs, closing my eyes on the bus. i have tried music. everything i could think of with out any positive results. any suggestions?

[jaynedough]

It sounds like you've got alot going on. Sometimes I get the negative thoughts about people in public, too. Especially lately. (Thankfully not on the internet.) I don't have a way to block them. Until I read this post, I thought it meant that I am becoming a bad person. Now I know that I need to bring this up with my PDoc and T.

Sorry I didn't have any answers for you. Thanx for bringing this subject up. I hope you find some answers.

[Thought+Broad.Girl]

hi, so do you have thought broadcasting too? i have read that negative thoughts are pretty normal. let me see if i can find the post for you

[Thought+Broad.Girl]

Originally Posted by jaynedough

It sounds like you've got alot going on. Sometimes I get the negative thoughts about people in public, too. Especially lately. (Thankfully not on the internet.) I don't have a way to block them. Until I read this post, I thought it meant that I am becoming a bad person. Now I know that I need to bring this up with my PDoc and T.

Sorry I didn't have any answers for you. Thanx for bringing this subject up. I hope you find some answers.

intrusive thoughts:
https://www.psychologytoday.com/blog...-normal-or-not

yeah bad thoughts are normal but thought broadcasting isn't. soo. it sucks really badly

[Atypical_Disaster]

Abilify is actually an atypical antipsychotic, it is primarily for psychotic symptoms so there's a good chance it'll help you with the issues you're describing. It has mood stabilizing properties as well, however, so people with depression or bipolar are often prescribed to take it to help stabilize their moods.

I can relate to the thought broadcasting being so distressing, that was one of my many problems when I was actively psychotic. I've found that finding the right combination of meds is the only thing that has really helped, unfortunately.

I hope the Abilify works for you, it worked for me for a long time.

[Thought+Broad.Girl]

Aww! thank you very much for your input! I now have a pdoc apt on Monday! YAAAY MEEE i wil hopefully be getting back on Abilify and also hydroxyzine for anxiety! it is non addictive and it helped a lot in the past!!! <33333333

Originally Posted by Atypical_Disaster

Abilify is actually an atypical antipsychotic, it is primarily for psychotic symptoms so there's a good chance it'll help you with the issues you're describing. It has mood stabilizing properties as well, however, so people with depression or bipolar are often prescribed to take it to help stabilize their moods.

I can relate to the thought broadcasting being so distressing, that was one of my many problems when I was actively psychotic. I've found that finding the right combination of meds is the only thing that has really helped, unfortunately.

I hope the Abilify works for you, it worked for me for a long time.

[Mayowhite]

For me medication has helped a lot. I've tried so many I lost count. It just depends on the person which meds will work for you. Its a trial and error thing. So goodluck! hope that helps

[RisuNeko]

I almost think even normal people get somewhat intrusive thoughts about people of low income of or other races or religions or things like that just because of societal stereotypes and how unavoidavble coming in contact with them is. I could be wrong but I think this is a problem normal people have too.

Not the thought broadcasting, but I don't see what the intrusive thoughts or the thought broadcasting have to do with alcohol, unless you just see that as your only coping mechanism.

[insilence]

firstly i see the whole hearing voices phenomena as a external intrusion using internal methods
i made the blocking hat that worked for me partially. i put it on and had no intrusive thoughts while wearing. took it off they came back within minutes.

first take a 6-12" aluminum foil sheet, fold shiny in inch by inch so its thick
take silver wire (crafts bead wire) and wind around foil strips
wind charcoal mesh screen around strips
place 4-6 in winter hat so fully covers head especially lower front and back

let me know if you have success. i know to those who think its all in the head what you would say..i always say..think again.

[RisuNeko]

Best of luck with your "blocking hat" but I don't think you'll have many takers.

I have thought again...of many more reasons why your theory is the opposite of scientific. But do what you've gotta do. More power to you if it's really working for you. The placebo effect can work miracles in some people.

[insilence]

Originally Posted by RisuNeko

Best of luck with your "blocking hat" but I don't think you'll have many takers.

I have thought again...of many more reasons why your theory is the opposite of scientific. But do what you've gotta do. More power to you if it's really working for you. The placebo effect can work miracles in some people.

ill explain why i KNOW its external.
A: when it started it came from a refridgerator and my computer fan.

B: i drove under a bridge and it stopped for a few seconds

C: they were yelling loudly as i was outside and cars going by made the sounds get wavey and distorted

D: i have direct reactions to my blocking, and the voices intelligently tell me if what i plan to do will work.

E: ive had several people report that my ideas do help them.

the reality of science cannot be found in the DSM or a psych ward all the time. i bet alot of people thought teslas cordless electricity was a hoax

[Thought+Broad.Girl]

Originally Posted by insilence

ill explain why i KNOW its external.
A: when it started it came from a refridgerator and my computer fan.

B: i drove under a bridge and it stopped for a few seconds

C: they were yelling loudly as i was outside and cars going by made the sounds get wavey and distorted

D: i have direct reactions to my blocking, and the voices intelligently tell me if what i plan to do will work.

E: ive had several people report that my ideas do help them.

the reality of science cannot be found in the DSM or a psych ward all the time. i bet alot of people thought teslas cordless electricity was a hoax

you battle a lot of adversity for your believes here on pc. but i personally commend you for thinking out side of the box. i mean none of us really know the woven strings or the truth this society may hold to our blind mind sets.

[Justaghost11]

Hello. I don't have intrusive thoughts, but I do have extreme moods. I'm here to get more information about schizoaffective disorder.

[RisuNeko]

You might want to check out the bipolar forum. You mentioned you've never had any hallucinations before so wondering why you would think you have schizoaffective unless I'm missing some information.

[Thought+Broad.Girl]

Originally Posted by RisuNeko

You might want to check out the bipolar forum. You mentioned you've never had any hallucinations before so wondering why you would think you have schizoaffective unless I'm missing some information.

Thing is i do have thought broadcasting. it's considered a delusion but you might be right i might just have a thought disorder. some sort of ocd or something.

[RisuNeko]

Well if you're in a mood episode you can have psychosis symptoms if you have bipolar.

[Thought+Broad.Girl]

Originally Posted by RisuNeko

Well if you're in a mood episode you can have psychosis symptoms if you have bipolar.

yes, how can you tell if schizo affective, or just bipolar though? i have alsways been considered schizo in one way or another since age 15 but maybe that is cause my older bros both are diagnosed with that...

[RisuNeko]

Well what are your psychotic symptoms? And do they present outside of mood episodes. Psychosis outside of mood episodes =schizoaffective. Psychotic symptoms only during mood episodes, on both sides of the spectrum, is bipolar with psychotic symptoms. It's a fine line. I'm trying to find out where I fall between the two right now.

[defaultxxx]

I also had the problem with it seeming like people were reading my thoughts. I thought/felt like I had a team of psychologists monitoring me and telling all my coworkers what they thought I was thinking in addition to hearing people say things that really bothered me and I felt harassed. This illness really seems like a curse. What did I do to deserve this. We suffer enough already. Meds help some, but they always make me feel ****** and give me a lot of other problems too. I am off meds for over a month now. Still basically no voices, but here and there I think I hear comments... again usually from coworkers that make me wonder did they say that or is it in my head.

[Thought+Broad.Girl]

shoot, I have also made a few psychology voice buddies LOL .. Government i believe... haha! what do you think?