[FooZe]

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Originally Posted by dillpickle1983

Check in as needed and as many times as you want!

[Nix]

Just posting so I'm subscribed to this thread...

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[Angelique67]

Me too, hi Phoenix.

[Nix]

Hi Angelique.

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Same here. subscribed

[Mr.Arch-Vile]

I want to radio in,

All is well, all is well, over.

[avlady]

i want to subscribe too

[Tsunamisurfer]

Good news my side
My pdoc has lowered my Epilim.
She has kept my Risperidone unchanged because she is cautious of a potential relapse.
So far so good.

Originally Posted by Tsunamisurfer

Good news my side
My pdoc has lowered my Epilim.
She has kept my Risperidone unchanged because she is cautious of a potential relapse.
So far so good.

That's awesome!

[Shmooey]

Hi everyone, I haven't posted in a few weeks because the boards were getting too overwhelming while I was having a hard time. Thought I'd check in today. I've had my Klonopin doubled which is helping some, but I am still struggling. Hope others are better.

[Angelique67]

Originally Posted by Shmooey

Hi everyone, I haven't posted in a few weeks because the boards were getting too overwhelming while I was having a hard time. Thought I'd check in today. I've had my Klonopin doubled which is helping some, but I am still struggling. Hope others are better.

Hi Shmooey, it's nice to see you back again.

[dillpickle1983]

I'm doing ok I guess. Haven't been really compliant with my meds the last couple of weeks making life difficult. But I think I am back on track now. I was put on Viibryd to help with the depression but it seems to just wind me up and make me manicky and I'm still only on the 10mg starting dose. I have another doctor's appointment on February 2nd and hopefully I won't BS her and tell her all is ok, when really its not. Ugh. Oh well.

[Atypical_Disaster]

Good to see this check in thread is still here. Saw my psychiatrist and therapist this week and they both said that I still have SZA bipolar type/schizophrenia(my therapist thinks it's sz my psychiatrist thinks it's sza bipolar) along with my new diagnosis of DID. So I guess I just have another label to name my issues that aren't covered my my schizo weird and NPD diagnoses. But anyways, still moody and psychotic yep.

I'm doing well in the psychosis region lately besides the usual cognitive blah.

I don't know about my mood, my psychiatrist said I'm depressed and upped my AP(I can't take antidepressants they all make me manic as ****)... I've been sleeping all the time and I've gained a few pounds but I don't feel like **** like I would if I were actually full on depressed. Maybe if I am depressed it's just very mild? I don't know blargh mood stuff always confuses me the most out of everything lol.

If anything I think I might be getting kind of hypomanic but who knows MLIA.

[Atypical_Disaster]

Also subscribed to this thread because why not and I like the people who come around here!

[jaynedough]

Have been feeling totally crazy. Sorry if that word offends; it's the most accurate. The voice stuff has been amped up. I don't want to leave my house, and since I'm relying on a space heater, that means that I'm spending even more time in my bedroom. I don't want to do anything. Even posting here is difficult. The house is a disgusting, embarrassing mess. Totally zoning out and avoiding even thinking about getting stuff done.

Possible trigger:

I just don't want to go on anymore. I feel like I'm at a point where, if I should choose to, I could just totally give up and death would come quickly b/c I've let myself get in such bad physical shape.

I'm just so sad. And am in so much mental and physical pain. I'm far from the worst I've ever been. It's just that it's been going on so long that it's having a cumulative effect.

Sorry for the BummerFest.

[Tsunamisurfer]

Originally Posted by jaynedough

Have been feeling totally crazy. Sorry if that word offends; it's the most accurate. The voice stuff has been amped up. I don't want to leave my house, and since I'm relying on a space heater, that means that I'm spending even more time in my bedroom. I don't want to do anything. Even posting here is difficult. The house is a disgusting, embarrassing mess. Totally zoning out and avoiding even thinking about getting stuff done.

Possible trigger:

I just don't want to go on anymore. I feel like I'm at a point where, if I should choose to, I could just totally give up and death would come quickly b/c I've let myself get in such bad physical shape.

I'm just so sad. And am in so much mental and physical pain. I'm far from the worst I've ever been. It's just that it's been going on so long that it's having a cumulative effect.

Sorry for the BummerFest.

I'm sorry you're suffering so much, jaynedough. That is quite a struggle you are going through.

[Tsunamisurfer]

Cognitive deficits are the most troublesome of my symptoms at the moment. My medical insurer decided to put them to the test recently.

My daughter ordered her meds, and 5 days later I got meds addressed to me, with nothing for her. That took quite a bit of unraveling to get the right meds sent to her and for the medical insurance company to come up with a plan to get my new prescription delivered to me on time. We should see in the next five days what they deliver. I can't wait any longer than that before I run out of meds, and neither can my daughter.

If this all pans out, it will be an encouragement that my brain is improving.

Anxious

[avlady]

i wish you all well. i have been weining off of valium, it is a hard thing to do. taking it one day at a time.

[Angelique67]

Originally Posted by avlady

i wish you all well. i have been weining off of valium, it is a hard thing to do. taking it one day at a time.

I wish you good luck, avlady.

I don't really know where I'm at right now. I went for a nice walk in the park with a friend I met in the hospital today, and that felt good. During group today, I just kept thinking how I want to drown in the icy pond. Clozapine has been a God send for my psychotic symptoms, but I really wish I could sit through group without getting so upset. I think it means it's time for me to stop going.

[Angelique67]

Originally Posted by escapeartist

I don't really know where I'm at right now. I went for a nice walk in the park with a friend I met in the hospital today, and that felt good. During group today, I just kept thinking how I want to drown in the icy pond. Clozapine has been a God send for my psychotic symptoms, but I really wish I could sit through group without getting so upset. I think it means it's time for me to stop going.

What else was upsetting in group therapy? Besides the thoughts of the pond? It sounds more like you should give the therapy a chance.

[Tsunamisurfer]

Originally Posted by escapeartist

Clozapine has been a God send for my psychotic symptoms, but I really wish I could sit through group without getting so upset. I think it means it's time for me to stop going.

I'm not sure what is upsetting to you about group, but I have experienced difficulty with groups too. I have difficulty dealing with several people talking at once - a filtering thing, and that makes the informal chat time at groups very difficult. One group I meet with 4 times a year is a bipolar support group. 20-30 or so people. But at the moment I don't feel much connection with them or with what is discussed. They don't experience the schizo side of things, which is a large part of my experience. I have been grappling between feelings of wanting to leave and reasons to stay and participate, even though it is difficult. So far I have decided to stay.

I'm going to tell them that this week is my last. When I started there over a year ago there were maybe 10 people there max, but now there's 30 and it's too overwhelming. It's also catered towards adolescents (avg age is probably 15) and I'm 19 and over fighting with my parents and no longer in high school, the two things that we spend most of the time talking about. I feel like my problems are different. They talk about this one kid who is getting bullied in school and everyone wants to help, but when I talk about the leprechauns eating my food and hiding my socks no one says anything. Makes me feel more isolated than not going. Other kids there say how they're outcasts, but they're accepted by other members of the group. I'm not. I'm calling my pnurse and my t today to get appointments scheduled so I can leave the program.

[Angelique67]

Originally Posted by escapeartist

I'm going to tell them that this week is my last. When I started there over a year ago there were maybe 10 people there max, but now there's 30 and it's too overwhelming. It's also catered towards adolescents (avg age is probably 15) and I'm 19 and over fighting with my parents and no longer in high school, the two things that we spend most of the time talking about. I feel like my problems are different. They talk about this one kid who is getting bullied in school and everyone wants to help, but when I talk about the leprechauns eating my food and hiding my socks no one says anything. Makes me feel more isolated than not going. Other kids there say how they're outcasts, but they're accepted by other members of the group. I'm not. I'm calling my pnurse and my t today to get appointments scheduled so I can leave the program.

Maybe they can get you into an adult group, maybe now that you're older?

Originally Posted by Angelique67

Maybe they can get you into an adult group, maybe now that you're older?

The program doesn't have adult groups. The community health center that I used to go there used to have specific groups every week (relationships on tuesday, dbt on friday type of thing), but I'm not in that system anymore because the pdoc was toying with me and my case manager was pretty terrible. This girl I met at the hospital was telling me about DBSA groups that meet in the next town over and I think I'm going to go with her. It meets every Thursday.