Schizoaffective Check In Thread #1

Deilla · Jun 24, 2020, 02:09 PM

I'm not doing that well today. Seems like several people are having a hard time. Not sure if it's the way Jupiter is lined up with Mars or something. But I hope everyone gets to feeling better.

SlumberKitty · Jun 24, 2020, 03:55 PM

HUGS @Breaking Dawn HUGS @Deilla Hope you feel better soon!

SlumberKitty · Jun 24, 2020, 03:56 PM

I got early birthday flowers from a coworker today. They smell scrumptious plus I love pink! They make me happy!

SlumberKitty · Jun 24, 2020, 03:57 PM

I'm doing okay I guess. Not too many hallucinations. I had the last ones a day or two ago. Some on Saturday as well. Still having some delusions I guess. But today I feel pretty okay.

bpforever1 · Jun 26, 2020, 02:18 AM

I'm doing well. I took my medication this morning. I taught some classes afterwards. Then, I went out to pay my bills. I feel fine!! I slept after I came back and feel relaxed. I will teach again tonight. Life is continuing to hum along. I am receiving more students while some are leaving. I have a decent schedule. I want to earn more money though and signed up to substitute for other teachers but have not heard anything yet. I will be ok. I work daily for a few hours. I have good students too! I am happy but the weather is really hot. It is almost 90 degrees here with severe humidity. It feels like 100 degrees! I will stay inside for the rest of the day. I am happy. I have a place to stay, food to eat, and clothes to wear. I am stable because I take my medication. I take a shower nightly. I wear my makeup daily also. I feel awesome and am rather grateful about my situation. I wish I could meet people but have not due to the pandemic. I don't want to take any risks! I just stay in my apartment and go out if it is absolutely necessary. I like my life and don't want anything bad to happen.

Breaking Dawn · Jun 26, 2020, 10:48 AM

I have a lot to deal with everyday, like most people here, but I am feeling stronger than before, & I feel hopeful. Also, my sad feeling went away, maybe because I got some needed sleep. I hope you all are having a better day, too!

WastingAsparagus · Jun 26, 2020, 09:12 PM

I am doing okay. I just need to do homework more often, but my stuff gets in the way sometimes. By stuff, I mean mental illness.

Deilla · Jun 26, 2020, 09:16 PM

I'm doing well. The day started off rough but I adjusted my attitude and mood. I also took a 4 hour nap.

bpforever1 · Jun 28, 2020, 12:57 AM

I was really tired yesterday. I slept between my classes, then slept after my last class until this morning. I woke up to do some prep work. Then, I took a shower and put on my makeup. I have a student this afternoon. I am doing fine. I have a new student this week. It should be ok. I sometimes become anxious about new students but I will do my best again. I will go shopping for food this afternoon after teaching. Then, I will return to clean my apartment. I have to do my laundry too. I thought about working for a few hours on Sundays too but decided not to do so because I need my rest. I am barely getting by with what I have and don't need to stress myself out with more work. I like teaching though. It is not bad work! I want to find the time to write my own articles and text. I made one handout in 15 minutes but realize some of these articles will take more time. I will do this when I feel like it. My mother is worried about my health and wants me to take it easy for at least one day out of the week. I think she wants the best for me. I am happy about this! I listen to her talk and realize she is lonely and needs someone to listen to her problems. I listen and am happy to have her listen to me sometimes. So, in a nutshell, life is good!

Deilla · Jun 28, 2020, 01:30 AM

I'm doing better this morning. Yesterday was hard.

WastingAsparagus · Jun 30, 2020, 10:04 PM

I am doing okay today. I think I figured out the meds finally. I think I need to worry more about things I can do to improve my mood instead of looking at it as a purely medical problem. Meaning a purely biological problem. Of course, there's some biology involved, but I also need to address this stuff from other perspectives.

Deilla · Jul 01, 2020, 03:53 AM

I'm in a bad mood today. I've just been discouraged so much lately. It's hard to shift out of that.

Breaking Dawn · Jul 01, 2020, 06:41 AM

First, I need to have a cup of coffee. Then I need to try again to tackle a problem I've been having trouble with.

bpforever1 · Jul 03, 2020, 12:34 AM

I'm doing well. My new student liked me. I feel great! I have two new students next week. I'm getting more students! I should be able to reach 20 hours soon. But, it is not really a goal but a barometer for me. I think 20 hours a week is about the most I can do given the fact I have to do prep work for all my classes. But, if they give me more students I will try to manage. I feel wonderful. I have been staying inside because of the rise in the number of infected cases. I am getting worried about catching it from joggers or bicyclists who pass in front of me. They don't wear masks! So, I am trying to stay safe. Luckily, we don't have to teach in person yet. I think this is going to be problematic once I have to teach in person. I will continue wearing a mask outside. I know some people are gathering in public places, but I don't feel courageous about doing such a thing.

I'm trying to feel good about myself. I take my medication each morning and take a shower a night. I also put on my makeup and wear nice clothes. Exercising is a problem since I don't go outside that much. But, I will go out this weekend to buy food. I'm trying to keep my spirits up while isolating myself. I am doing ok so far.

I will continue to do my best! I feel good so far. Life is lonely but talking to my students help. I feel in touch with reality because I teach.

So far, I'm really happy!

Deilla · Jul 03, 2020, 01:00 AM

I feel bad at the moment. I tried reaching out to some old friends. The response was poor. I feel rejected. I wish I didn't take things so personally. I wish I was happier.

WastingAsparagus · Jul 03, 2020, 01:54 PM

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Originally Posted by Deilla

I feel bad at the moment. I tried reaching out to some old friends. The response was poor. I feel rejected. I wish I didn't take things so personally. I wish I was happier.

I feel like the response I get from old friends is somewhat mixed. It really depends on the person, I've found. There's one friend I have who has similar issues to mine, so we can empathize with each other. But sometimes it's hard to reach out to people. You could congratulate yourself for reaching out. I mean, it's a difficult thing to do. To reach out to people. Anyway, hope you are feeling better now. Maybe just try to focus on the fact that you had the courage to reach out to friends.

Breaking Dawn · Jul 03, 2020, 11:58 PM

I fulfilled a difficult goal & two others. That made me feel hopeful about other things.

Deilla · Jul 05, 2020, 03:57 AM

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Originally Posted by WastingAsparagus

I feel like the response I get from old friends is somewhat mixed. It really depends on the person, I've found. There's one friend I have who has similar issues to mine, so we can empathize with each other. But sometimes it's hard to reach out to people. You could congratulate yourself for reaching out. I mean, it's a difficult thing to do. To reach out to people. Anyway, hope you are feeling better now. Maybe just try to focus on the fact that you had the courage to reach out to friends.

Yes, thank you! It was brave of me to try. Now I am sure of what to expect. That makes it easier to know how to react going forward.

I am doing Okay today. I had a little rough patch but I think I am making it through. Hope everyone is well today!

bpforever1 · Jul 05, 2020, 06:12 AM

I'm doing well. I woke up late today. My student did not show up for class again. It is ok because this is the last lesson. I don't want to teach on Sundays anymore. It is a waste of my time! However, I'm doing well. I isolated myself for one week but went out today for food shopping. I am doing great! I cleaned the apartment and am now doing my wash.

Tomorrow, I will try to look nice again. I have been wearing my glasses these past two days because I am lazy. But, I will try to look good tomorrow. I have a new student tomorrow too. I will do my best!

I feel fine!! I took my medication this morning. I slept a lot so feel well. Then, I walked a bit outside and up the stairs.

It is hot and humid here! I sweat when I go outside. Fortunately, I have an air conditioner and a fan inside. I feel cool inside.

I'm doing well and thank my blessings! I am grateful for all that I have. I feel really blessed and am really thankful for my job, my health, my apartment, my clothes, food, etc.

Life is swell!!

Breaking Dawn · Jul 05, 2020, 09:15 AM

Dear @bpforever1, Lots of hugs to you!!

Deilla · Jul 10, 2020, 10:57 PM

I am doing well tonight. I just woke up from a nap. Sleep always resets me. Now I feel excited to get some more stuff done.

bpforever1 · Jul 19, 2020, 06:06 AM

I'm doing well. I am just focusing on working and am doing well. I exercise most days too and will walk tomorrow again to the store to buy food. I am feeling fine. I have new students and did not receive any complaints again. I really like my job. However, I'm thinking of going into real estate here by becoming a real estate agent. I have to pass the test here in the country's language which could be very difficult. I used to be a salesperson before a long time ago and liked it. I am thinking about doing this because teaching here is a dead-end job. I passed the highest level in the country's language proficiency test already. So, I just need to brush up and focus on this exam. I thought about being a real estate agent in the usa too but the requirements are much more than here. Here, I can take the test without any experience in real estate. This does not mean it is easy. It is a very hard test and not many people pass it. I will buy the books for it later this month when I get money. I am looking forward to doing this. I like my job a lot but realize I can't do it for thirty more years. So, I need to change jobs soon. The company I'm working for is ok but there are no benefits. So, I have to be realistic about my future. I am happy for now. I have much to do although I teach less than 20 hours a week. I have to prepare for my lessons and this takes a lot of time. It is ok because I like this job. I am doing well because I take my medication each morning, exercise, and eat somewhat healthy. I also sleep a lot. I am really grateful for what I have. I can't believe I am supporting myself on my meager income. Hopefully, I will be able to earn more as a real estate agent. I will try my best!

Breaking Dawn · Jul 19, 2020, 07:08 AM

I'm doing ok. I completed some goals & have plenty of others I'm trying to fulfill, one at a time. It's really hard sometimes, but overall I seem to be strong enough, & I'm in a good mood much of the time, thank goodness.

Deilla · Jul 19, 2020, 11:50 AM

I have been doing well. I work on music every day. So much so that I don't hear my voices anymore. I just hear humming and melodies. A lot of the time it's a melody I'm working on. I would rather hear music than nonsensical voices. So I am very excited about this new development. Hope every one is well!