[SlumberKitty]

Hi @JeffDog sometimes the schizoaffective forum is a little slow. Some people go to this one and the schizophrenia one. The schizophrenia one has a pretty active roll call usually. Feel free to check out both and see what works for you. Personally I go to both. My DX recently got changed from depression with psychotic features to schizoaffective disorder depressive type. Plus I have general anxiety disorder, ADHD and some other stuff. Hope you find some support here. HUGS Kit

[SlumberKitty]

I'm having a pretty good day actually. Just kind of bored at work but that's normal.

[Breaking Dawn]

Quite frankly, I am not doing really wonderful at the moment. But if you only knew how important all of you are to me!!

[SlumberKitty]

HUGS @Breaking Dawn I'm sorry you aren't doing well!!! HUG! Kit

[Breaking Dawn]

Thank you, @SlumberKitty! You are such a special someone!

[Moose72]

Checking in! I usually live at the bipolar board, but my pdoc says I'm sza, so here we are.

My dinner is almost done cooking.

[SlumberKitty]

What's for dinner tonight @Moose72

[Moose72]

Originally Posted by SlumberKitty

What's for dinner tonight @Moose72

Chicken legs with spicy BBQ sauce. Could make some green beans to go with it.

[SlumberKitty]

Originally Posted by Moose72

Chicken legs with spicy BBQ sauce. Could make some green beans to go with it.

Sounds good! I don't know what I'm having yet. I'll see when I get home!

[Moose72]

Originally Posted by SlumberKitty

Sounds good! I don't know what I'm having yet. I'll see when I get home!

I hope its yummy, whatever it will be!

[childofchaos831]

I'm probably only gonna have leftovers for dinner...

[SlumberKitty]

I ended up having pork chops, under-cooked rice-a-roni, and broccoli. It was pretty good, minus the rice.

[SlumberKitty]

Today is okay. I'm feeling self destructive though. There's a support group tonight (NAMI-led) that I am contemplating whether or not to go to. I've been the last two times. The first time I found it marginally helpful, last time I didn't find it very helpful. It doesn't seem like people are really going through the same things as me. Hallucinations and stuff. There's one other person there who has Schizoaffective but he doesn't say much. Sad that I can feel lonely even in a support group. But since I feel self destructive (not suicidal) I might just blow it off. I haven't decided yet. If my parents want to go to the family group then I will be more likely to go to the Connections group.

[Nix]

Hello all... it has been a long time since I have posted here... I used to get notifications on my phone and I think the Schizophrenia group was more active so I don't even know when is the last time I posted here. I have been having a rough time lately and have been even more sick than normal since about November, so I've been struggling. I tried really hard for a few months to come up with a way to work part time because I didn't want to go on disability, but I finally broke down and applied for disability yesterday. So that has been really difficult. I'm also worried about running out of finances before they approve my case, but I'm trying not to think too much about that. I've been having a really, really hard time being out in public, where even short, friendly interactions have been making me highly agitated to the point where I just get enraged. And today was pretty difficult with that, too. But anyway, I think I felt ok enough to check out the forums tonight and say hello to you all... I had to stay home from my son's concert at school, but I was able to watch it on livestream. I guess I was just feeling lonely and I thought maybe I might start posting or checking the forums occasionally again, as I haven't done that in a long time. Hope you are all well.

[SlumberKitty]

Hugs @Nix

[Breaking Dawn]

God bless all of you! I'm sorry about your difficulties. I'm dealing with stuff, too. And you help me. Thank you!

[SlumberKitty]

Covid 19 is getting really scary. I'm trying to manage my anxiety. But I think my anxiety is making my paranoia and perhaps delusions (not sure if they are true or not) worse. Anyone else having trouble because of Covid 19 (Coronavirus) fears?

[bpforever1]

I'm here in my new country and am doing well. I work online and have been receiving assignments. I have been here for a month settling into my new situation. I am working hard hoping to get as many assignments because the more I work, the more I earn. I was feeling rather tired initially. I have been exercising daily and am going to scale back because I don't need to exercise daily, just five times a week is fine with me. I am happy!! I am taking my medication daily because the shots were not available at the clinic I went. I am writing a journal about taking my medication daily so it is working so far. I feel great overall. I lost some weight. I feel good about myself for once. Nobody is bothering me here!! Yippee!! And, the new company staff love me and told me I'm a star employee- whatever that means since I only started about two weeks ago. After covid-19 situation improves, I will have to show up in person to work though. We shall see how that goes!! I am going to keep myself busy no matter what. I watched some homeless documentaries on youtube to remind myself how far I've come. I was homeless for awhile way back. Thus, I am ecstatic to be working again and doing a good job!! I have to remind myself no matter how hard it becomes that I need to take my medication!! I believe I will this time around. I have been through a lot. I am a positive thinker though. I realize if I put my mind to a task, I can accomplish it!! I have to sleep a lot though still after doing my assignments. But, this is better than not sleeping. I hope all of you continue to fight the good fight!! I will also. We are all comrades in this battle against mental illness. I have not given up and never will. I hope you all will do the same and keep fighting, keep smiling, and keep surviving!!

[SlumberKitty]

Glad you are doing well @bpforever1

[Tamster]

hi everyone.
i think that being shut in for so many years prepped me for this quarantine. But now I have to do my pdoc appt over the internet, that's gonna be weird. I'm not that good with ppl in person so I don't know if I will like the online appt or not.
Maybe this is the right time to ask her if I am sza or sz , it seems to change with the weather.
its like saying to someone is she crazy or just mildly crazy.
warmest regards, Tams

[bpforever1]

I'm taking this job one day at a time. I want to have at least 20 hours a week and am slowly getting there. I have odd hours in the morning and night. But, I have not had a job in two years so am feeling blessed about this new job. At my age, even this job seems like a God-send. I feel very grateful about my situation. I also feel tired most of the time due to my medication, I believe. I drink coffee to alleviate this tiredness. I have heard about others being laid off now and others who left their jobs. As a result, I really appreciate my situation. I work online now but will have to show up in person after this covid -19 situation improves. I am not really looking forward to showing up in person but, at least, it is better than being locked in all day.

I also met a man online who is supportive of me. He adores me and tells me to be free. I tell him the same. I like him much but know the best I can do with my situation is to take care of myself and work. I am in no position to take care of others. So, our relationship is more like a friendship although he said he would come to visit me one day after the covid-19 situation resolves, whenever that will be. I talk to him daily about all subjects. He is like my best friend now. hmmmm, he is a good man and a good friend to me.

Anyways, I am happy about my life now! I have to keep this job for at least a year according to my contract. Hopefully, it will become easier for me as time passes. Right now, I have to prepare a lot for each assignment. I am a teacher online. So, my assignments are students and meetings with students. I really love teaching. It is fun!! However, the pay is really low but better than doing nothing. I love all of my students too, so far. I work for a company too, not a school. It is all for profit for the company, but for me, I really enjoy teaching students from all backgrounds.


I take my medication each morning after I wake up now. It is good for me because I forget easily. I think the medication is helping me to remain calm and stable. I am thankful for this medication!

Life is good!! I will make sure to do well each day by motivating myself to take my medication, taking care of myself, and by working.

[SlumberKitty]

Glad the job is going well @bpforever1

[bpforever1]

I am grateful as I said for my job. It is a fun job!! I am meeting all kinds of people.

I am exercising still but am not as disciplined about it. Sometimes, I feel tired then I rest.


I have not met anybody since I came to my new country. I feel ok about it. It is better to be safe than sorry.

I watch homeless documentaries when I can. It breaks my heart about the homeless, but I used to be one of them. I have been blessed to come this far in a short period of time. However, since I was homeless, I had a serious setback two years ago because I stopped my medication. Thus, I don't want to repeat history again. I report taking my medication daily to my father. He is happy I do this. I feel tired at times from it but have no major complaints because it has been helping me remain stable.

Life is amazing! I've had my ups and downs. I have to say I've had more down periods than up periods. I'd like to change this. Ever since I've had psychosis, it has been a battle for me. But, the medication is really helpful these days. When I first became psychotic, I changed from rispedal to Zyprexa to Seroquel to Clozapine to Geodon to Abilify. Abilify, it is for me now. This medication helps but at times mild psychosis breaks through then I stop my medication. I have to remember when the symptoms come worse to see my doctor and take my medication faithfully. I was doing well for three years then decided the heck with it. But, I had a hard time with my parents this last time. They never allowed me to go out the house without them. It was like being in prison! I had enough of this, I thought. I need to become more responsible for myself or else, just check out of life. I decided to fight for my freedom!! And, I am free now!!


I am free and working. I am healthy too!! I thank God for my life and the blessings!! I must say after two years of imprisonment, I was ready to check out, thank God, I did not.


The man who befriended me is nice and supportive! He is good to me. But, as I said, we will remain just friends.

Well, I have to teach tonight. I have to teach this weekend too!! Life is swell.

[bpforever1]

I am receiving more students and am getting closer to 20 hours a week. Thank you, God, for your blessings!! I will be ok. I am busy and am feeling tired but am happy so far. I have the late mornings and afternoons off. I sleep during this time. I feel good that I am working again and hoping to persevere! Next week, I see my doctor again. Thank you all for your support!!

[Hi IM Dan]

Bpforever1
Its great to hear of your good fortunes. Keep up the good work, I know you can do it.