[Breaking Dawn]

Welcome to PC, @krassten! You sound like you have a really good attitude. Please keep posting. I have found wonderful support here. And I learn a lot from others. Good luck with everything!

[SlumberKitty]

I feel a little better than yesterday. So that's something, I guess.

[Breaking Dawn]

Dear Kit, So glad you're feeling a little better. Small steps in the right direction. Every little bit counts. And please remember @SlumberKitty is loved by many here at PC! God bless you, dear precious friend!

[SlumberKitty]

Thank you @Breaking Dawn, you made my day!

[bpforever1]

I am doing well. I am leaving my situation soon. I will be going to another country to work. I decided to leave early next month because most people there in this other country are still working despite the corona virus situation. I want to work also but believe I will start later next month or in April. I am relieved to have found a job although it is not great but can make it full-time. It has no benefits except for paid transportation. I am not complaining at my age. It is sad to be out of work for so long. I am glad that I am going but at the same time I must be careful. I feel fine. I am healthy for now and am stable. I have to take care of myself this time because my parents are elderly and cannot take care of me anymore. I was helping them. I am stable on the lower dosage so far and will make sure to get my next shot at the next clinic. I am a bit anxious but will be fine. Life goes on.

[Breaking Dawn]

@bpforever1, will you still be able to post on PC from this other country? I hope so!

[bpforever1]

Yes, I will be able to post from this other country. It is a democratic country and does not have censorship on the internet. I love this country very much! I look forward to going there. However, I will have to be careful by avoiding crowds, washing my hands frequently, and by wearing a mask, may be. Thank you for asking, breaking dawn!

[Breaking Dawn]

Thank you, @bpforever1, I'm so glad you get to stay with us. And I have a feeling you are going to be a beautiful influence for people there!

[bpforever1]

Thank you so much, Breaking Dawn! Well, I don’t know what will happen but am hoping for the best. I am sorry but need to vent now!

I am overweight and disillusioned living with my parents. They are not supportive about my goals and intentions. I have become sick of them and am looking forward to leaving here. They won’t allow me to go outside their house to exercise or anything. It is bs if you ask me. They are embarrassed by me. I had enough of their crap. My mother wants me to stay home to help her. As if she can’t do anything! She is taking advantage of me!! Argh!! She drives and goes everywhere on her own. She won’t allow me to drive and she is asking me to live for her!! I am bloated now due to her emotional abuse. I am super happy to be leaving!! I want to slam the door in her face but will go quietly. I am glad to have this opportunity to leave!! She is very paranoid saying I will die from this corona virus. The rate I am going, I am going to die from being overweight!!

She makes no sense at all. She does whatever she wants then tells me that I can’t do what I want. She is a pain in the rear end. I am very sad that I allowed her to control me like a dog but this is it!! I am leaving!! Thank you very much!! I want to say to her face. I am so unhappy that dying is better than staying here. I don’t believe I will die from the corona virus. I will be ok. However, my mother is so paranoid and evil in her mind, she probably wants me to die helping her. She is unstable in the mind. She shouts most of the time and is angry about everything in life. Listening to her is like listening to a deranged individual who never stops complaining about everything. Geez!! I wonder how I survived for so long with her. I am very angry with her as you can tell and am really relieved that although the situation is not ideal to be able to leave for good and never return here. I want to work and make ends meet.

I will try to build my stamina and also incrementally take on more work responsibility. I also want to exercise!! The simple things in life I took for granted before are so important to me now!! I will be gone in a week from here. I thank my blessings!! I am stable and need to receive my monthly shots and hopefully I can arrange this over there. I believe, I will be able to do this. My shots are my lifeline. I don’t take anything for granted anymore!! Thank you, God, for my life and the opportunity to live again!

[Breaking Dawn]

Dear @bpforever1, I completely understand your feelings. My heart feels a lot of pain for you. Your mother has been abusing you for too long. You will be free now. God bless you!!! I wish so much for you!!!

[bpforever1]

Thank you, Breaking Dawn!! You bring tears to my eyes for being so kind with your words!! You have a beautiful spirit!!

[bpforever1]

I am doing better today but am tired from packing. I have no plans to return here so packing is difficult. I have to help my brother too with his work so am very busy. I hope everybody is ok and doing well.

[bpforever1]

I am happy because I received an e-mail from the company recruiter stating I will be getting an offer in person. Now, I just have to move there!! It is not easy to pack, lol!!! I can’t believe this is happening to me! I was down and out about two years ago. Although I become angry with my mother at times, she took me back and helped me. Now, I am ready to fly away and go on my own. I do want to thank my family for helping me. I wish they were less dysfunctional but they are who they are and it can’t be helped. Oh well, I must go forward and never look back!

[SlumberKitty]

I'm struggling a bit today honestly but at the same time I'm kind of hopeful. It doesn't help that I am tired and sleepy. I can't take a rest because I am at work. But a nap sounds so good right now.

[bpforever1]

I am sneezing and have a runny nose! I have hay fever, oh no!! I feel ok otherwise and have packed my belongings. I am going to buy stuff instead of shipping my clothes. It is cheaper that way. I am really looking forward to moving from here. I feel great but at the same time feel a bit bad for my mother and brother. I will be fine, hopefully! I can’t believe in three days I will be gone from here. I am very thankful towards my family and my doctor who prescribed me pills just in case I can’t see the doctor on time. I am very grateful for all that has happened to me. I am happy and hope that everybody else is either doing well or will feel better soon!! I like venting on this site because I don’t have anybody who listens to me. I want to thank the creator of this website and those who have encouraged me through my rough times. I feel blessed and am very appreciative of my life and the opportunities that have been given to me!

[Moose72]

Hello all. I mainly post on the bipolar board but my pdoc has said I have sza.

I took a long walk today to and from the park- about an hour each way. I feel refreshed and good! I'm currently taking haldol for psychosis- my meds are in my signature.

[bpforever1]

I am doing well but believe I caught a cold!! Oh no!! It is not bad yet. My mother has a cold too. I feel ok and am still leaving. It is rather mild. I am fine otherwise! I am happy and sneezing!! Oh well!! May be, it is hay fever gone awry. I don't feel bad but am sneezing!! Well, I got the flu shot and don't think I have a severe cold yet. I am not worried about it too much.

[SlumberKitty]

I'm mostly doing okay today. I didn't sleep well, so I have had a lot of caffeine today. I had a lot of bad dreams so I called it quits around 3 AM today and just decided to get up.

[Breaking Dawn]

I am having a little bit of a hard time right now, sorry to say. I'm sure it's one of those "this too shall pass" kinds of moments. God bless all of you.

[bpforever1]

Breaking Dawn, hopefully, time will heal. I feel your pain and hope that your situation improves!!

[SlumberKitty]

HUGS @Breaking Dawn

[SlumberKitty]

I just texted Pastor T and cancelled for tonight. I just really didn't feel like going. I'm feeling self destructive today. This cancelling is probably an outgrowth of that. I don't care. I don't want to go. I told him I really wasn't feeling well, which is true. I just didn't say that it's all emotional. I feel fine physically. He can read it whichever way he wishes.

[Breaking Dawn]

Hugs to you, @SlumberKitty!

[Breaking Dawn]

I am doing ok right now. And I'm wishing you all the very best!

[DudeAlex]

Hi all,

I find few forums online for schizoaffective disorder. I hope to find support here. Thanks for letting me be a part.

Jeff