[bpforever1]

I feel as if I am walking on eggshells because I have to worry about students complaining about me. I'm getting new students and have to be careful. I like this job but the review process is anxiety provoking. But, so far nobody else has complained yet.

I have not heard from the head of the school yet. I will wait for a week then give it up. I could ask other schools but realize they are all about the same. I hope to hear from him.


I am tired as usual. I slept most of the day after doing my morning shift. I have to teach tonight too.

I am doing well otherwise. I took my medication in the morning. I feel ok.

[WastingAsparagus]

Doing fine this morning. I guess that I don't feel like I have mental illness as usual. I am not sure why I was convinced by doctors and therapists before that I had one. I suppose I just got really afraid.

It seems to me like mental illness is seriously mishandled in today's age. I don't know why, just that I think in my case, people didn't understand me. Nobody ever understood exactly what I was going through except for me. Thus it seems like no one can ever have much insight into the nature of mental illness because it's a personal thing.

I am not sure why I am thinking this way. Perhaps I've gotten to the point where I don't really mind voicing my opinions?

Usually I'm on the fence about meds and therapy and stuff.

[WastingAsparagus]

Egh, just going to go to bed. I mean, I don't particularly know why I posted that earlier. I think that I do have schizoaffective disorder and I need meds. Anyway... For the record.

[bpforever1]

I took a nap. I was tired. I went up the stairs though. I feel ok now.

I have not heard from the head of the school yet.
I am wondering if he will write, may be not.
It is ok. For me, going to school is a big challenge. I am always tired. It is not a good indicator. I need my sleep.

My job is going. I like my job though. I have fun and it is not that hard.


Life is not bad!! I took my medication as always in the morning.

Tomorrow, I will see if the night time contacts work for me.

[Breaking Dawn]

I seem to be ok, but not accomplishing what I want to.

[NOS-NOS]

I've just been diagnosed with schizoaffective. It finally all makes sense. I did leave a trail of woe but at least now I know what I am.

[SlumberKitty]

Originally Posted by NOS-NOS

I've just been diagnosed with schizoaffective. It finally all makes sense. I did leave a trail of woe but at least now I know what I am.

I get that. That's how I felt when I finally got my diagnosis. It was like, suddenly I fit somewhere. HUGS Kit

[bpforever1]

I had a temperature which was high and was turned down today to see the doctor. I rescheduled for Monday for the lenses. I was impressed they were taking my high temperature seriously. I believe it is from my medication and being pre-menopausal. I feel fine but tired all of the time. If I have covid-19, I must be a carrier then. I don't know. As long as I don't have any severe symptoms, I should be fine. I just have a fever, I guess, and tiredness. I don't think I am sick. I don't feel sick. We shall see.


My job is going well. I am doing ok.

Life is ho-hum for me now.

Nothing interesting.

I am fine nevertheless.

[Breaking Dawn]

I seem to be starting out on the right foot this morning, so maybe I can get more accomplished today. Hope so.

[bpforever1]

I am tired again and was stressed out. I feel better after sleeping the whole morning. I got a partial complaint from one of my students who said he likes talking to me but I go too fast through the materials. He speaks quite well and I believe he lacks confidence. I need to encourage him more and address his concerns. Otherwise, I am doing fine. I earned twice this month than last month but still don't make that much money. I'm the working poor. I feel ok as long as I can work I will. I was so stressed out from my schedule that I wanted to just give it up but realized going home is not an option anymore. I have to stick it out here. I like this job but the review system is annoying. They put more emphasis on the customer's reviews rather than if the customer is really learning or not. I realize it is a for-profit company though. So, such is life!! I will be fine. I am tired all of the time though and believe it is from my medication. I really don't know how it would be if I took more medications. I guess, I would be sleeping all of the time.

[Breaking Dawn]

I am doing fine this morning. I could have used more sleep, therefore tired, but feel stronger lately in other ways.

[bpforever1]

I got daily wear soft contacts and will try to wear them tomorrow. There were cheap and about 3 dollars each day for both eyes. I can't complain. So, I will try them. It was a pain to put them in and take them off though. I need practice.

I am doing well. I realized the night time contacts are a pain in the rear. I don't need them.

I am happy!! I exercised and am teaching again at night. Life is not bad.

I wanted to get contacts a long time ago but could not do so because I was imprisoned by my parents. Now, I am free to do what I want. What a change. I'm smart not to go nuts by being free but having my freedom is something I'm grateful for. I am thankful for my blessings!

[bpforever1]

Some of my students are taking leaves of absences and returning while others are leaving. This leaves me with a rather light schedule. I can't complain. I am doing ok.

I am wearing my soft lenses and focusing near is a bit of a problem. But, I can see now far away very well. I look better and people are complimenting my appearance. I am flattered.

I took my medication ,walked outside, then went up 30 flight of stairs. I feel awesome!

Life is not bad!

[Breaking Dawn]

Hello. Nobody seems to be here today. Just kidding. Obviously you are here. Well, I think I'm doing pretty good. Thank you.

[bpforever1]

I'm doing ok. I am still getting complimented for looking nice now. I guess my glasses looked bad on me. I feel great!! My schedule is getting lighter. I was feeling overwhelmed but now feel ok. I am doing fine. The student who complained about me partially was happier I took the time to correct his mistakes. I was happy for him. I also added two more students while two left for vacation but will return later. I am not complaining. Life is ok. I slept the whole afternoon. I was really tired this morning but feel fine now. I think this job is great because I work a little here and there. I don't earn much but am making something which is better than nothing. I am happy!! Tomorrow I have a new student starting. I have to focus and pay attention. I will and do a good job again.

[WastingAsparagus]

I am doing fine today. Just wanting to drink copious amounts of coffee and not thinking I should. But that's fine. That's my life every day, pretty much. I stay up too late, get up too late, but I am doing fine. I am not productive enough, need more than 24 hours in a day because I have too much stuff to do, almost have a job now, but not quite, because they haven't quite hired me yet. But that is okay. I will see if I get the job. I never really thought life would be this way, where I am administrating my life basically all from home, but that's fine, too.

[bpforever1]

I feel great. Today I have a new student. I hope I do well. I am feeling fine. I had to get another contact lens prescription for my left eye. I could not see clearly. Now, I see great. Someone said it looks like I lost weight too. That was a nice compliment! I am doing well. I have to teach only for a few hours a day but in the early morning or late at night. I like my schedule because I can go places during the day. I have online classes but will have to go to the centers once they decide to do so. I don't mind. I'm getting bored anyways. My French pal may come over too from Paris to visit. This would be nice. I thought about taking a vacation when he comes. I have to think about it. It is not as if I make a lot of money. But it is better than nothing. If I don't work, then I won't earn any money. I may just work while he is here. I don't know. We shall see!!

[bpforever1]

My new student likes me. I am happy. Things are going well. The company wants me to take part in how to teach lessons. I don't mind. The manager said I was improving as a teacher. I feel great!!
They give me a lot of support. It is nice of them to help me. I also am just taking it one day at a time.

Today, I shopped for food,then washed my clothes, and vacuumed my apartment. I feel much better now that the place is clean.. I dumped all of the trash too.

I took my medication in the morning. I was sleepy for awhile and took a nap too.

Life is good so far. I'm trying to make the best of it and it seems to be working.

Tomorrow, my new student has a lesson again. I will be ready.

I look fine too. I wore my glasses yesterday because my eyes were tired. But, today, I'm wearing contacts again. Life is beautiful!

[bpforever1]

I'm doing well. I exercised and slept well. I taught from 6 in the morning though. I had five students until 9am. I was busy. Tonight,I have more students. I feel fine. I am wearing my glasses today because my eyes were tired. I am happy. I turned on the air conditioner and now it is cool inside.


It appears as if I might have to go to the centers in July. I don't mind. I am a bit bored from working from home. But, it will be tiring moving around here and there. Teaching is fun for me. I really enjoy my work. I like my job and am doing well again. Tomorrow, I have to attend a mock lesson to improve my teaching skills. It should be ok. My students like me for now. I feel happy about this.

I've decided to work while my French pal comes here. I need the money. Nobody is helping me so I need to be wise about money.

[Breaking Dawn]

I feel like my attitude has been influenced by something good. Maybe a combination of things. Anyway, at least today, I'm feeling better, seeing a nicer future, & gaining some confidence in myself. Hugs to everybody!

[SlumberKitty]

I've had a rough 5 to 7 days but my T called me last night and I feel a little better today. Taking Friday off of work as a vacation day but I really need it as a mental health day.

[Breaking Dawn]

It's always a journey. Nothing stays the same. When we open up our hearts, it's easier to see. So I open up my heart & let the sunshine in.

[WastingAsparagus]

Kind of had a bad week, but now I am going back up on one of my meds and I hope it helps me. I was feeling self-centered earlier in the week, too, which is not really like me. I feel like when I'm stuck in my own thoughts I am much more self-centered, though. It is not a good place to be.

[bpforever1]

I'm doing well. This morning though I was tired!! Really exhausted!! I slept during my break and feel fine now. I think my medication and the heat are getting to me. Otherwise, I feel fine now! I am happy.


My work is going well. I have to prepare a little more for my lessons. I got some advice which included to smile more and create a warm atmosphere for my students. Whatever!! Hostess teacher I will become!! So, the manager's advice made me laugh. Initially, I was wondering if he was serious. Smile more? I'm teaching, not posing for the camera! Anyways, what a life!! I still like my job a lot though. It is easier than most jobs. I also like teaching. I am happy about my job!!

Life is not bad!! Today's weather here was awful though- showers and too much heat.


I will be fine! I took my medication again and am doing well!

[Breaking Dawn]

I feel like I need an engine tuneup, or an overhaul. If only I could wake up.