[SlumberKitty]

I'm doing okay. I'm kind of depressed today. Probably didn't help that I took a Xanax this morning. It calmed down the rumination, but it is a depressant. I feel like I'm drowning in depression. But other than that I'm okay. Haven't had any hallucinations in a while. A couple of days I think.

[Deilla]

I feel a little stressed this morning. I have to clean the litter box again today, and I don't have much energy. I have no motivation. I don't plan to do any other chores today. I'm not in the mood to cook. I plan to order myself some food today. I want to relax as much as I can.

[bpforever1]

I am hearing voices now. I think it is from the weather change. I am delusional at times too. However, I am still taking my medication. I am ok but the voices are making me a bit insane. I am working still and actually focusing on work helps me to forget about eh voices in my head. Weird! I don't hear voices when I am concentrating on tasks. So, I am working- teaching. I am also applying for an internship as a medical translator. I am translating some excerpts for this position. I hope to volunteer as an intern for a year. I can build my resume and apply for other translation jobs as well. I am doing ok! I am all alone here but am keeping busy. Happy Holidays!

[~*glass_owl*~]

I used some coping skills to calm down and I feel better. I took a nap. No hallucinations while listening to music or from my air purifier (these things cause me to hear things). I have a safety plan in place and I'm going to bed.

[Deilla]

I wanted to order a Thanksgiving dinner from Cracker Barrel today. But it doesn't look like that option is available. I guess I will try to cook myself something today. I'm in a good mood. I hope I can find the energy to cook. Happy holidays to everyone!!

[Breaking Dawn]

My voices claim they aren't annoying me & that it's the other way around. Maybe I'm hallucinating.

[~*glass_owl*~]

I had a pretty good day. I saw some friends on zoom. Then I saw family on zoom. I'm still feeling a little paranoid, but I don't want to go to the crisis center, because it seems to be going away rather than getting worse. I'm going to bed soon. Happy holidays!

[Deilla]

I'm pretty worked up at the moment. I had a stressful morning with ordering groceries. My groceries were delivered to another apartment. But I was able to get another order free of charge. It doesn't make sense to me. But I was so afraid that something else would go wrong. I've been anxious for a couple of hours now, and even though it's over with, I still can't calm down. Maybe I can try a nap and some meditation. Or cuddling with my cats. I could try a funny movie like Home Alone. I've been wanting to watch it again.

[~*glass_owl*~]

I'm excited about my 25 succulents arriving from amazon (yes bought live plants from the internet). Plus I bought a bigger succulent. I have a greenhouse like apartment, so they'll love it. I talked to my mom earlier today. I was sock skating on the floor when I fell, but I'm not hurt. No symptoms today. I tested about fifty percent for bipolar symptoms yesterday. My moods do feel whacky lately, due to grief, but no different than usual. I feel like I am super cycling and I almost posted in the bipolar thread, but I'm schizoaffective.

[~*glass_owl*~]

I went to work today. That was nice. It was good to see everyone again. That was my entire day.

[Deilla]

I feel overwhelmed today. I've been working on chores and taking care of the cats. I haven't been able to take care of myself yet. I just have too much going on.

[~*glass_owl*~]

I slept last night, I slept all day today, then I stayed up until midnight.

[SlumberKitty]

I'm doing okay. I had an appointment with my T on Saturday. We talked about my hallucinations. She's concerned about some of them because they upset me and she doesn't like me to be upset. She is really quite lovely. I got my Christmas shopping done. Just maybe some charity donations now.

[Deilla]

I'm feeling lonely, sad and bored. I was having so much fun with my new game. But now there's a bug and I don't know how to proceed any further. Playing the game took my mind off my problems. It made me feel like I was accomplishing something. Maybe I will open a ticket or search the forums. I guess it's really time for me to go to sleep.

[dimlyFourOwls]

Hi. Shall try to keep it plain. I haven't been on here in a few years. I think I may have abandoned some of you. I'm not sure who remembers what anymore.

I'm having an episode. I can't call my hospital's crisis line b/c it's completely useless. I am nonviolent.

So, kind of what I'm seeing:
"Faces" everywhere, people (mom and bro) spying on me in their sleep and at work, respectively. They're loud and noisy. We're American citizens so they're bad spies. I don't pretend to be a good one because I don't spy on anyone.

I wonder if I am autistic episodically? Everything is overwhelming and there's too much detail in everything.

This morning was good, now it's ****. What of what I'm not seeing?

I don't know. I don't know how to get help, ever. No intent of harming anyone, fwiw.

Euch.

<-- this one's illegal in my life. family laws.

[Deilla]

I feel better after getting some sleep. And I found out why I can't progress the storyline just yet in my game. I have to level a bit more. I and others think it is a flaw in the game. But this is what Blizzard has done for their new expansion. Oh well, I'm back on track and doing every quest I can. I feel hopeful for a good day!

[SlumberKitty]

I feel fragile. Like I am oversensitive to/overwhelmed by stimuli both emotional and physical. My boss always tells me, "This too shall pass" so I was telling that to myself and taking some deep breaths. Then I took a Xanax. My boss told me, "Just remember that what you are feeling is temporary." Temporary or not I just want it to go away! Stupid emotions.

[SlumberKitty]

Xanax and Christmas Music seem to be helping me with my feelings of being overwhelmed and oversensitive to stimuli. I texted a couple of friends also and one replied to me and that made me feel good. Trying to remember what my boss says, "This too shall pass." Hopefully tomorrow is a good day.

[Deilla]

I feel exhausted at the moment. I just got home from a stressful appointment. I'm trying to relax with a frappuccino. I might play my game, but I really think I need a nap first.

[Deilla]

I relaxed most of the day. I bought two Frappuccinos this morning. I'm on a sugar high but I guess that is Okay. I'll crash soon and sleep awhile. I played my game for a long time. I'm bored with it now. I would love to read, but I can't think of anything that I would be interested in. I'm so bored it's not even funny.

[SlumberKitty]

I started out the day feeling crises-y but I am feeling a little bit better now.

[~*glass_owl*~]

I was having some hallucinations after missing a dose and visiting crisis. I'm not sure, but I think I know what caused it after talking to my primary care physician. I feel okay now, but tired like I have the last two weeks. It feels like I stayed up all night whether I sleep all night and all day for three days or not. I stay up for maybe 4 or 5 hours a day tops, enough to write this, talk to my mom, talk to my boyfriend, talk to friends, and paint. sometimes I meditate. This is unusual for me, I'm sick right now, I usually stay up longer than this.

[Deilla]

I'm trying to relax today. I'm a little stressed out about chores. But I'm trying to show myself some compassion. I asked my mom for help. She says she can come one day to help out. I am very glad. I mainly need help with getting my floors clean. I will try to declutter over the next couple of days. This evening, I want to play my game, shower, meditate and read.

[~*glass_owl*~]

I went to the store and the pharmacy. I took a walk with my boyfriend, which made me feel more safe. I managed to stay awake all day.

[Deilla]

I feel very down and stressed today. My cat's been sick. I have to take her back to the vet today. And I've been sick. I have 2 doctor appointments tomorrow. I am struggling.