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#661
Lots of things are hard to figure out. I ask myself, why do I still have these voices? I don't think I deserve them. But maybe there's a lesson I haven't learned yet? So I say to myself, keep listening to others here & to everything. I hope that's my inner knowing, trying to guide me.
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I'm conducting a 90 day experient. I'm using DBT and CBT techniques every day and journaling about it. I want to keep track of my progress and improve my mood each day. So far it's gone well. I take notes, write down affirmations, use photos and quotes. At the end of the 90 days, I will have content for a book I want to write. It might be a self-help book or a memoir. I'm in self-publishing school at the moment, so I am learning more about writing. I already have two books published. I want to do more.
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I'm reaching a stable point, I think. The hallucinations have been diminished a lot. How lucky for me. I think I just need to do exactly as do for this to happen. I'm so excited. I talked to my Mom and Dad about it. I was blown away when I first started to notice they were going away. I think it's a lot, but I hope I can get it to be nothing for a long time. Well, I don't really need to change anything because it's already being lessened. Or what do you all think? Change a few things here and there, or let it all ride out? I wouldn't actually mess with this would I? Well, this entire thing is what I prayed for. And I am getting so lucky! It's amazing.
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#665
Got my antipsychotic medication raised up a little. Should help the symptoms. I hope it doesn't increase the negative symptoms though.
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I wish I could get some medicine that would remove the voices.
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Today turned out to be very stressful and sad. I used DBT this morning. I might use it again. Or do a meditation. I've been journaling, which is helping. I want to scream into a pillow. I had a breakup with my boyfriend, which hurt pretty bad. I'm trying today.
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I am being more talkative and more into doing things. I mean that I am not doing one thing all day long anymore. It seems like freedom is coming for me. I am also realizing insanity is one big word for a monster already cosmic size. It's coming around to me the hallucinations and delusions are truly not based in reality. And that means they are happening nowhere in time or space. Not to anyone. I think it means such a big deal it's coming around like this. But it means so much more. Because I am starting to learn the unrealness, it is just a perceptual disturbancy. It is caused by the not firing right neuroscience of my brain. And so I calm down a little. It does not mean so many things about me in poetry. It means that I need to put effort into correcting some of my habits. It is going to be a miracle once it all comes together. Sometimes I think I can fix myself. I have hope for myself, what can I say?
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I woke up twice with migraines today. I think because I was so upset yesterday. I don't feel all that great right now. I still can't get the help I need. I'm unable to walk. I can't do anything around my apartment and I can't take my trash out. My place is a mess and it's making me sad and frustrated. No one will help me. No one cares. I can't even get medical assistance. I do have an appointment for a knee injection on Friday. Maybe that will help me. In the meantime, I have to just sit in my apartment with the AC out trying to survive.
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HI is this where I post how I am doing with sza? I am pretty stable but two of my meds clozarl and caplyta make me so tired I am sleeping more than 12 hours a night so I am taking ritalin and it helps with the day sleepiness but in the morning and evening it's hard. I tried lowering the dose and got symptomatic.
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Voices have been quite a challenge, but I'm doing ok at the moment.
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I'm doing okay, I'm just finding myself wanting to isolate.
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I've had a productive day with time to relax. I have a few more chores to handle. I feel pretty good. I may go to bed early tonight. I'm getting sleepy.
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I made a mountain out of a mole hill. I kept concentrating on my weight. Oh darn, that is what I did before. I'll sleep on it. The issue is probably going to be resolved soon. And I think that there are only mild points for each side of this. I think that it's really freaking weighing on me, and it springs up to a panic attack. It's cause I made a mild mistake about it. So I think I know what I want. I want to lose weight so much it hurts. It should have been an easier decision. I should have started trying to be one with my body a long time ago. My body is a temple. I think it and I punish myself. This is probably going to be a wild outcome. One I love so much it's ridiculous. And my dumb mind told me to cool it by being so diminishing. So, I am going to try to be at 145 lbs which is the correct BMI for my height.
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#678
@Brego, your train of thought fits with Cognitive Behavioral Therapy (CBT). I think you will succeed with the way you express yourself in your last post here.
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#679
I finally quit smoking. Finally thought it was unbecoming. It's only been over the past three days including this day in the three. The middle day -- I couldn't stand it so I went out and smoked some butts in the trash.
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