[~*glass_owl*~]

If I were to label today as a mood I would label it a manic day of a 7 on a scale of 10. I ordered an xl decaf coffee, but I made sure to turn into Dunkin’ Donuts from the wrong turn lane and almost hit another car. I then went shopping at 5 different stores, in between I cleaned out my closet. I felt slightly psychotic this morning, but what of I can’t remember. The highlight of my day was freezing outside and feeling a cold breeze on my neck while meditating. Although I got so much done, which was nice and it needed to get done. It’s just a sudden switch from sleeping all day.

[Deilla]

I'm doing alright today. Some ups and downs. That's life.

[SQLVR]

Hi!
I am nervous because my family is putting me in a respite care for a couple of days so that they can pack. Some background, I have affective psychosis and a severe learning disability. I can write and speak ok but I have a hard time carrying out activities. My therapist and mom say it’s an issue with executive function. As I mentioned in a separate post I need help with physical needs sometimes, like showering, and managing my incontinence.
I met the couple that is taking care of me and they seem kind, but I am nervous about having strangers care for me. It’s embarrassing.
I hope that all made sense as a lose track of thoughts easily.

[Deilla]

This morning was very stressful. But I got to talk to my therapist, and that helped.

[SQLVR]

First day of respite. I’m worried I won’t sleep tonight because it’s a different bed.

[Deilla]

I am doing well today. I've been productive and all my chores are out of the way. I'm relaxing with projects.

[Deilla]

I feel tired today. I didn't sleep very well and I woke up late this morning. That put me behind. But I think I am finally caught up. I'm ready to go to bed early. Maybe I will sleep tonight.

[Deilla]

I'm not doing well. I had a rudy lady from my doctor's office upset me with some negative comments. I've been bothered by them all day. My online therapist isn't very helpful at the moment. I'm ruminating and it's difficult to stop.

[Deilla]

I don't feel well emotionally. I'm still upset about that rude lady from the other day. I took it personally and have been beating myself up. I'm trying to cope by working on projects, but it's not really helping. Today I have an appointment with my online therapist. I'm not sure that will help either.

[bpforever1]

I'm feeling great after walking 1.5 hours in the park. I am doing well and am still compliant. I am working more these days. I am going to apply to grad school hopefully next year. I am going to do the best I can with whatever I'm doing. I am happy with my life, but want to contribute more to society some how. I think now is my time to do well again. After suffering from my illness for over 20 years, I'm finally understanding how to deal with it well. I am independent and free, and look forward to going back to school again!! Life is good. I hope to take the experiences I have had and turn them into a positive. This time I will pursue a degree that is practical and doable. I am on fire! Moreover, I got rid of all the abusive and user-friendly men in my life. LOL, it is about time I did.

[bpforever1]

I realize if I get all my prerequisites together I can apply at the end of this year for next year's entering class. So, we shall see! I'm happy. Life is not bad. I'm busy but doing well. I have to volunteer to gain some experience in dealing with crisis situations. So, I will apply for this and see what happens. I feel great!! I wish I could have said this 5 years earlier but now is my time. So, I will go for it!!

[Deilla]

My therapy session yesterday went well. I was surprised. We focused on my anxiety and put a plan in place. I'm going to try exposure therapy. I'm starting off small and will build from there. I feel better today. I feel more hopeful. I'm a little anxious this morning cause I have an appointment today. But I really need to go. I am rehearsing the event in my mind and focusing on being successful.

[Deilla]

I got vaccinated yesterday. Today I am a little tired. Other than that, I feel pretty good. I'm ready for a nap at the moment, but I'm waiting on my mom. She's supposed to pick something up. After she comes by, I will do a meditation and try to sleep for a while.

[bpforever1]

I asked the schools admissions office for advice about my background and whether or not I should apply. I am waiting to see what they will say. I hope they are honest and truthful. I don't need accommodations and believe I can do well now given my stability. But, I don't know how they will respond. So, we shall see. I am thinking of only applying to one school this year for next year's class. I really hope to hear something positive from them. But, if not, I will be ok still.

[Deilla]

I feel pretty good this morning. I've been doing mindfulness exercises and working with difficult emotions. I feel like it's helping.

[SlumberKitty]

Kind of depressed today but mostly been doing okay.

[bpforever1]

I am doing great! I heard from one of the program directors. I believe, it may be out of curiosity on their part? I told them about my illness. So, I was thinking I will be ok although I may not be accepted into a program. I am still working and will continue to work. It is nice that they replied though. Very nice!!

[Deilla]

I have been working on a big project. It's been quite rewarding. It's helped with my stress today. My little cat Jazzy has been crying for most of the day. I think her stomach is bothering her again. The medicine doesn't seem to be helping. I can double up the dose, so I will try that. She's quiet at the moment. I have a lot going on today.

[Breaking Dawn]

I had a better day today.

[Deilla]

I was at the vet for 4 hours yesterday with Jazzy. She is fine now. It seems that she had an upset stomach. Today I am behind. I'm trying to do my best.

[bpforever1]

I'm doing well and have decided NOT to pursue grad school. I am happy with what I have. I may do something here that is doable. Life is not bad here. I feel blessed!

[Deilla]

Today has been a very bad day for me. I received some terrible news. It's ruined my entire day. I am down on myself. It's my fault. My mental health is causing me problems. People aren't understanding. I've done nothing but ruminate all day. I haven't been able to function or take care of myself.

[Deilla]

Today is a little better for me. I set a goal to do my self-care today. I've done that. Next, I want to open the Chewy box with the cat food and cat toys. I just ordered my cats some fun stuff. It will be good for me to watch them play. Plus Nyke's been wanting some wet food.

[bpforever1]

I did not sleep two nights ago and finally caught up with my sleep. I feel fine. I took a shower and feel great again! I took my medication daily but was obsessed about what I should do to earn extra money. I think I would like to do medical translations and writing. It will allow me to stay at home and do my work. I also like my current job so I will build on it and see what I can do. Life is not bad!!

[Deilla]

I've been having trouble sleeping. Tonight is no different. It's impacting my energy level and making it difficult to do things. I will try to get more sleep later.