[Shadowsinsideme]

I have been almost without symptoms for the last month, except that things still move sometimes, and i still see some shadows at night, but mostly i just dont feel anything and i dont feel like i'm really here--physically.

I want my "symptoms" back. Life is better with them. It's real. This is fake and stupid.

-Becka

Hang in there, Becka! *hugs*

[Junerain]

It is scary not to feel anything..I have had that feeling, the lack of feeling...it is terrifying..perhaps the part of your symptoms that you miss is the manic part...that part is really interesting..or seeing things, that can be interesting too..Perhaps you can acheive a balance, where yes, you can feel things, and yet your symptoms are nothing too disturbing..write back and tell us more...you didn;t give too many details..I care about you.

[Shadowsinsideme]

thanks junerain and esthervertue.
It's hard to know what else to say about it. I just feel like im in a fog and im far away and time is going by much too fast. And i don't really have any emotions much of the time...or it seems i have the wrong emotion. I feel like im missing a part of myself and i dont like being without the hallucinations and such, although they have started to come back a little over the last few days.

-Becka