Code Word

They are coming tomorrow morning - just the receptionist being confusing.

Ohhh! Receptionists do that sometimes, think their brains get tired from multi-tasking

lol yeah, I actually think she could do with some help as well.

Going to show the nurses the videos - since my local news aren't interested now.
I just can't take it anymore.

Let me know how it goes ok?

I'm glad you're going to have your appointment after all.

Went ok - but I didn't tell them what I wanted to, not sure what my videos did either.

Why didn't you speak up?

Just feels harder to talk to them, but I see my psychologist tomorrow so I can tell her.

The flowers I got her, have just come as well. They look awesome

Glad you'll be able to talk to your psychologist flowers are a nice suprize!

I got her rainbow roses from interflora.

The sleeper cells were visiting the stalker in the red car, the nurse I emailed must be important to them, I thought she was expendable.

That sucks.

I hope your appointment tomorrow is much more fruitful.

Thanks, it should go well.

I just had an awesome idea - I'm been trying to contact the nurse, well I could just talk to her friend - with my camera on obviously, then I might get the information I need.

I might also get killed - but I'm only delaying that right now anyway.

Tomorrow might be the last time I see her, be alone then with it.

I dont want to stop seeing her, I'll miss her.

Why might it be the last time?

Maternity leave, be away for a year.

Wow, that is a huge adjustment. For both of you. Do you know who will be standing in for her? Or has she referred you elsewhere?

It would be really nice if she could introduce you to whomever you will be seeing instead. Seems like that would be an easier transition.
(and wow! is a year's maternity leave standard? they're short over here.)

Yeah I think it's always a year.

I won't be seeing anyone else just the nurses, it sucks because I can't really talk to them.

Why won't you be seeing anyone else? Was that your choice?

Yes, can you request to see another psychologist in her absence? Or do you prefer not to?

No, it's just what they decide.

But then again, they isn't anyone that would be as awesome as my psychologist. It's a no win situation.

So they just decided you don't need therapy for the next year? What a bunch of #insert appropriate rude word#! What do you plan to do, in the way of support or sounding board, have you given it some thought?

Obviously idk exactly what your situation is but my 1st cpn went on sick leave. I was given another one, and she's going on maternity now too. I kinda get where you're coming from mind you, now more than ever I wish there was someone i could talk to about whatever the heck is going on. Everythings just so confusing and idk who to talk to now. someone i know said to me, that with certain profesionals, they can be good at there job or they can suck at it, also some people who suck for one person can help another.
But having someone you trust go away is obviously not a nice feeling. There may be someone who comes along and is actually more helpful than you thought? idk hope this helps

Well I'll still be seeing the nurses for a couple of months, then I think I'm going to see the CMHT, but I don't know if that is just to see the psychiatrist

There is someone there I don't want to see ever again.

I really can't see me getting anyone as good as my psychologist, if I get to see anyone, I hate when things change.

The only person I totally just is my psychologist.