Roll Call Eight

peppermint sleepytime tea & xtra cheesy goldfish do NOT taste good together

Ewwwww that just sounds wrong.

Good to know, lol.

i had a great birthday overall. to my family its my birthday month.
wish it was my birthday year

hm getting bad visuals of hurting my dad. im so sorry :'(

Hang in there Newtus!
Happy Birthday to you!
I hope you have a great birthday month!

Hey everyone. Wanted to drop in and say hello oh, and happy late birthday Newtus!

How do I know that this is real? What if I'm dreaming. What if everything is just in my head. What's real anymore. Are you real?

Hey, Erti. Good to see you. Hope you're well.

I got a rooster last night. A beautiful big 4 month old silver and blue Easter Egger.

I'm pretty confidant that I'm real. I've wondered if everything's just some kind of dream or something before though.

Feeling really crap. The dark seems too dark

Don't trust the men in suits they change reality. This is not real life

Be careful, they disguise themselves as trees to fool you.

I'm sorry that you have to have the injections Newtus Glad you enjoyed your birthday though and hope the rest of the month is just as good

Looking forward to tales of your rooster Costello!

Nice to see you Erti

Sorry that you're both struggling Lalalabp and Justmeandmyhead

My Mum rang the early intervention people yesterday. They have a psychologist, though she's currently full and not taking new clients. They also have a care coordinator and CPNs and social inclusion people and groups and pdocs of course. They believe in recovery and use low doses of meds. Sounds good; better than I'm getting now at any rate which is just a pdoc only. Problem is their referral criteria: 18-35 check, psychosis check, been on meds less than 2 years - uh oh! So, as I figured, I'm not 'early intervention' enough. Mum says to talk to my pdoc to see if he can pull any strings, but I reckon it's pointless. They think I'm a lost cause, that it's too late to bother using their interventions to help me

My pdoc is good, but he can only offer meds, and I don't really want meds...I want therapy, to learn to deal with this stuff without meds. Mum reckons that I can't afford a T privately at all, and I'm worried I won't find one that has my take on psychosis and meds.

IDK. It just sucks they won't take me

*Willow*

WillowI have faith that perhaps the pdoc can "work the numbers" so you fit the criteria for that program. As I remember you are only outside the time frame mark by a bit. Don't give up.

That's too bad. How many years have you been on meds? I mean are you far outside their criteria?

Thanks Mimi

I am almost a year outside the 2 year time frame though. Even if you discount my drug free period (which I'm pretty sure isn't how they calculate it), I'm still over by a month. I don't see how pdoc can wangle that.

They've got all this stuff and I don't qualify. I just feel like a lost cause and that the NHS don't care. I had all my hopes resting on the EIP team and they don't want me.

Mum says not to give up hope until I've spoken to Pdoc, but I don't see what he can do. Their criteria is based on evidence about psychosis and recovery, so they're not going to break the rules for me cos they don't think I'll be worth wasting all their resources on.

Anyway enough whining :/

*Willow*

dont trust MSM period. (aka MainStream Media aka MSM in the conspiracy theory business. ) yes i am theorist. but dont get that confused with "Crazy". conspiracists arent crazy. they are theorists.

My problem is that we live in a 1984 world where there are distractions and misleading information it's really hard to find what's important and if it's real.

best thing to do is research on your own. forget google. look deeper. forget the mainstream news. their main job is to report negative news and they know this. its well known among them and others. the news needs ratings too. they come to show negative things. its all we hear and think this world is crazy. in 1 way it is! but theres tons of good things going on - its just that thats not their job to report it. if thats all the talked about their ratings wouldnt sky high as they are now. the bigger people involved wouldnt make their money. like rupert murdoch who owns fox and 27 others tv stations and 5-6 movie studios including one that are in spanish AND magazines and publishing houses. he even owns national geographic channel. oh and use common sense. have wisdom.

I got news today. Finally I have an appointment to see a counselor. It's still almost a month away, but I have an appointment. I'm nervous already because I don't know if I can trust her yet..

I'm doing alright. I just got back from an anime convention last weekend. It was fun.

That really sucks...there are some books about cbt and psychosis you could try...I know it's not the same as a therapist but it could help.

Oh willow I'm so sorry.
I do think you should let pdoc try - some psych meds have other uses, such as for sleep, chronic pain, etc. He might still be able to fanangle some things.
But even if this is a "no" I hope that you won't hear it as a no to any help ever. You might not be able to work out a T, and the type of help you want right now, but that doesn't mean you will never be able to. I hope you will hang on to your own ability to hope.
*hugs*