Roll Call Twelve

My son also hated the group home. People went through his stuff and walked into his room without permission.

How far are you from Oklahoma? Maybe you can move over the border.

I met a woman in an Al-Anon meeting a few years ago whose son had both sz and alcoholism. They were having a hard time getting him services in Kansas, then one day he up and disappeared. Next they heard he was in Oklahoma getting all these services they hadn't been able to get here. Maybe it was partly because he was homeless? But this woman seemed to feel there were way more services available in Oklahoma.

Of course that was before the recession so maybe funding has been cut.

This report is from 2009: http://www.nami.org/gtsTemplate09.cf...ontentID=75255

Page two has a map with NAMI's grades of the different states. Kansas and Texas had a D. Oklahoma had a B (one of only 6 states with a B, and no states had an A).

Other residents used to come into my room too. Usually they were after money. If I wasn't around they would go through my things.

I lasted 6 weeks. The stealing and regular 911 calls were too much. It was a shock, because I never lived in such conditions before.

im about an hour away from oklahoma.

but that means id be alone living alone right?

Maybe supported. Idk what's available there.

I was thinking you were closer. It would be great to be able to visit with family regularly, but an hour drive may be a bit much?

but id be away from my dad right? whats supported? yea im about an hr away.

Look at this -

You are caught up in the deception that this whole gang stalking thing is JUST the government. Yes, it includes the government, but it extends far beyond it. This is a spiritual war my friend

I would suggest that you stop watching Alex Jones. I saw that you were subscribed to Prison Planet. Alex Jones is just another Freemason.

It's not spiritual , it's the ****ing government and I like Alex Jones, that's from youtube

kureha

personally i think its partially spiritual but its government. i believe the government work for devilish acts and are bad people. but thats not the full story.

alex jones is another story. whoever wrote that is wrong. alex isnt a freemason. theres no way in the world he could be. with as many stories hes broken and covered and dismantled. hes not. idk where somelme would get thaf idea. hes one of the only people that not only talks the talk but walks it too.

ill just ask at the addictions forum

I hate myself. I can't do anything because of my negative and cognitive symptoms. I can't even take care of myself. The most I can do is take my meds, and I can't even do that some days, I have to ask my mom for help finding them, because I forget where they are.

I don't know how to fix this. The abilify stops the hallucinations mostly, but I have no motivation, not even to do the things I like. I think my mom is about done with me.

i have no motivation too. is there a way you can combat this somehow? i do weird things like take energy pills and drink energh drinks but it doesnt quite help.

dont hate yourself

I drink energy drinks, but I also have memory problems and ADHD, which makes it hard to do anything even when I have energy. I'll have energy, but no motivation to do anything with it. :< Thank you though, newtus.

i just wanna say something maybe

im sorry for my behavior these past months

ive learned something about myself.

idk how to be a friend or make friends or keep em. someone told me recently all i do is talk about my problems but that wasnt the first person to say that and i notice i dont help anyone here but only talk about myself.

idk how to fix myself because yes i admit
i talk about my problems a lot. i dont feel the therapist helps nor the forum. help much i mean. and im really deeply deeply interested in the stuff people say im delusional/paranoid about. conspiracy theories all that. my voices. spiritual and demonic stuff. and i admit im really into myself becuase i truly think of my passions to be so interesting. i partly blame this on being quite alone with myself.. i think partly because i have no one else to put energy into and dont know how to.

in real life im very quiet and hardly speak especially about myself. but my online persona is very different from who i am in real life. very different. like i imagine a lot of peoples.

im very sorry to didgee and gretta and cracking and everyone and i mean everyone. cuz i seem to be the only person that gets into arguments with people.

its not easy to say all this because its against myself

So I went to the police station to tell them to quit following me, argued with the receptionist, the other one was ok she got someone to see me.

They denied everything as usual, so I left and walked through the college car park, the police were coming out the car park, saw me and turned around and followed me around the car park - but they aren't following me right

Alexander Emerick "Alex" Jones (born February 11, 1974) is an American radio host, author, conspiracy theorist[1][2] and documentary filmmaker.[3] His syndicated news/talk show The Alex Jones Show, based in Austin, Texas, airs via the Genesis Communication Network on more than 70 AM, FM, and shortwave radio stations across the United States and on the Internet.[4] His websites include Infowars.com and PrisonPlanet.com.[5][6] He has a popular YouTube channel.

Jones has been the center of many controversies, including his statements about gun control in the wake of Sandy Hook Elementary School shooting.[7] He has accused the U.S. government of being involved in the Oklahoma City bombing,[8] the September 11 attacks,[9] and the filming of fake Moon landings to hide NASA's secret technology[10] and the killing of "thousands of astronauts".[11] He believes that government and big business have colluded to create a New World Order through "manufactured economic crises, sophisticated surveillance tech and—above all—inside-job terror attacks that fuel exploitable hysteria".[12] Jones describes himself as a libertarian and a conservative.

Kind of a fun little video. My speech matches up with the Kansas dialect in this video, except I pronounce 'pecan' like the one they show as being in Oklahoma and Texas. As far as I know, everyone around here pronounces it like I do.

Soda vs. Pop vs. Coke: Mapping How Americans Talk - Katherine Wells - The Atlantic

i sent a letter to the pope.

i will bring down the catholic church singlehandedly.

I like this new pope. I may actually start going back to church.

I like Alex Jones - he knows what he is talking about.

yes he does. i first heard of him when i watched my fta satellitte Russia Today. he is AMAZING.

wha? costello going to church?...

well the pope seems like a good man. but dont confuse 1 man with the business of the catholic church. the thing as a whole is corrupt and has been for centuries. they hide things in their little vatican archives.

Yep. I'm Catholic. I quit church when I was 15 because I didn't agree with their stance on social issues. Then I went back sometime in my 40's. I attended regularly for 6 or 7 years. Then I quit again, mostly because I still didn't agree with their stance on social issues but also because the part I liked the best, the mystery and ceremony of the mass, is just missing now. It's like everything in our culture, which is all about consumption and comfort. There's no longer a place for transcendence.

I actually considered becoming a nun at two different points in my life. It's a way of life that appeals to me, but frankly I couldn't accept all of the church's teachings, so I'd feel like a fraud.

that reminds me of the movie called The Rite which is based off a book which is true. its about a man becoming a priest who performed exorcisms but still had doubts about god as he was going through the priest process. you should see it. if u havent. hollywood made it more into a slight horror movie but its mainly a drama. if u like books the book speaks more to thruth of what actually happened in real life. its called The Rite.

I also like the Pope but I won't go back to church. My family has a lot of strangeness to it that is like how being Catholic was when it was still very Pagan.... as in when it was absorbing all the smaller faiths and the Roman faith etc. My family who still goes to church doesn't realize it, but I do.

I remember in confirmation they told us to look around at the other churches and learn from them. So I went with this boy to his Bible group. It was non-denominational. I thought it was fun and would go again, just for fun. But, the secondary priest at the church found out, and sat me down for a "talking to." He said that they tell the kids to go and look at the other churches, but they don't mean it. What they really want is for people to realize everything else is false. So, I couldn't go to a non-denominational Bible group, because I'd learn false things.... I was 14 and realized what a load of BS that was. I mean... it's the same Bible, everyone interprets it differently even in the same Church...

Well, I like some things like saints and forgiveness and all that. I believe certain things that are the truths of all people, such as Jesus going and befriending the poor and ignoring the powerful men. And other things I see to be the laws of man put down under the "word of God" such as anything that is intolerant towards good human beings. I was upset the Pope said women can never be priests, which is one of those things that is the law of man, not the word of God. That's just one thing. But, I think he's a better Pope than that last one, which I'm glad he quit.