Roll Call 18

LOL your MIL in there too! and your kids! seeing everythang.

maybe you can get a brazilian bikini wax.

Well in that case im not gonn hug you, but i do hope you feel better soon!

No thanks. I'll have to pass.

My mom's cousin and his girlfriend are moving in with us because they both lost their jobs. Kill me now.

I hate to admit it... but again I'm feeling monitored.... For example today I had to send a note back to a doctor about a patient who has not scheduled. (Just to say he hasn't scheduled.) As I was looking up his record to make sure he hasn't scheduled, he called me to schedule. Not even kidding.... This makes me feel monitored. Like, someone or something knows what I'm doing.....

Lol all this talk about getting naked. When I was about 15 years old I decided to go outside butt naked and jump in our above ground pool in the middle of the night with my cousin and bestfriend. Mom then suddenly woke up and went outback to see what was going on... I RAN out front and went inside the front door before mom caught me being naked. I made it upstairs in my room and put clothes on before my mom started pounding on my door. Got into trouble for being outside late at night but not for skinny dipping. Funtimes.

sounds fun!!!

do you think this was just a coincidence?

im sorry. how is this gonna work for you?

i am kinda different everyday. like my energy levels are different everyday so is my mood and psychotic symptoms. lately i notice more energy. but idk if thats me taking the 5hr energy drinks. i notice more psychotic symptoms and a little less sadness.

Can you handle your psychotic symptoms? If so than I don't see how this is a bad thing. More energy and less sadness. That's great!

I don't even know these people. I've met them a grand total of twice. My mom hasn't seen her cousin in almost 30 years. Oh and there goes my privacy.

I am dealing with so much **** right now that I can't afford to have strangers hanging around the house all the time like a ******* audience... What if something happens.

i think i can. so far i have been able to.
but some days im still sad and some days im ok. im wondering if it has to do my energy. like if i have less energy i might be more sad.

im hoping to get this injection of my system soon because it was just so much. 100mg. idk how long it will take to get out of my system before i start seeing even more energy.

I need to get the **** out of here..................

what do you think could happen?
i can understand what your dealing with. i really can to an extent.

Newtus: Yes, it was probably a coincidence, but you know how it suddenly comes up on you when things like that happen. Then it kind of lingers.

But, Newtus, about your moods, didn't you say at some point you were at one time considered sza? If you just started an anti-depressant just be aware. More energy + better mood suddenly always puts up a red flag for me. But, you know, less depression = more energy in general. It could just be that you're stabalizing.

blackwhitered: I know exactly how you feel. Just over a year ago my MIL's brother was homeless and we decided to let him come stay. I only met him like maybe 5 times before many years ago... it was very uncomfortable for me the whole time he lived with us. I did my best to be nice but it's hard living with a strang man. I always felt expossed. I was glad when he moved out and now he's in a program to be rehabilitated and doing well. He wasn't homeless before. He worked for like 15 years at his job until he got laid off, then I think some mental illness started in around that time because he also got divorced and couldn't see his kid... (MI seems to be pretty strong in my husband's family.)

could more energy + better mood be caused by the antidepressant? or you saying it could be manic symptoms?

I wouldn't jump the gun and call it manic/hypomanic. How long have you been taking the Celexa?

What if my mom makes me go to the hospital... What about the demons... What about the people in the backyard... Things have been getting so much more intense recently, but apparently that's not important to my mom... The voices might not let me live here anymore...

Okay seriously WTF they are literally moving in RIGHT NOW. My mom asked me casually YESTERDAY what I thought about them moving in. She does that a lot and never follows through. But nope, they are in the house with all their stuff right now. I don't have time to protect everyone. This is ridiculous.

about 3 weeks. ive never been known to be manic. but i think i sort of get like this before i get psychotic. more energy and better mood. because my psychotic symptoms are becoming more. it might be the injection wearing off. which im glad. id like to harness my psychosis and turn it into something like Sometims said shamanism. or like a form of something i can turn into art.

I don't even know how much they know about what is going on. My mom is in denial of the "s" word. She probably still tells people I'm bipolar even though we ruled that out.

So either she is telling people about my business without my permission or she left out an important piece of information when she let these people into our house...

Ok well if it is 3 weeks on the celexa that makes me feel better. Not sure why I thought it was like less than a week. Time tends to slip away from me. So I think you are probably starting to feel the effects of it and, you know, learning to feel different moods in general. I think when you haven't felt good in a long time your mind forgets what it's like to feel okay. You'll have good and bad days, that's normal. I think it's a good sign.

I agree if you can harness your psychosis for your art or something that would be good. If you can find a proper balance so that you're well enough but still able to get your ideas, that would be ideal

This is not cool at all....

I know it's her house and all, but she has a daughter who is having a hard time. Your kids need to come first, especially if they are having a hard time....



I'm sorry your mom is in denial. It would be hard to hear that your kid has something going on so serious. But, it makes me mad when parents just blow it off. That's what happened to me, and it's so wrong to leave your kids to fend for themselves like that.

I wouldn't know how I feel if my mom disclosed information about my mental illness. Maybe you can try to avoid them as much as possible if you don't feel comfortable around them. Maybe find some activity to do outside the house?