[Lillybird90]

I think I may have schizophrenia But I am not sure
After looking it up and discussing it with my mother she also believes
It sounds like what I am and have been going through. I am in my early 20s
I have declined in personal care I don't even feel like bathing unless I really have too
Usually I wash up and toss my dirty hair in a ball cap or pony tail.. I dropped out of trying to go to college and get a job,I lost all desire in it. I have been told I say and do things that don't make sense at all,and I do things I don't even remember later.. (no I am not on any drugs) I hear voices all the time breathing or I will feel air on my face or swear something is crawling in my hair or on my back or touching me or standing behind me. I see people and animals and HORRIBLE messed up things like contorted faces and evil eyes. sometimes I will be staring at someone and their face will contort and It will horrify me and they will wonder what's wrong. The voices also tell me things like what I should be doing (the helpful ones) and the bad ones tell me I am worthless and I am a failure and everyone hates me and wants me dead or gone. I can't hold up a job I oversleep sometimes sleeping away an entire day sometimes it's the opposite though and I don't sleep at all for long time before passing out from exhaustion. I get jumpy and I get paranoid I think everyone is against me at times and I get so hypersensitive. I get mad at people for no reason at times. And I will hit myself from it or cut myself from it. I think life is a personal hell that I created for myself I think maybe I am apart of some weird otherworldly experiment and everything around me has been simulated to seem normal but it's not. But someone told me those thoughts aren't normal even though they are to me.
To me they make so much sense. My mom is going to get me an appointment with a professional on the matter... The thought makes me sick I don't want to be labeled crazy! What if this ruins my life? what if it makes it so I never get a job because no one will want to hire me? How do I deal with this? I feel so lost right now..

[katnic2817]

it does sound like u have a lot of symptoms of schizophrenia. even if u r diagnosed with it employers wouldn't know that information when u look for a job. they aren't going to ask for your medical records most likely unless ur looking to work for the fbi or something idk lol. i have felt a lot of what u have described in the past 10 years but am still mostly functional. i wouldn't be worried about being labeled crazy either because i used to worry about that a lot but have found that a lot of people call themselves crazy and they really don't care. hope this helps. best of luck

[blackwhitered]

Well first off, you probably won't be labelled as schizophrenic right away because the new DSM says you can't be Dxed schizophrenic on the first psychotic break. It sounds like you may have symptoms of psychosis but there are a lot of things that have to be ruled out and established before you can be called schizophrenic.

[16216398]

Oh my god, I swear you just said EXACTLY what happens to me! I dont think I have multiple personalitys though.

[blackwhitered]

Originally Posted by 16216398

Oh my god, I swear you just said EXACTLY what happens to me! I dont think I have multiple personalitys though.

Schizophrenia isn't the same as multiple personalities. That's DID (dissociative identity disorder). Schizophrenia consists of some combination of the following:

• hallucinations
• delusions (weird or paranoid thoughts & beliefs that won't go away)
• disorganized thoughts
• disorganized or catatonic behavior (not responding to environment)
• "negative" symptoms, i.e. lack of functioning, including social function, motivation, speech, pleasure, showing emotion, etc.

Originally Posted by Lillybird90

I think I may have schizophrenia But I am not sure
After looking it up and discussing it with my mother she also believes
It sounds like what I am and have been going through. I am in my early 20s
I have declined in personal care I don't even feel like bathing unless I really have too
Usually I wash up and toss my dirty hair in a ball cap or pony tail.. I dropped out of trying to go to college and get a job,I lost all desire in it. I have been told I say and do things that don't make sense at all,and I do things I don't even remember later.. (no I am not on any drugs) I hear voices all the time breathing or I will feel air on my face or swear something is crawling in my hair or on my back or touching me or standing behind me. I see people and animals and HORRIBLE messed up things like contorted faces and evil eyes. sometimes I will be staring at someone and their face will contort and It will horrify me and they will wonder what's wrong. The voices also tell me things like what I should be doing (the helpful ones) and the bad ones tell me I am worthless and I am a failure and everyone hates me and wants me dead or gone. I can't hold up a job I oversleep sometimes sleeping away an entire day sometimes it's the opposite though and I don't sleep at all for long time before passing out from exhaustion. I get jumpy and I get paranoid I think everyone is against me at times and I get so hypersensitive. I get mad at people for no reason at times. And I will hit myself from it or cut myself from it. I think life is a personal hell that I created for myself I think maybe I am apart of some weird otherworldly experiment and everything around me has been simulated to seem normal but it's not. But someone told me those thoughts aren't normal even though they are to me.
To me they make so much sense. My mom is going to get me an appointment with a professional on the matter... The thought makes me sick I don't want to be labeled crazy! What if this ruins my life? what if it makes it so I never get a job because no one will want to hire me? How do I deal with this? I feel so lost right now..

I doubt your schizophrenic. Everyone sits on a scale , as you move up or down the scale , you can have different symptoms. So you might be at a stage and you may not get worse. Thats why for example we see people with varying amounts of eccentricity or paranoia or agression or duplicity or insensitivity or dissociation. So there is no guarantee that you will get worse.

[Lillybird90]

Well I guess I will know when I see this ''professional'' that my mother was telling me about.She's getting me an appointment with them.
I was telling her that it really doesn't matter no one can tell you
what you think and feel only you can tell this and it might be a waste of time
to hear some glorious explanation as to what Might really be going on with me
When I am the one suffring it's easy for them to say and it's so easy for them to think and feel but they don't know what I (MYSELF) have to deal with. And they may never be able to understand me. I think so called diagnoses are just view points of their over perception In actuality none of us are ''normal'' what might be crazy to one person makes ground breaking sense to another. So We will just have to wait and see how it goes..In honesty I am not too happy about any of this I was going to just call it off Tell her no but she is so persistent about things I know it's hard for all of us but Well we just have to cope. So looking at it from her standpoint of view I must be such a horrible person I must be such a terrible horribly worthless person and I feel so bad that She has to put up with me.She has to have a daughter like me a worthless life of a human being that does nothing but cause her grief..I hate it! I hate it.. I guess that's why she wants me to get help..Because I obviously can't help myself..
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In addition I did the sanity score thing today and got these results
So this was my score. I got an 100% in schizophrenia this time!
But this time I answered all the questions truthfully with the help of a family member
Because I was skipping out on some things and not being totally honest with my answers.

General Coping 39
Life Events 31
Depression 69
Anxiety 49
Phobias 67
Self-Esteem 42
Eating Disorders 10
Schizophrenia 100
Dissociation 83
Mania 75
Sexual Issues 0
Relationship Issues 0
Alcohol 0 Drugs 0
Physical Issues 0
Smoking Issues 0
Gambling Issues 0
Technology Issues 31
Obsessions/Compulsions 6
Posttraumatic Stress 8
Borderline Traits 29

(Schizophrenia 100%) ...... -_-

[Lillybird90]

Thank you everyone for posting it has been helpful to get other peoples points of view .

[Cannablissfully]

I have been experienced similar problems that you have listed,...and it Really does sound like you may be having schizophrenic symptoms,I also am in my early 20s and someone told me that it is very common for people our age to start developing schizophrenia at this time But I can't say for sure if you have schizophrenia though only a licensed professional can tell you what's wrong with you so your best bet is to go to that appointment you mentioned. And then you can go from there. I know what you're going through and I am sorry but just remember you're not alone! don't be afraid it's not going to ruin your life just look at it like an illness there are several people who have all kinds of illnesses who are famous and doing great in society you just gotta learn how to keep the illness treated and learn to live with it! I wish you the best of luck!

[ickydog2006]

Even if it is schizophrenia they probably won't label it right away and most of them lean on their own insight rather than doing a full on psychiatric analysis. Most tests are incredibly long and time consuming to grade and you have to have special qualifications to interpret them. If I had to quess, their first diagnosis would be depression with psychotic features, but who knows what they will say. It's worth going and getting started on treatment stuff if you want things to improve. It will be hard and a lot of work. It's a lot of guess and check and what works for you. But really, what do you have to lose. It sounds like things have gotten really bad for you. Also, as someone else said, when you are feeling better and more capable of getting a job they won't have access to your medical files. People won't know unless you tell them or are experiencing symptoms that they can see. Most people think I am totally fine. Plus, just getting on an antidepressant may greatly improve your overall functioning. But I do know how hard it is to not worry about this stuff.