Roll Call 25

They totally are.

So this is wild but this guy who has been working with us for the last year and recently moved to the Netherlands was totally a scammer...he falsified data in the lab etc...we had no idea until we went to publish and the journal called us out on it. His gels were too perfect...turned out he had been hugely adjusting the contrast as well as cropping etc. Drama in progress we have to fix the figures but I don't know what my boss is going to say to the journal...like we were scammed....I don't think she's planning on telling them...it's totally unreal...one if my thoughts today was I really hope I'm not psychotic again....it's that bizarre...

does anyone watch that show Catfish? im kind of obsessed with it. but i dont have cable so i have to watch it the next day after it airs.

No I never said that you need to get a grip, nor would I because that is a horrible thing to tell someone. You need to reframe conquering your anxiety into a positive. "Get a grip" has negative connotations, implying that you're weak or being a baby for not doing something that makes you anxious. It is the stick you use to beat yourself up for struggling. I do it all the time, and it is bad. If I oversleep, I'm lazy. If I get angry or upset, I'm pathetic. Etc. etc etc. But it just makes you feel worse and even less likely to try again next time (what's the point? I'm a failure etc)


Instead see it as a positive. You feel sad and lonely, but YOU have the power to change that (that's a good thing). Getting out of the house when you don't want to is something that you can congratulate yourself over. Getting out of the house when you don't want to and you're terrified is even more impressive. So give yourself a pat on the back for that! I'm trying to empower you to realise that, despite lacking motivation and feeling scared, you can choose to do things to make yourself feel better. That is a good thing. And when you feel good about achieving those things, it becomes even easier next time to motivate yourself because you can tell yourself that 'last time I did X even though I was scared, I felt less lonely/depressed etc'. And when your brain tells you that you're lazy or bad or whatever, you have evidence to argue with it e.g. 'I can't be bad because I'm volunteering to help animals' or 'I can't be lazy because I got up and went out today even though I didn't want to' or 'Not everyone hates me because that person at the coffee shop liked my art and wanted to chat to me'.


So no, don't 'get a grip' Newtus. Don't beat yourself up and make yourself feel worse. Instead 'take charge'. You are strong enough to make your life better. Yes it is hard and you won't get it spot on every day, but you can do it and you will feel better if you do


*Willow*

this ambien is makig me psychotic but i can type. barely

i wish i coukd give you all a glimpse with like ambien glasses

If it makes you psychotic and you KNOW it makes you psychotic, then why the hell are you taking it?

I am not taking the paxil until tomorrow.I took the haldol by its self today.maybe I will start feeling better now.

that REALLY hurt my feelings junkdna.