Roll Call 28

My jaw is hurting less by eating soft foods. I need to get groceries though...I dread it. I'm out of cigs. Only had a butt today. I've cut back recently. Can't afford em. But I'm craving one now...

Are u ok newtus?

Right on!

Hmm, stepdad tried a recipe for a salad and it was good. And chicken strips. Realizing that we eat a lot of chicken.

ok i accept. i just really dont wanna talk about anymore. if i find the cat ill take care of it and take it somewhere

yea ill be fine. just gotta figure out how im gonna sleep tonight with no sleep meds. i called the pharmacy but its too late

Chicken strips sound good. None for me though, only soft foods. Maybe I'll lose weight, lol.

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lol im thinking about emailing this to T. he is balding on the top of his head and he is only 37. one time i told him i wish i had something (i forget what it is) and he said "i wish i had hair!" poor T.

U could try benadryl.

i dont have any. all i have is nyquil

Lol, ur lucky to have him. I've never worked with a male therapist. That's cool that it's allowed u to heal, especially after what all happened with that sick t.

I've really learned never to run out of my sleep meds. But when I was younger I would run out of meds all the time. The Nyquil might help.

That would be the right thing to do.

Oh man I would flip my **** if I ran out of cigs... I know I know, bad habit... but damn, I can't quit right now. My mental health is so shaky right now which isn't a good atmosphere for quitting. I'm still bordering on manic right now.

Lol as much as I've been eating I think I've gained weight.

yah, i know i am very lucky to have him as my T. it has helped me to learn that not all men or people in general are out to harm me. that there are good people out there. we work a lot on my core beliefs i learned during my childhood and adolescence. its hard to confront those beliefs and be told that they are basically not true for me anymore. but the work is very healing. i literally owe my life to T.

Yeah when I'm manicky I smoke a lot. Until I lose weight I'm not gonna quit. There really expensive here...

I don't want to talk about it anymore either. We agree there.

Ha, know the feeling.

I've recently started swimming again though so that should help things. I need to lose about 20 pounds. I'm not that horribly overweight and I love myself just the way I am, I just feel like **** physically so that's my motivation to get some weight off.

Yeah, how much I smoke is directly related to the state of my mental health. The more unwell I am the more I smoke.

With my insurance it's hard to find a good t. They're usually brand new or burnt out. I wish I had a good one. Ur lucky.

I love swimming! Well not competitively. As for weight... I'm really overweight for my hight. I'd be happy if I can lose 100 pounds.

Yeah, me too.

yeah...finding a good therapist is hard. my T doesnt take insurance cuz the program im in doesnt take insurance since its a private facility. but my trust from the settlement with former T's malpractice insurance pays for the program and my therapy.

Some of the brand new ones are amazing...they have the latest training and aren't set in their ways yet so they'll sort of let you experiment a bit...whatever works...

Me too! I need to lose weight too.