Roll Call 33

I personally have been in a psychosis and it wasn't fun, I was heading there again, so I decided taking risperdal was my best bet....

I'll be on something soon I think. Abilify is my #1 choice I think... then Risperidone or Seroquel XR. Or perhaps Geodon.

Will have to see what my p-doc thinks when I get my referral.

Good morning everyone.

I actually slept last night! I've been having trouble sleeping again. But I slept all through the night last night so I'm very happy about that, I feel so refreshed!

Starting to feel a bit better physically too. I'm still going to see a neurologist though, I'll keep everyone updated about that.

I'm worried I'm going to develop tardive dyskinesia because I'm on a typical antipsychotic. My cpn said I might have to be on medication for the rest of my life and I know it develops over time. I'm going to try and get off meds next year but I'm still worried about developing it :/

I'm glad you slept well and are starting to feel better hopefully the neurologist can clear up what's been going on for you. Not knowing is awful.

Appparently it has a slow onset so if they see it developing they can change meds etc---I think the rate is roughly 5% per year maxing out at 20% but there are genetic factors that influence it as well as dose of your AP with high doses being worse.

Thank you. And that's exactly what's irritating me about this whole thing, the not knowing. Grr.

I started developing symptoms of TD about a year ago(I was also on a typical anti-psychotic at the time). My pdoc changed my medication and it cleared up on its own... It did take awhile though and I was really pissed off about it.

my therapist said if i get a full hour of therapy again my dad still has to be present so thatt sucks

Has she said why she thinks he needs to be there... and if there is anything you can do that would cause her to change her mind?

she said something about having inappropriate behavior but also that he needs to be there anyways. idk if theres anything i can do to change her mind. i really dont know. but any suggestions you guys have would be great. ive been taking my meds for 2 days now straight and im trying really hard to be med compliant. its really hard for me. but im trying.

ive actually been doing really well for a month with little psychosis. but right now i wont be seeing my therapist for 2 weeks due to her dental surgery. if thats what she REALLY is having. sometimes they lie at that clinic.

I was super anxious today, I still need to get evidence though - so I'll try to get out in a few days.
I haven't seen my nurse for over 2 weeks, so I haven't been able to talk about stuff either, she's the only person that will actually talk to me about it.

Feeling really tired. In fact, since I've been put on this medication all I've felt is tired and hungry.

I'll put a video of my apartment on YouTube to show people before there's booze bottles everyyywhere

Like I have no tv or Internet yet so uuhh ya

Maybe I could ask if I could use someone else's internet.. They better not all say no...

I started off on Olanzapine but had to change because I was tired in the mornings until about 11 & my legs felt like lead. Real problem because I was doing a physical job.

I never did get any weight gain from it though. Didn't have any other noticeable side effects either.

met with T downtown!!! he thought he could fix my charger but toby chewed on it too much and he couldnt fix it. but when the session was over he told me to come to his car and he had a charger just like mine and he gave it to me!!!!!!! i dont even know why he had that charger cuz he has a different phone. maybe it was an old one??

anyway the session went well. there were lots of tourists walking about. we met on a bench by the courthouse. i am glad i got to see him.

tourists? you must live somewhere big or something. or some hip place right?

well i dont live in a city. i live in a rural area. but T lives in a small city 30 min away from me. and his new office is gonna be there. he isnt set up in his office yet so we were meeting downtown. its a really touristy area in the summer. also 20 min away from that city is a bigger city that is pretty well known and hip. there are a lot of tourists in those two cities.

thats cool!

ya. eventually i would like to move to the city T lives in. its really nice. but right now i just cant afford a rent there

even though im under a lot of stress my symptoms havent exacerbated. i have a lot of family stress going on like i had said previously. just a little paranoia. no voices for a long time now.

yall remember that post i posted about my cousin saying his FB page was hacked? i think hes a little ...idk...he describes himself as a hebrew israelite. he says he has visions and stuff. what should i think. he posts on FB about it

Just took about 10mg of alprazolam! Time to float through intergalactic space on a unicorn called George! :P

I'm too afraid to ask strangers for internet

I asked one guy and he said his is down

Maybe if I drink more pineapple vodka juice I'll be able

shaved the hair of my head were the chip is