Roll Call 33

**** my friend as well, why text me - then ignore me when I mention GS.
I don't need any friends anyway.

Sorry your friend is ignoring you.

woke up early today. here i am. still tired tho

so i took all my meds yesterday. i thought about you guys.

Hi Costello,
We call those big ones dog ticks down south because they generally latch onto dogs that run freely in the woods. They get bigger when engorged with blood and fall off, bust open and voila' thousands of seed ticks. As a girl running through the thick woods they would rub off on me off a bush I would brush up against. I would feel some thing on one of my limbs there would be this dark spot that would began to spread over my skin, thousands of them. At that point all I could do was brush furiously. My Momma would make a concoction of suffer cream of tarter and lotion to ward them off. But I would have to grease up with that often because of sweating it off in that humidity. gay~ta~ween~

Good Morning Everyone! Had an uninterrupted sleep. Going for long walk today. Don't know how much longer we will be here ( work related) but if I don't get some exercise soon rig amorous will set in.
Hope everybody has a wonderful day!

My favorite news story of the day: Teen lives undetected at Texas Wal-Mart for 2 days

And it happened near newtus.

Yep. They're little like the one on the left when they get onto the dog, so they're hidden under the hair. You usually don't notice them until they're engorged. Occasionally one would get big enough that it would fall off, and I'd find it on the floor. Once or twice I've stepped on them accidentally. All that ever comes out is blood, as far as I know.

My family has always had dogs. When I was little, we camped a lot. Then when I got to be 11, we moved into the country. We have woods next to our house and tall grass all around (tall grass is another great place to pick up ticks - I once chased a run away dog through a field of tall grass then went to a hair dresser appointment right after - I thought I'd found all the ticks, but I was mortified to see one crawling up my leg while I was getting my hair cut ). Anyway, ticks-r-us.

Now that they have great products like Vectra, I don't have to deal with them as much.

yea i heard about that. out of this world.

my therapist was supposed to call me back when she got back into the office from being away monday. but she hasnt. its been 3 days now. idk why she hasnt called.

just got a call from the clinic. they said shell be out AGAIN next week. so i wont see her again. they mentioned something about her having dental surgery. idk

Sounds like you need a different therapist.

Well I'm back on risperdal. I was feeling really anxious and paranoid and depressed. I'm already feeling better mentally, but I've also already started eating more. It so sucks having decide between mental health or physical health.

Hope everyone is doing well.

Took my medication this morning at seven o'clock. My brother made me get up so early so he could watch me take it. Then I went back to bed and woke up at eleven. Had quite a busy day. Medication seems to be working a treat. I have only heard the voices once today and it lasted a grand total of ten minutes.

I haven't blocked you but I wasn't responding bc I was feeling so bad. Also I think you know what happens when you go off your meds and how long it takes for you to start feeling really bad again.

And about the weight stuff I and many others have suggested to you different HEALTHY ways of losing weight. I remember I wrote out a really long post to you about it. So I truly don't know what else we can say.

Are u doing any better? I hope so.

Not really no, but thanks so much for your concern. It's really appreciated! I'm going to try get through the weekend and call my pdoc next week.

Last night when I tried to cut into my arm the mark it really hurt and I didn't like seeing the blood so i brainstormed alternatives. When I get older i will im get a tattoo of it, but for now I will have it drawn on a piece of notebook paper taped to my arm.

ive contemplated getting a new one on the side for back up but idk where to look anymore.

i keep thinking someones poisoning my cigarettes

Are u taking your meds? And if so, what are u on if u don't mind me asking?

Yeah I'm on a depot injection of Clopixol 100mg every three weeks. It's a relatively low dose but they're increasing it in two weeks, I think. Not much good to me now though. I'm not allowed any prn medication because I have a history of od's. Went into my parents room last night as I was so upset with the voices, they told me it was all in my head and go back to sleep. Then proceeded to make a joke out of it today. They were only trying to lighten me up but it wasn't helpful at all, makes me feel like an idiot

im definitely gonna take everyones advice on healthy eating Sunshine. im gonna exercise and eat less and healthier.

So my mom bought a bunch of fruits and vegetable on my card today. About 80 dollars worth. I've been eating fruits and veggies nonstop today so they don't spoil. I have the poops.

I'm sorry.