Roll Call 33

I actually slept about 9 hours total which is great......I just think the med is really sedative....last time I was on it I was a bit hypo....

Still better than the very limited sleep I was having the last month....

I hope you do better tonight also.

That's why my psychiatrist just lowered it. I took 10mg and felt tired now 3-4mg. At the start it kept me awake for longer which was what I needed.

didnt really get a good nights sleep either sucks

She tried 5mg already I couldn't sleep well on that but am sleeping on 10mg---I might ask about 7.5 mg though---I need to see my PCP today first though to see if any other issues need to be addressed.

sick of my PLUS SIZE body. 144.2 pounds of FAT

I went to the tattoo parlour today to see if they will tattoo over my arm scars but they said they are 'too silvery' and need to heal more. I'm miffed. They are a year old how much longer could I leave them they stop healing after a year. Going to look somewhere else.

Is there some cream you could use?

I've used silicone gels in the past but with little improvement. She said come back in a few months but I'm a bit impatient.

That's less than I weigh----I understand you have an issue with your weight but have you considered posting on the eating disorders forum or healthy living etc where people may have advice specific to that?

As far as the APs causing it well I and others already recommended metformin which so far as I can tell you have yet to ask your doctor about. It may be that I am just sensitive right now having gained 2 pounds already on abilify 10mg but I don't need to acquire an unhealthy body attitude by reading these kind of comments and I'm honestly not sure what you want people to say at this point.
I don't have any new advice....

You could probably do henna---those last a few months I think but you have to leave it on for a while to get it reasonably dark----it kind of looks like a tan once the dye gets washed off but it might look nice-----

you weigh more than me?!?!?!!?

Yes but I am also 5'8" so it's not quite the same but a number of people here have expressed the fact that you are thinner than them in the past....when you start talking specific numbers it can sting a bit...you sound so horrified with yourself....and yet you have no reason to be....

i imagined you weighing like 110 or 115 pounds or less but thats my imagination right.

im 5'2. so i look pretty heavy.

i dont mean to hurt anyone. really i dont. but the truth is. . . i AM horrified and disgusted with myself. a lot. ieven thought today about going on a 0 calorie diet until further notice. i just hate it. alot BECAUSE i used to be 105 pounds. and the ONLY reason i gained was because during a 7 month period of haldol injections. ugh man makes me really sad...

I weigh way more than you do too newtus. I'm 5'3". If I weighed around what you do right now I would be sick. That's how much I weighed when my eating disorder was active. I have a weird body type so my ideal weight is closer to 160. Anything below that is too skinny for me.

oh ok. you mean sick like how?

anyway im not judging anyone. i just didnt know i guess...

I'll probably lose about 10-12lbs when I start my ritalin again and be underweight but it's ok because I gained that much when I stopped it.

Newtus try folcalin again uhh auto correct changed it to formalin i think folcalin was what sometimespsychotic meant. It's ritalin just a different molecular structure same atoms. You're weight is fine anyways

my frog

Can your frog make you high

wtf? wha? idk

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I am so losing touch with reality but I dont know what reality has ever been.others say i am more withdrawn than ever before i am not eating. my mum found my notepad that has all my secret thoughts that i share with no one why she was in my room i dont know.but she said we are gonna ''talk'' when she gets off work...i feel violated i dont like it when people go through my stuff without my consent.

oh i have no idea. im NOT going to lick it though.

It can if it is a Bufo alvarius... although I wouldn't recommend licking it.

just got into a fight with my mom over money. i asked her for money and she wants to know where im spending my disability check at and i said "its none of your business what i spend my disability check on or where i spend it on". my parents are divorced and my moms rarely ever helped me in my whole life. i dont live with her. i very RARELY and i mean rarely ask her for ANYTHING. so its none of her business.

my moms paying 15k-30k+ for my sisters wedding and she wont give me sh_t.