[Beautiful_Pain]

For those who had voices and now do not...

Do you sometimes miss them? I sometimes miss mine, I feel much more alone with just my 'me voice' in my head. I don't have the 'luxury' of having someone inside to talk with that I didn't have to explain things to. They always knew exactly how I felt or thought about something. When they were'nt being abusive, one of my voices was nice to talk to. =(

I asked my T about this the very last (well, second time also) that I saw him, he said he's heard people miss them frequently. Just seeing if anyone here can relate. =)

[Beautiful_Pain]

Maybe I'm just weird, and used to having them around...I've had them for decades. Since I was 10 or 11 and I'm 30 now =/

Yes. I have heard other people say that they miss theirs. Sometimes I miss mine. Sometimes they can be horrid to me, but othertimes they are okay. Good company. Someone to talk to. Cheered me up. And when they go it is like you have been seperated from one of your closest friends

[Beautiful_Pain]

Thank you for responding {{{muse}}}

It sort of feels like I got part of myself removed, I got so used to them that they were a big part of alot of things. I feel much more alone some days by not having them anymore. Which makes me sad, but I know its supposed to be healthier this way. =/

well... i don't know whether it is healthier to have them or not to have them... lots of people hear voices. some of them have psychiatric illnesses, and others do not.

i think... it is more about the kinds of things they say. whether you find them distressing or not. whether they tell you to do things and you feel like you have to do them etc. and what other symptoms arise with the voices (other kinds of stuff that might be hard for you / get you into trouble).

i found... on one of my medications... that they disappeared for a while... then a few months later they came back. that was something of a mixed blessing...

it can be hard.

yeah. i understand that it can be hard sometimes.

it probably will take you a while to adjust...
especially if you heard them for a while
they might come back. maybe.

[Beautiful_Pain]

I have schizo affective disorder, so they are part of that. Sometimes they (I had 2 that were constant) were abusive, sometimes they did tell me to do things--at these times they were distressing. But the rest of the time, one of them was nice to talk to...this is the one I miss. I guess all or none, huh? I can't just get rid of the constant bad one...though the 'good' one would join in the abusive/directive and I didn't like her then. =/

Hard, yes...and confusing for me.

Thank you {{{{muse}}}}} for replying again. =)

It is hard when they are abusive. Mine would be at times and I found that to be really very distressing. And yeah, sometimes 'good ones' would join in on that and that would be hard too.

The good one...

Can you still talk to that one?
Does it still feel like they are listening?

I dunno if that would help or not...

Only one way to find out I guess...

[Beautiful_Pain]

No my meds made both the voices go away...I'm left with just my 'me voice', and she's not used to being alone LOL

yeah.
but maybe me voice can keep talking to the other one.
just because the other one isn't talking doesn't mean she can't hear.

not necessarily...

[Beautiful_Pain]

Oh that's what I do currently...or talk to my me voice vocally

I've had a running commentary in my head for 20 years, now its just GONE *sigh*

no I don't miss the voices that I had with DID that are no longer there.

Each time I remember a separated memory and put coping tools in place so that I would no longer be triggered into the rerunning of that memory piece the voices that came with that memory piece also no longer reran from being triggered.

Each time I felt more calm, quite, free and able to do more things.

The reason I don't miss these voices is because they aren't gone. My memories can't be erased. But they are now stored as a part of my conscious memory so the voices no longer rerun at random. I have access to the information the voices contained but you might as well say the volume is set at mute and rewind/play from triggers has been disconnected.

Now just like normal memories I can visit that memory consciously by thinking about them. I dream and hope for the day when I no longer hear the voices and switch into the memory pieces of DID.

[dottie]

For the past two weeks or so...I have been having auditory hallucinations again. They wake me up several times during the night. I don't like this new pattern at all. It scares me. I know it's not real..all the same...it is interferring with my getting a good night sleep.

Don't have an appt. with my P-doc until next month.

I don't hear voices per se...it's more like a groaning or moaning. well...thanks for reading this. It feels better to get it out.

TGC

[Beautiful_Pain]

{{{{dottie}}}}

So sorry to hear your auditory hallucinations are interfering with your life. =/ I hope you make it well through until your pdoc appt.

Take care

[dottie]

Thanks BP. I appreciate your support.

TGC

[Psychotic_Phil]

I hate all my voices. They're insensitive, mean and want me to hurt myself and others.