Roll Call 41

Hey Angelique! How are you doing?

Im sorry to hear that.



What happened Erti?

What happened?

Well it goes back to when I was at an anime convention. My ex boyfriend took a girl to a formal dance there. I told that girl that my ex boyfriend and I have had sex after our break up. I ended up pissing off my ex boyfriend, that girl, and that girls friend. I ended up apologizing to that girl and she acted like she wasn't upset about it. Later I tried adding her to facebook and she denied my request. Also the girls friend removed me from facebook about a couple months after all that.

That's not so bad. It sounds like it was hard enough on you. Please don't beat yourself up over it.

Didgee, would some hot tea help? I'm going to have some too in a little while.

We all do stupid s_it sometimes, chin up you probably don't need to be friends with those people either way!

Huh, I wouldn't personally be upset about that. If your ex wasn't telling the new girl you guys were still having sex, it's his fault. If I was the new girl, I would want to know.

I just wouldn't worry about it personally...

chickenfoot! we meet again haha. how have you been?

Thanks

Yeah... you're probably right.

They were going as "friends" but I knew that he actually liked the girl that he was taking.

Heya! I'm doing good, how are you? Haven't been up to much lately, primarily on my laptop or driving around on my motorbike to keep me busy! Need a job, soooon!

Starting with one class that interested me really helped me succeed. It gave me motivation to complete it. Eventually I finished high school and decided to continue on. Once you complete the first class you should have a lot more confidence and know what it takes to be a student.

This is what gets me through: knowing my limits and working with them, focusing on the present rather than the past and future and not catastrophizing.

What are you taking?

I've never tried it for my problem. Anything with caffeine would make the spasms worse. Is there a tea that soothes the bowels?

im ok, cheers chicken. what jobs are you looking at?

Maybe chamomile. It's an all around soother.

I've been doing quite well lately, been off drugs completely (mdma, ecstasy and cannabis) for about a month or two. Now I'm back looking at a new marketplace, will I? wont I? Will it really make all that difference? I don't have a problem or anything. Hmmm I dunno.

hi just checking in, of late I've been hearing the usual niose i hear when I'm not well. I been taking my meds earlier to avoid it, trying to stay up later but i wake up so early. 3pm just seems like a weird odd time to take my risperidone.

i made a scene at a fast food place today... i was arguing over food and almost cussed them out cuz they werent giving me what i wanted. finally they did. i said "i dont care about the price i just want the FOOD!". then i paid and left and i ran back in their store kinda crazed over and said "WHERES THE FORKS?!" and got them and ran out.

phys. ed. in wintermester.

history and philosophy in spring

i almost ran over someones dog. it was in the middle of the street.

edit// i swerved tho. almost got into an accident...

im going to sign the lease for my new apartment tomorrow.

i bought toby new food/water bowls. they have pictures of cats wearing glasses on them. i sent a pic of them to T. cuz he sends me pics of cat stuff sometimes. and he bought me that cat poster.

i hung out w/ a friend today. she went with me to go get the cat bowls. then we ate at ihop. we are gonna hang out tomorrow and go to thrift stores to see if i find anything for my new apartment.

i am still upset about my moms boyfriend. but less paranoid about him hurting her. she is changing the locks tomorrow morning.

also i have a power steering leak in my car and it has to be fixed on tuesday. its like 400 dollars WTF

i feel paranoid and a lot of anxiety right now.

WHAT THE FACK.

im Fing sick of police and other citizens. man i just want to be left alone mostly. i wanna talk to people on my OWN terms. tired of people.

im SICK OF BEING WATCHD MOTheRFs

im sorry. i just feel so angry right now.

You're fine Newtus. Rant away. I just have no advice but I'm sorry you're having such a bad day.