Roll Call 41

Hi Axiom, i feel similar. Im stuck in a rut and not even sure if i want to change anything.

i prob wont get to paint it but i dont really care. im just so happy to be moving into a nice apartment and getting out of this crappy one

hi all. how are you?

UGGGG IN SOOOOO MUCH PAIN I HATE BEING A GIRL!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I've had bad symptoms lately PMSing brings it on more than usual

how r u Newtus?

same my mom does 2 lol

Hold on, Bean. Period symptoms can be miserable. Can you take tylenol or ibuprofen for the pain? I find that that helps me a lot when I have really bad cramps...

im ok. i had to tell myself again today that i wouldnt get mad at anything today. the less i get mad the less my chest hurts.

my dad really mad at me right now for going over the data limit on my cell phone. we only get 5GB a month and i go over like maybe to 10GB. it charges 10 dollars for each GB it has to add that you go over. our bill is like 400 dollars a month right now. sucks. ugh.

pain meds dont really work 4 me

money is sooooo tight

It's a female. i have no preference. I hope she's ok.

I understand. PMS'ing makes my symptoms worse too.

I'm peachy keen.

Okay but really I am so ticked off at my psychiatrist it's not even funny. What an idiot. They're all a bunch of morons, I swear. And then they wonder why so many of us don't want to take their pills.

When I use to get cramps from periods I use to think I hate every man out there.

Lol, same here.

Hi all. well it looks like im going to london for at least a few months in Feb to coach american football. its exciting and scary, i havnt worked in over a year. im supposed to look at moving there for good while down there, and ive always wanted to so this the ideal way to do it.

Awesome! Congrats

wow thats awesome i hope every thing goes well

cheers. the only reason its a bit sketchy is we'll be establishing a new team and the finances and arrangements can be quite fluid. Also the person im working with doesnt seem completely realistic about the whole endeavour but as long as I have a decent place to stay for a while everything else will work out fine.

the one thing thats helping me today is looking at pics of elephants <3

Have you seen baby elephant gifs on reddit?

Guaranteed to make you smile

Sounds like my T! The other week I actually talked about my family in detail for the first time and he agreed that it was complicated, and he asked why I hadn't talked about them before and I said that was because I could easily spend another 18 sessions (the amount we'd had by then) just talking about my family, and he said "kerching!" and we both laughed

Good luck with the move and new job! My best friend lives in London and LOVES it!

Yesterday was especially crappy, on top of a crap-tastic week. Apparently people who have experiences outside of consensus reality are "freaks" who might "lose it one day and shoot up [my brother's place of work]" - is this what my brother and his gf think of me too??! And I feel guilty because I didn't stand up for this lady they were insulting (because she hallucinates and acts a bit unusual), but I didn't want to cry and show them how much they hurt me.

And then I had to give first aid and wait for an ambulance (for 45 minutes!!!) with a lady in a coffee shop and it triggered memories of my neighbour that I try to keep smothered. And the paramedic was really mean to the lady and was making her worse, so I had to calm her down again - why do people do these jobs if they don't care?!!

And now I have to get ready (I'm still in bed and it's almost 5pm - oops!) and meet a friend to be an unofficial counsellor for his many neuroses (he already has a CPN!) and I'm just exhausted, both physically and mentally. Still only getting 4 hours sleep a night max. Ugh!

Sorry for moaning! :/ In more positive news, Friday is Xmas jumper day to raise money for Save the Children and Max and I have festive jumpers to wear! Max is going to look sooooo cute!

*Willow*

That is so cute, omg!

Love that

My mom was talking about someone who had schizophrenia in a similar manner and then basically said I didn't count because I don't have real schizophrenia so don't be surprised if they have a separate category for you....
That's great that you did that for someone---here we pretty much walk away or might call 911 for them if they don't have a phone----shows what a great person you are-----

That sounds cute you'll have to put a pic of max up for us to see...

Well, today has been really rubbish. The weather is horrible. Rain, hail and lightning. Plus one person disrupted the college class twice before storming out of lesson. I almost walked out myself. One of my friends said she'll quit the course if things don't change. I can't stand the thought of not seeing her in college again. I don't have many friends because people talk about me behind my back. I know they do it. Even my mental health team do it. Of course they'll never admit to it. But I know something fishy is going on and I don't like it! Okay. Rant over.