Roll Call 41

i might be going to the funeral in mississippi on friday for my aunt. so its gonna be a road trip. not a fun one though...

...ugh i really really really dont want to goto this funeral...
...just...i cant handle it...i dont like funerals.

I do that all the time. I distract myself with the internet. Oftentimes, I don't know how bad things are until they've passed. You're not alone.

I'm really sorry about your aunt. It's always hard to lose someone. Do you believe in life after death? Maybe you'll see her again some day. Take things one day at a time.

Hi people!

Question: Has anyone here ever had a loss of appetite when on AP's? I'm on a typical and an atypical and have little to no appetite. This has been the case for the last month I'd say.

I wish it were the case with me chickenfoot but I'm hungry almost all the time.

That's generally what I hear about AP's and that's been my experience as well in the past. I don't seem to be losing weight, well a pound here and there but nothing major. I'm quite overweight at the moment (thanks zyprexa) so it's not bothering me, just curious has anyone else experienced that.

um omg. interesting day at work. worked 7a to 4p. i went to the bathroom at like 9 30am and someone had shat on the floor. ???????????????? i almost barfed. it was really really busy. most of the day was ok. but about 10 min before my shift ended this woman came thru my line with 2 kids. one was a younger girl sitting in the cart. the mom didnt have enough money to get everything in her cart so she was picking out important things. then i hear the older girl say OMG SOPHIE NOOOO and i looked at the little girl and she had torn open a pack of raw pork and had the pork chop in her hand. i was like omg. i got the mom some purell wipes. she had to pay for the messed up pork. so she couldnt get some things in her cart so i put them in a diff cart. then other coworkers were getting ready to take it all back to the shelves but then the woman next in line was like ILL PAY FOR IT. TELL HER ILL PAY FOR IT. so i was like ok. and that happened. thats nice of her to do that. but as i was ringing up the order the little girl who fingered the pork chops was now messing with my receipt machine and destroying it. at one point i said thats sharp dont touch it. but she kept doing it and it jammed my machine. i felt bad for that mom she had a LOT on her plate.

im glad im out of there. my last 9 hour shift done! i am in pain but im glad to be home. T said he was so proud of me. i said thank u im gonna go lay in the fetal position in my bed now. he sent me some emojis but i cant see them cuz i dont have a smart phone. they just show up as squares. i told T that and he sent back "your face shows up as a square". lol. i said thanks T and he sent a smiley face.

UGHHH IM SO GLAD TO BE HOME!!!!!!!!!!

Yes actually, when I was taking Latuda I had zero appetite. It was weird.

it took me almost an hour and a half to get home. ugh its the holidays i guess and so much traffic. plus construction. i think im gonna not go many other places for the rest of the winter if i can try. even grocery store.

well i went to the mall for christmas shopping with my sister. i didnt enjoy it. i guess im too sad right about every thing going on around me. my sister was saying i look like i wasnt enjoying anything.IM NOT. but its like i told her what happened and she doesnt know why im sad? wtf

I hate holiday traffic, I do most of my shopping online.

me too and thats what i do on holidays and in general but i sometimes i need to get away from home. but it was just bad.

Anyone have skype?

I feel like schizotypal I should be more connected to people cuz I barely talk to my dad abroad when I want to.

I'm getting an iPhone 6 on boxing day it'll be so cool.

I just slept for like 2 days and then slept another 24 hours and slept some more. Friday I'll be on Concerta 72mg so I won't be so tired. I think I gained a bit a weight. I'm 78kg and last year I was 69kg. That's a huge difference with this ritalin.

Today was alright. I didn't do much. Still on 40mg of ziprasidone and it hasn't done anything. I'm mainly trying not stress myself out because my symptoms get out of hand when I'm stressed. My sister and her kids are driving over from Utah. Kids really stress me out. They're a little older now so maybe they wont stress me out so much. Holy hell how many times did I type stress

anyone up?

I'm up but I'm not very talkative today. How are you now?

im still sad. so i took somme ambien. and its making me loopy. i feel psychotic on ambien.

Can you try to sleep?

ill see if i can.

I stopped taking the abilify for two days and I go crazy so I take it again wuts up with that lalalala

Morning all,

Been a bit busy or restless past couple of days so not been posting as much. Have a great thanksgiving... you all got plans? I almost wish we celebrated it over here... love some turkey & trimmings! Guess I'll just have to wait for Xmas.

Other than the fact the meds are keeping you stable, withdrawal from them can make psychotic symptoms temporarily worse too. Best to carry on taking them.

Going over to my stepdad's mom's house. We'll have food there and such.

Sounds nice Erti...

I had some weird paranoia yesterday & a couple of other times at the cinema. Three times when I've been in the cinema, staff have come & peeked in just by the walk way bit into the screen. I keep thinking they are coming to look at me.

lol yeah... normally I would hear people from the UK give us crap about thanksgiving. The whole slathering Indians and such.

Sucks that you were feeling paranoid at the cinema.

My mind is only on the nice food you have...

Yeah thanks, it's a little irritating but it didn't detract from the films too much.