Roll Call 41

That's great news junkDNA!

I'm working as always. Tomorrow is a short day but it's cleaning adn organizing day all day long with my boss and co-worker. I'm not really looking forward to that. I hate doing that stuff with other people. My boss is trying to organize my desk so other people can understand it. Hahahaha. That's funny. Oh and it stays organized. She says to me "I want it to work withyour brain." Oh, okay. Good luck with that. I haven't figured that out in 35 years so I'll be amazed if she can in like 1 hour of cleaning.

I've tried color coding, lists, reminders, organizing bins, notebooks, trays, folders, drawers, labels, and so on and on. Yup. Let's organize it so it works for my brain. Sorry, everyone, but the natural order of my brain works on clutter and chaos. Really disappointing for these business types. Cramming stuff in a drawer = cleaned up.

I don't function like other people in that area and I get overwhelmed pretty easy. It give me anxiety thinking about having to clean with other people around. But then we're going to lunch for our staff meeting. Lunch is good but I hate meetings. :P I'm just all positive thnking about the whole thing. /sarcasm.

Anyway, that's where my mind is at today.

sorry u have to work

It's okay. I get Thursday and Friday off! I'm excited. I'm glad you get Thursday off, too.

wow! that must be hard im really sorry hope all goes well tho i really do

OMG im soooooooo sorry!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! my grandma has stage 4 brain cancer sooooo i kinda know how u feel

yes i think to that would be best you know we are all hear for u

today was one of the worst days EVER!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I cried most of the day but my friends were there and some of the bullies last year were there and said sorry that made me feel better and basketball was awesome and im sooooo sore ugggggg im still kinda upset i just wanted to go back to the hospital it was that bad and i didnt want to live anymore and people were like you are an amazing person you cant do that to your self or us im glad i have support but does anyone feel like they dont want live anymore it happens alot with me and i dont know what to do can u guys help me?????????

I feel like that a lot and I also have terror about having a DVT or stroke or heart attack.

sometimes i feel like i dont want to live anymore. i deal with it by talking to people about it. sometimes just saying that to someone and getting support can make a difference. other times i just take care of myself like take a bath or distract by watching a funny show or movie. sometimes changing my environment helps, like if im in my apartment i go out to somewhere else. hang in there

I feel like this most days.

hows everyone doing tonight?

i had bouts of crying this morning and a panic attack and throwing up from stress and anxiety. im just worried bout my dad really right now. i slept for at least 4 hours so i wouldnt have to think about todays events.

Sorry to hear about your loss Newtus.

Hi all hope everyone's okay.
I've been doing okay apart from having a massive argument with my cpn over medication. I think I've decided that I don't want the depot anymore I want to try and make it on my own. Prove them all wrong. Got a lot of essays to do so trying to keep my head above water.

Sorry for your loss newtus. I hope your dads going to be okay

Good day all, hope everyone is coping ok. things have been pretty quiet for me recently so no complaints. looking forward to all those thanksgiving stories haha.

i got some good sleep last night kinda but still tired.
may go christmas shopping today.

also still keeping an eye on my dad to make sure hes ok.

I'm having a day off from essay writing today been doing a lot of work recently

i made the mistake of drinking a 5 hr energy drink yesterday. so im onnly drinking coffee today

Justme what are your current topics?

i noticed that i run away from my problems quite a bit. even my emotions/feelings...i run away from them . you know what i mean guys? not sure how to explain it.
does anyone else do this?

Medieval English and wuthering heights are ones I've just done. I've got 3 more to do before January but I don't have the details of those yet.

Busy busy busy. what did you write about medieval english?

We had to do an article critique so I did king horn and sir orfeo. They're Medieval English poems. I don't enjoy the subject though it's very hard.