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Yeah I can see how that would be scary---I usually think mine is spirits knocking of something benign like that....I thought they were helping me.

im clearly not intelligent.
im dumb.
dumb ***********

um newtus dont say that about ur self

I disagree.

why cant i be good at something in this world. im subpar.

u r an amazing person!!!!!!!

What are you talking about?

im saying im not good at anything in this world. i dont have any talent or intelligence.

thanks everyone I am really excited about it but also a little nervous!

yes you are youre a good and awesome person and you can accomplish what ever you want in this world

thank you lillybird
i just dont feel like am

I've seen your art/photography you have talent there for sure and you seem perfectly intelligent to me based on our conversations....

You know newtus I'm reminded of the wizard of oz when the wizard tells the lion and the tin man and the scarecrow that they really had what they wanted all along, courage, a heart and a brain but they just needed the outside acknowledgement....

well ill rarely have outside acknowlegdment in my life. i spend most of my times in my room and have no friends...couple of acquaintances. i just have online friends.

Maybe that will change now that you're in school---you already got 100% on your first assignment

i dont understand? im doing school online.
i honestly...i cant stand people...i really cant.
id rather be at home than spending time with someone.
its bad enough my sister tries to get me to go places around people and with people and i dont want to. i mean i really despise people. but being picked on and threatened in high school helped mold the foundation for that.

I'm know I'm a bit late to the party, but that's FANTASTIC news Lillybird! Well done!

I probably wouldn't mess with something that works right before a big change, but I find that med changes make me quite unwell (physically) and I wouldn't want to cope with feeling ill on top of stress and change. Good luck with your interview!

Insomnia sucks! It's bad enough I'm only getting 2-3 hours a night - no sleep must be MUCH worse!

I can relate.

Normally I buy most of my Xmas presents in the January or Summer sales. I like to be organised and buy thoughtful gifts. Last year I had them all wrapped before I was sectioned in November. This year, Xmas is in less than a week and I still haven't bought everything! Trying to choose something that I think somebody might like is EXHAUSTING! I find it hard to decide what to wear and I don't even care about looking presentable unless I'm doing my voluntary work or going to T. So there's all this pressure to make decisions, which grows greater as each day passes and the deadline draws nearer. I was in Accessorise earlier and I forced myself to pick a necklace for my Mum because I need to give her something for Xmas, but I don't like buying stuff for the sake of buying stuff. If I give a gift, I want it to be special, not the best of a bad lot. But I can't even figure out what I want and make tiny decisions, let alone imagine what somebody else might want. Anyway, that's my bah humbug rant! I keep telling myself that the nightmare will be over in under 2 weeks, but that feels too long.

Also I'm really upset that Max's Xmas jumper didn't fit (the sizing was weird) and I couldn't get a larger size. And I eventually found one online that I liked and should fit, but when it arrived yesterday, it was too small. I don't know if I measured him wrong (sometimes I can't use rulers/measuring tape properly, or I write the wrong numbers down) or if they sent the wrong size (it has no tags), but whatever the reason, he won't have a jumper now for Xmas as I can't get his size anywhere. And I don't know why I'm so upset - I know he won't know/care! - because it's just a stupid jumper, but now I don't have anything to give him

*Willow*

Grades are external acknowledgement from a person even if you never see them just like you never see us....

thank you

oh i see what your saying. i thought you meant making friends

Do you think a tailor could handle it---maybe they could just add in some extensions or elastic or something I really don't know what they do exactly but maybe you could get it altered?

Well if you make friends that would be great but I just meant that you were intelligent and talented and maybe you would see that in your classes----do the classes have message boards or anything like that?

yea but we can only post our discussion assignments on the message board

Oh I see....so can you get your entire degree online or do you have to go in person for some classes?

you can only get your entire associates degree online here