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I worked in a bookstore for over two years. I don't really read that much so got overwhelmed at the start as I didn't know too much about different books to recommend. Though the longer I was there the more I got the swing of it. Just take your time to get familiar with where things are and what's popular so you can give good advice and be quick to find things for people.

Always smile and be courteous even if someone is being rude, keeping your cool usually pisses them off even more and it's very satisfying as they can't complain about you for smiling and trying your best.

You will feel overwhelmed at the start but every day will get easier as you adapt and get to know your colleagues. You'll be a part of a team in no time!

Thanks I think it will be ok I am just probably over stressing things as I always do lol

i agree w/ this post

i hope it goes well for u Lilybird. i am rooting for u!

everyday i keep thinking someones looking through my window. i hear bumps and screams. ive had my curtains taped shut to my window sill so people can through the side of the blinds but theres one side open near my bed. im scared people are lookig through there wanting to kill me.like the police have a better way to spy on me now

It's good to see you, Kureha. Glad to know you're ok.

someone kill me

Newtus what is going on you don't sound good...

its like i cant see my life anymore
its like i need to protect myself from harm
im scared. all these law enforcement things happening
they are coming for me?

oh ffff im alone right now
im on a fffffffng mission and why does no one knows it.

Is your dad at home? Do you think maybe it's the stress of the holidays? Normally this is where I'd advise you to give the haldol another chance....

What do you mean you can't see your life anymore....you're going back to school, you were volunteering I think you've been doing pretty good.

no ugh no hes not home.
school is extremely stressful.
i quit volunteering. too stressful.
holiday is stressful yea.
its like my life is fading in my mind. vernon is where they house the criminally mentally ill. terrell is where ill be. or greenoaks again.
my life is fading in my mind like i cant see it. im not sad. i cant see my life tho.
my room is filled with mental illness and my writings and ramblings.
i feel like im in a new world

What is going on with school...is it this calorie restriction thing? Luckily the holidays are over, it will get better from here.....

school right now. its like 16 weeks work packed in 4. weirdly theres not much more work than i thought but its like any work is too much. i cant be this lazy can i? ive never seen myself as lazy.

I think physical Ed may be too emotionally charged for you....I don't think its laziness.....

idk what to think.
im trying my best. i got 3-4 more assignments to go and im done. im almost done with 2 of em already. everyone and i mean everyone in my family thinks i cant do school. especially without meds and im trying to prove them wrong.

i started taking PRN invegas today. they are 3mg. T wants me to start taking them bc its the week before i get my next shot. nothing weird is happening i mean there are random things but i am able to dismiss them and not dwell and get obsessed and connect patterns etc. i feel pretty good. i am hopeful that this will work out and i wont relapse this time!

What is the most challenging thing for you, it sounds like you're doing fine to me....

doing the work is challenging. i think i overestimated how much my mind can handle at once

also i learned the person who died on my FB committed suicide.

It may be harder because it's compressed you might be able to handle a normal class better if you stick to one at a time. What kind of assignment do you have coming up aside from the physical exercising.....maybe we can help you in some way?

its just tedious.

right now like i said im filling out what i eat for 3 days right now.
i mean theres more too it. but i mean thats it. and i have to fill out a stress and nutrition assignment. then i have to write a paper on obesity. thas all i can remember i have to do right now

I'm soooo tired. I slept a lot too. I think I need to drink water...

My poor son is still out in this weather. Idk when he'll be home.

maybe you guys can help me with my philosophy or history next semester? in january? but i am pretty good at history.

I'd be pretty useless to you but if you have any IT / computer science related questions I'm your gal!

Maybe someone else can but I think history is pretty hard....I'm more science and things that have a concrete answer. philosophy might be fun I never took that one but it sounds interesting....are you taking one or both?