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Don't harm me xd

What sort of side effects do you get from it blue bird? Thanks for replying

I actually don't have any side effects from it lol which is strange because most medications usually have side effects but everyone is different

That's good to hear, I hope I don't get any either. The last depot I was on I got horrible side effects from it

im not going to do anything to you? i was jw because bean is i think 14 and i just wondered how old you were.

I don't hit on younger age girls on the internet on a mental health forum!!

OMG

I'm completely losing it now.

I'm never accepting a friend request again.

I don't think Newtus was suggesting that you do tweaky

Edit sorry I meant newtus

Like told bean that she was sick and twisted for saying to newtus that I was hitting on her because she did that to make people turn against me for their ow personal entertainment!

You all set this up to make make me KNOW that no one beleives me and that I'm crazy!!!!

DO NOT TELL PEOPLE THINGS WITHOUT PROOF I CAN SCREENSHOT THE DAMN CONVERSATION ALL I DID WAS HAVE A NORMAL CONVERSTION

I WILL PROVE MYSELF TO MY DEATH YOU WILL NOT PLAY WITH ME

Taken my meds. Feels like I've made a horrible mistake.

I'm so confused right now

Oh.. I thought you said someone else and that they WERE. Thats what I read.

Everything is screwed I have no proof that you're all not against me I need reassurance but I'm not going to get it. I'm going to be called a wack job

My clock has been mostly distracting me but hasn't completely eliminated my worries. I'm seriously thinking of putting university on hold so I can work. I'm in a unpleasant living situation and thousands of dollars in debt. I feel amassing more debt for my degree isn't going to guarantee me a job. It is too much risk. Sometimes I wonder why OSAP has approved me, because I have no employment history.

I've always been intimidated by work because I don't understand neurotypicals and their mysterious ways of communication. I'm usually the target of abuse and I don't have desirable personality traits that an employer wants so I'm limited in what kinds of work I can find. I know I don't want to work with lots of people or in customer service. An employment program for people with disabilities was suggested.

Often I find myself thinking what is the point. I'm slowly dying anyways. Why try? Maybe I should have posted this in the depression forum.

I also got a new outreach worker. She's nice but I don't trust her yet. I'm a bit upset at her because she did something I specifically asked her not to do. We need to discuss this.

I'm just scared. Thanks for reading. It feels like nobody really pays much attention to me so I appreciate it.

I think a job is a huge step....wishing you luck!

i have been on the invega shot for almost a year. i get 234mg injections. the only side effect was it raised my prolactin level and i stopped getting my period. but i take metformin now and it reverses that effect so now i get my periods again. my shot tends to wear out fast and i experience symptoms near the time i am due to get my next one. i so take invega prn pills and talk to my T a lot

hey i really don't think anyone was thinking you hit on bean. i understand that u took it that way though. i know it would be anxiety provoking for someone to think u were hitting on someone so young. but i really don't think anyone here thought that. sorry u feel confused and such. i don't think ur a whack job

OK - whatever is going on - i dont understand.

honestly? i only asked your age because of how you type on the forum and talk. you seem young. you talk like your a kid. and i was just wondering if i was right or not. you didnt have to give me your age at all.

Thanks for replying junk. I don't get periods anyway so that wouldn't be a problem for me. Hopefully the side effects won't be too bad

Sorry everyone. It must have been quick judgements.

Sorry newtus.

I hope everyone doesn't hate me but of so then I'll just leave

i dont hate u i just think it was a misunderstanding. thats all

Hi everyone!

Had my initial assessment with psychology today. Had to fill out loads of forms/tests, they said my answers where that of a person with depression. Probably somewhat accurate but I've been doing ok the past few weeks. The tests where all based on how I've been doing over the last 2 to 4 weeks. I ticked 'no' when asked about hearing voices and having thoughts of being followed or monitored because it hasn't been affecting me over the past month or more due to the meds (I assume) AND because I was embarrassed and didn't want to talk about it with new people. Maybe I should have brought it up?

They went over the basis of DBT with me and went into things like identity problems, not knowing 'who I am' and all that. I couldn't relate at all, I don't have problems with identity, I know very much who I am and what I want out of life and have done since I was about 16. Then they went on about relationship problems, again something I don't think is a big deal for me, I get on quite well with my parents and fiance. Other stuff came up too that I really couldn't relate to at all.

I'm not really sure if DBT is for me. Yeah I have a history of self harm but that's only a small portion of the course and I feel like that's all behind me. Not sure what to do. :/

Hope you're all well.

It sounds like they were checking for bpd chicken.

Just fyi, dbt includes cbt its just an expanded version so you may learn cbt skills that will help with the psychosis.

Yeah that crossed my mind, probably because I used to self harm. That's the only box I seem to check though in the list of bpd symptoms. God I hope they don't brand me with this.

Thanks sometimes, that's good to know. It's a big commitment to make as the course is a year long and now that I'm doing better I kind of just want to find a job, move back out on my own and forget about this past year while working towards getting my degree. It's going to be hard to find a full time job that'll allow me to take time off mid week for group and individual settings.