Roll Call 44

Yes I'm in therapy, I have it once every 3 months for 20-30 minutes because I've been doing so well.

I also go to a therapy group 2 times every week for 3 hours each day

Is it directed toward the sadness or something else....cbt/ dbt seem to help with sadness at least for me. I especially like picking several fun activities to cover multiple senses at once....so you know listen to your favorite music while painting and eating a tasty snack or whatever appeals to you for each sense but the combo is what makes it special.....

It's not really a specific group. We just meet, talk about what's going on in our lives and then do arts and crafts or something

I'm mainly not motivated and can't stop sleeping , I'm exhausted all the time. I sleep all day and most of the night too

I may just try to push through this by myself actually. I think if I can get myself back on a normal schedule and start exercising and getting out of the house more it may help. I'm just glad and thankful I have people to talk to on PC

When I was depressed and I asked my t how to become better she just asked what that looked like to me. among other things I said I wanted to paint more and go out more on the weekend with friends etc. Well you can probably see the answer here, you do the things you would do when well and you start to get well

well i updated my blog quite a bit. it was time to.

Nice blog Newtus

Panic attacks again tonight for the 14th day in a row. I'm wearing really thin. Starting to have suicidal ideation. I'm tired, beat, and wish I had a gun.

I know how you feel, I've been suffering with panic attacks non stop. I don't know how long I can keep dealing with this. Now I'm slipping into a depression and have been crying all day. You're not alone.

cool blog. who is ur profile pic on ur twitter?

I'm glad for one that you don't have a gun.....the way you think is so different than anyone I've ever known with the philosophy ....I have to admit I'm hoping you'll stay a regular around here....

i think im gonna get murdered tonight

You'll be ok you just need to get your shot tomorrow that will help a lot....

t said to try to relax and distract myself

so i am eatingan apple

thnks i need to keep telling myself that not get cauhgt up in my thoughts so much

Your t is really smart

yes he is a good person

actually just some girl that i think her gauges her cool

i mean i show my face on youtube but i dont want to show my real face like on every social media place

is it a good idea to have a blog thats about schizophrenia? i mean its so niche. and i would kinda like to write about other things in my life even though there arent many other things in my life to write about.

hm maybe i just answered my own question.

I just write agitated posts and stuff and theories on mental illness just about my life stuff..

Right now I'm sitting outside with a ciggy in zero degrees. I see the stars and the moon it's nice.

I want to write more rhymes and song but I'm only good at it when I'm high. So I try but it takes a lot longer. I made a chorus that has to do with stopping meds because of feeling better. I wanna make something.

I think a lot of people are fascinated by sz....I think it stands by itself.

lol thanks.
i mean i write about my anxiety and how things go with my therapist and pdoc too and a bit of diff stuff but it all ties in with my experience with sz. theres actually maybe only 1 post i did that doesnt have to do with sz but has a bit to do with mental illness anyway

thanks for the input. i appreciate that.

Sleepy, pop more, smoke more, drink a 1/5th, skinny, **** more, things to, deal with. don't bother me, im fine, if you get the gift, drink more wine, and write another line riff.

Lol I'm going for a mental disaster I think. My psychiatrist didn't check my weight this time and knows the concerta eats me away but he'll wait another 3 months to weigh for "a dramatic change" and accuse me of an eating disorder again when all I need is people to remind me to eat. And yes it's not that simple though I need reassurance because I have no insight to how I eat. According to me, I'm eating ok. But that's the curse of the drug..