Roll Call 53

School has always sucked for me, I understand.

That happens to me so often. It's just ugh. I totally understand feeling "out of it", that's how I am pretty often. Pfft.

Oh, I agree! For some reason my body/mind don't want to sleep at night. I only get restful blocks of sleep if I go to bed really late, close to 5 am which is inconvenient because that's around when I want to be waking. All my life I've been fighting these sleep problems.

I can relate, so much, to this. My mind just doesn't want to rest. I have so many thoughts, they keep me up. My mind doesn't "race" like with bipolar, but it's like I have too many thoughts at once and I cannot organize them or filter them well so I end up writing half the night and it comes out incoherent. I often am awake until dawn when things get worse for me. And I hate sleeping during the day. Gah! I've been a chronic insomniac since I was a child, I don't remember ever not being this way.

I guess I'll pick something up at the gas station for dinner, we are running out of food. Got to go grocery shopping next week. 5th day on Weight Watchers, I do go over my points sometimes but I'm using it more as a guideline than a super strict diet, the point is I'm eating a million times healthier than I was.

It's so frustrating. My mind doesn't race or have a lot of interesting thoughts when I'm trying to sleep but it just won't relax. I have lots of anxiety when I lie down. It's gotten so much worse since this last winter. I used to be able to let my mind just wander and drift but that doesn't happen anymore, just panic.

Ugh, I am thankful I'm not an anxious person by nature. That sounds brutal. I'm sorry.

This is me. I get my best sleep in the morning but I hate sleeping then. OF course that means very little sleep and then I'm all ****ed up.

That's when my anxiety really hits too. It sucks

Ugh exactly, that's how I am too. I sleep amazingly well during the morning but I hate sleeping the morning away.

Watching my boyfriend play "The Evil Within". Christ, if you didn't like mental hospitals before, don't play this game! haha. Crazy stuff altogether! Anyone here play it? Really freaky.

Newtus: You're a gamer, have you picked it up yet? It's a scary one but it's a class game.

I got my package with the Pokemon stuff I ordered. I feel like a little kid lol look at this plush it's too cute

OMG I love it!

LOL, I love that! HA HA HA.

Today has been okay. Not good, but at the same time not bad. It's just a day of drifting in existence.

A lot of my days are like that... Just drifting...

That's so cute!

no i havent. i dont know whether to give it a chance or not. ive been debating to give it a chance since it came out. i dont know whats the story line and is it mutiplayer or no?

i want a burrito but then i dont want to go out in the thunderstorm.

hard choices.

Omg..

I looked at my previous posts before the hospital and wow.. I was making absolutely no sense, was delusional and didn't know how many klonopins I was taking. I don't remember writing. I said 6mg 8mg 16mg idk then 46mg unless I put some in a bottle and hid it.. I remember walking in the hallways at school and I was completely screwed up. I don't remember leaving.

I know the feeling, I look back at my old posts when I'm doing better and I'm like... "Whoa holy **** I LOST IT..."

**** now I want a burrito lol newtus you always make me hungry!

No multiplayer. Not too much information as to what's going on just yet. You get called to some disturbance at a mental hospital, loads of dead bodies, then this guy appears doing all supernatural stuff, killing people etc. You black out and you end up in this alternate dimension, still in the hospital but it's all messed up. Kind of like Silent Hill or Resident Evil. It's pretty intense, lots of scary monsters but the way you kill them is quite creative, you have to use the environment as opposed to just a shoot 'em up.

If you're into a bit of a scare then I'd pick it up. Watching it is too intense for me so I doubt I'd be able to play it without crying in the corner!

scary video games might gives me hallucinations forreal. i gotta think twice about this video games only because im limited on funds. but then again i really wanted that slenderman game. but then again its only 10 dollars. compared to say 40 or 60? im not too into horror video games. i just happen to be into the whole slenderman thing btw.

i like real life video games like forza and gta. stuff like you can do in real life and have real life people.

omg you guys i was driving yesterday and i saw this tricked out car driving erratically in the rain in the middle of traffic and i immediately thought of grand theft auto. it was bad.