Roll Call 53

Apr 22, 2015, 01:08 PM

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Originally Posted by ofthevalley

I am prescribed 5 mg of Ambien and it does nothing. I took 10 tonight but now I'm worried about psychosis. Hopefully I'll just get tired and finally get some good sleep...I'm exhausted.

Jaysus call in the Wallruss....it's going to be a bit of a trip buddie! You ready for
it!!!!

Apr 22, 2015, 01:10 PM

ofthevalley, please try remember as much as you can, even writings, photos of your trip. rite **** down. OPEN YOUR MIND

falcon09 · Apr 22, 2015, 01:25 PM

Delusions trying to take me over

Apr 22, 2015, 01:25 PM

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Originally Posted by newtus

i got my ambien changed back! it took almost an hour long talk and my peer support specialist and therapist all talked on my side

Not many people know this yet but it's one of the very few drugs that is suppose to be halved for girls. So you might actually double the doubled dose you wanted.

Everyone is different though and I wish that psychiatrists took a test on narcissism and ego in general to warn patients first...

I'm glad you got the increase though! You seemed to be very upset. I would too with my stimulant. We're dependent not because of withdrawal, but we actually need it so who cares..

We know what we need.. Especially long term psychiatric patients like us here.. So saying something that worked, they shouldn't be messing around with medication every couple of months. It's a waste of time.

I also wish death to the idiot doctors that get a biased view on benzos by taking it away so fast.. Stupid people..

falcon09 · Apr 22, 2015, 01:35 PM

Im jealous of you tweaky.

Your psychiatric hospital sounds really nice.

Mine is **** compared to that.

But I guess all psych hospitals are **** in some sort of way.

Apr 22, 2015, 01:39 PM

So I spent another 600 dollars on internet. My mom is going to cancel it.

Tbh Idk how to pay my dad back unless I get a good part time job because I need school. I didn't expect Canada to care about my illness so I'll use that and still have money left over which is cool.. I guess.

Pdoc doubled the Cogentin because of tremors. I don't mind my tremors but everyone else is concerned so..

Apr 22, 2015, 01:43 PM

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Originally Posted by falcon09

Im jealous of you tweaky.

Your psychiatric hospital sounds really nice.

Mine is **** compared to that.

But I guess all psych hospitals are **** in some sort of way.

I guess that's why they say this is one, if not, the best psychiatric hospital in the world.

Others just go down to Indian concrete floors no toilet just spray washed in the cage and barely fed until they die of starvation...

falcon09 · Apr 22, 2015, 01:47 PM

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Originally Posted by Hyperagitate

So I spent another 600 dollars on internet. My mom is going to cancel it.

Tbh Idk how to pay my dad back unless I get a good part time job because I need school. I didn't expect Canada to care about my illness so I'll use that and still have money left over which is cool.. I guess.

Pdoc doubled the Cogentin because of tremors. I don't mind my tremors but everyone else is concerned so..

If your mom is going to cancel your internet does that mean you'll not be able to post on here any more?

Blue_Bird · Apr 22, 2015, 02:25 PM

newtus, check this out. Just saw it on my FaceBook lol

https://fbcdn-sphotos-d-a.akamaihd.n...9f371a031406ae

Angelique67 · Apr 22, 2015, 02:35 PM

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Originally Posted by Sometimes psychotic

I'm sorry you feel so bad.....

Thank you, sometimesp!

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Originally Posted by junkDNA

im sorry ur feeling bad

i used to be dependent on benzos and i withdrew from them one time. it sucked. i cant imagine someone taking it away just like that and leaving you to suffer the withdrawal. they can be deadly. is there a way u could find a different dr and get back on it?

Probably (I don't know) but as long as the possibility exists of being forced off it again I'd be too afraid to. I almost died. Thank you so much for your kindness, junk.

Angelique67 · Apr 22, 2015, 02:36 PM

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Originally Posted by chickenfoot

Angelique, stay with us, stay in the moment, just breath, be here, live, do all that you can do. You're an amazing lady and unfortunately you have to deal with a holes like that nurse.

You have 4 options to solve this problem:
Solve the Problem
Change the situation or avoid, leave and get out of that situation for good

Feel better about the problem
Change or regulate your emotional response to the problem

Tolerate the problem
Accept and tolerate both the problem and your response to the problem.

Final One
Stay Miserable
Or possibly make it worse

Thank you, chickenfoot! I guess those are all the options. It helps me think. Thank you.

Angelique67 · Apr 22, 2015, 02:37 PM

My sleep is completely out of whack and I'm not doing well biologically. My body is totally messed up. I hate when this happens.

Door2015 · Apr 22, 2015, 02:50 PM

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Originally Posted by Angelique67

My sleep is completely out of whack and I'm not doing well biologically. My body is totally messed up. I hate when this happens.

I'm sorry everything is out of order right now, I am praying for you. Things are whacky for me too.

Angelique67 · Apr 22, 2015, 03:01 PM

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Originally Posted by Door2015

I'm sorry everything is out of order right now, I am praying for you. Things are whacky for me too.

Thank you! Hope things get better for you too!

StarStrike · Apr 22, 2015, 03:09 PM

I've made an appointment to see the doctor. I've been putting it off and putting it off. But my ingrown toe nail needs treating. It's got infected and things have been going downhill most recently. My sock keeps getting stuck to it so you can imagine how horrible it is taking my sock off. I've had better days and today wasn't one of them.

Angelique67 · Apr 22, 2015, 03:11 PM

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Originally Posted by StarStrike

I've made an appointment to see the doctor. I've been putting it off and putting it off. But my ingrown toe nail needs treating. It's got infected and things have been going downhill most recently. My sock keeps getting stuck to it so you can imagine how horrible it is taking my sock off. I've had better days and today wasn't one of them.

That sounds painful. I hope you'll get it seen to soon.

Blue_Bird · Apr 22, 2015, 03:39 PM

Got my Weight Watchers PointsPlus calculator today, plus the tumbler I ordered. The tumbler itself holds half the daily recommended liquids, so I can just refill it and it has measurements on the milliliters. Hopefully the starter kit that comes with the membership arrives here soon, it comes with portion control plates, a bento box, and I think a recipe book for low calorie meals.

Sorry, I know that's probably not interesting, I'm just excited about losing weight. It's my 3rd day eating healthier.

falcon09 · Apr 22, 2015, 03:43 PM

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Originally Posted by Hyperagitate

I'm going to go to the computers to post here keep everyone updated in this weird psychiatric hospital.

Schizophrenia and psychosis forum community keeps me sane.

methylphenidate and the recreational coca plant powder do too. They give motivation. Now I'm on amphetamine which doesn't give me motivation like that. It just feels like a cup of coffee with not as much focus. Psychiatrist said to give it a week before increasing.

Looks like I'll have to try methamphetamine hydrochloride. (Generic Desoxyn).

- Tweaky

I asked the med nurse that I needed a Xanax for "my back pain". She laughed.

This place keeps me sane too.

Otherwise I'd feel so alone.

ofthevalley · Apr 22, 2015, 03:48 PM

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Originally Posted by chickenfoot

Jaysus call in the Wallruss....it's going to be a bit of a trip buddie! You ready for

it!!!!

It did nothing interesting , barely even made me tired. For whatever reason nothing seems to be working for sleep. It's rather annoying. I'm tired of being tired. I did get in a nap today so that helped a little.

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Atypical_Disaster · Apr 22, 2015, 03:48 PM

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Originally Posted by chickenfoot

You have 4 options to solve this problem:
Solve the Problem
Change the situation or avoid, leave and get out of that situation for good

Feel better about the problem
Change or regulate your emotional response to the problem

Tolerate the problem
Accept and tolerate both the problem and your response to the problem.

Final One
Stay Miserable
Or possibly make it worse

I ****ing love this!

ofthevalley · Apr 22, 2015, 04:04 PM

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Originally Posted by chickenfoot

ofthevalley, please try remember as much as you can, even writings, photos of your trip. rite **** down. OPEN YOUR MIND

There was nothing to write down. No trip. I'm kind of disappointed.

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junkDNA · Apr 22, 2015, 04:30 PM

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Originally Posted by Blue_Bird

Got my Weight Watchers PointsPlus calculator today, plus the tumbler I ordered. The tumbler itself holds half the daily recommended liquids, so I can just refill it and it has measurements on the milliliters. Hopefully the starter kit that comes with the membership arrives here soon, it comes with portion control plates, a bento box, and I think a recipe book for low calorie meals.

Sorry, I know that's probably not interesting, I'm just excited about losing weight. It's my 3rd day eating healthier.

that's awesome! do you feel better about yourself for eating healthier??

junkDNA · Apr 22, 2015, 04:32 PM

hmmm so i started crashing at like 4pm since i woke up at 4:30am. there was a *****y customer at work. it didnt affect me. people are so rude sometimes!!! anyway, i got to go home 30min early so i came home and took a hot shower. i feel a little better. i can't go to sleep early tonight. im not going to stay up late but i cant wake up at 4am again. i work tomorrow and friday but then i have 3 days off. im off saturday and thats the 1st day of Ts group . i will see T right after the group for an hour. i was a little anxious at work, checking myself twice and stuff. i fear getting in trouble again. i started feeling too comfortable there, now im watching myself again. i think a certain level of that is healthy. but i cant let it make me paranoid. i think im going back up to 75mg seroquel instead of 62.5mg. i went down to 62.5mg monday night then i had that episode yesterday. i took 75mg last night and things are good today.

ofthevalley · Apr 22, 2015, 04:37 PM

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Originally Posted by junkDNA

hmmm so i started crashing at like 4pm since i woke up at 4:30am. there was a *****y customer at work. it didnt affect me. people are so rude sometimes!!! anyway, i got to go home 30min early so i came home and took a hot shower. i feel a little better. i can't go to sleep early tonight. im not going to stay up late but i cant wake up at 4am again. i work tomorrow and friday but then i have 3 days off. im off saturday and thats the 1st day of Ts group . i will see T right after the group for an hour. i was a little anxious at work, checking myself twice and stuff. i fear getting in trouble again. i started feeling too comfortable there, now im watching myself again. i think a certain level of that is healthy. but i cant let it make me paranoid. i think im going back up to 75mg seroquel instead of 62.5mg. i went down to 62.5mg monday night then i had that episode yesterday. i took 75mg last night and things are good today.

Happy to hear you are feeling better. Woohoo for 3 days off!

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