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That reminds me of college when in certain dorms people would pull the fire alarms at night so as to see people run out barely clothed....luckily I didn't live in one of those dorms....

lol thanks so much for letting me know

I wouldn't be surprised if there were surveillance cams to stop that kind of prank now....

Dropped 350 dollar head phones in the toilet. Cleansed it with alcohol. It works thank god cuz I would go nuts without music. My dad paid the other 600 as well for data.

I feel guilty and there's no way I'm not paying him back. 1200 dollars.. I just always had the need to make everyone happy and pay them back. More so than the dealers that wanted me to have a 600 dollar watch and started crying about it..

Any good songs?

is it those p diddy ones? Beats?

Despite your absence it was still able to trot on. There was about ten of us and we discussed figuring out or triggers, first warning signs, reaching out, how important it is to having a therapist and a psychiatrist, suicide hotline or text line, and finally hospitalization. We also discussed other topics. You're always invited, Door!

ok so hey guys. i was super nervous about Ts group. when i got 5 minutes away from his office i was like IM GOING HOME!!! but i went and stuck it out. i even talked a LITTLE. it was 6 of us, plus T. all women (except T ). we didnt have to do any icebreaker bs we just said our names and greeted each other. i sat in the far corner go figure...T said he definitely noticed that lol. i did the least talking out of the whole group but i did say some things. T mentioned that someone in the group has been working with him for a while and has been in a group with him before. i didnt say anything. then about an hour later he made a joke about the previous group and i said something that outed me as the person that has been in a group with him before. so now they all know ive known T for 5 years i told the group it takes me a long time to trust people, new ppl feel like a threat and that i tend to come across as i dont like people or that im a ***** but thats not my intention and not what im thinking. i was glad i decided to say that about myself because after i said that one woman spoke up and said thank u for sharing that because i already thought you didnt like me. i hate that i come across that way and i would like to change it. i think its because im so guarded. so im really glad i got that out there, i didnt want any of them to think i didnt like them or the group or whatever. it was fairly comfortable, everyone was nice. im still nervous about it, it will take me a while to open up. he asked me if he could describe how i was in his old group and i said ok and he said i couldnt last a whole group and i would leave like 15 min after it started. he said i didnt talk much but i eventually opened up and also took leadership roles at the program i was in. T said that he hopes i share my story because its pretty amazing. i hope i can share my story too but it has to be the right time. i think for now i will be more of a listener in the group and offer feedback when i feel necessary.

whew! it was scary but i did it. i think it will be a good group. its going to be a closed group which means no new people for at least 12 weeks. so it gives us time to trust and feel safe.

after group i had a session with T. i asked him if he was nervous about it too and he said yes...hehe. he asked how he did. i said u did good.

after T session i went to my friends house and we watched a lifetime movie. it was pretty ridiculous but its fun to lay there and make fun of it with her.

i woke up really early and went to bed late so i am pretty tired right now. but overall i feel good about things

thanks for reading if u made it all the way to the end!!!

I have an interview on Tuesday at the Cheesecake Factory. So apparently, going when the restaurant was super busy and standing around awkwardly works!

I have an interview on Tuesday at the Cheesecake Factory. So apparently, going when the restaurant was super busy and standing around awkwardly works!

i looooove cheesecake factory. when T went with me to charlotte for the lawsuit mediation against my former T he said we could go eat there. but the mediation took all day and we had to get back cuz charlotte is 1.5 hours away. so he still owes me a trip there lol

Good luck....I like this lettuce wraps plate that's huge and the warm caramel apple cider.....it's probably best I don't work there because I would be so tempted all the time....

pumpkin cheesecake is the best

I'll have another walk in the snow with ear buds and a cig to keep me sane.

pumpkin cheesecake is the best