Roll Call 62

Slept all day

hows everyone tonight? what are yall up to?

Still cooking, french bread pizza with ricotta roasted cherry tomatoes and Parmesan with a pesto drizzle. Should be tasty.

There's a momma cat and four kitties that come around every night and we feed them, they're getting big. I feel so bad for them, there's no no kill shelters around here or any organizations to come get them. I wish I could afford to get them all fixed and keep them, but that would be hard as I already have 2 cats

my ffriend has asthma and when she quit smoking it got worse for a while. she had to use her inhaler a lot and had a bad cough

did you go on your hike?

it breaks my heart to see animals without loving homes... there are a few cats around here that are just running around loose.

i felt anxious to go to work .. i havent been there in 4 days.. but it went ok. once i got there and started doing my job i didnt feel anxious anymore.

Nope.....I ended up fighting having dinner out and making up instead....that was yesterday....it resolved a lot of stuff though so it was good.

sounds like a rollercoaster

Yeah well it was kind of high drama on my part, but I was upset...we hadn't seen each other for 2.5 weeks because he couldn't make the time. He was also texting way less...it just wasn't enough for me....I just started shutting down my emotions. So then we were supposed to do something special because we hadn't seen each other in so long but all he wanted to do was watch football. I was kind of ticked off....he thought everything was fine. It wasn't. I think things are ok now though.

that sounds hard.. im sorry. im glad things are ok now.

you love to cook huh sp?

man i loathe it

I like cooking new things to explore new tastes etc, stuff I can't easily get at a restaurant....plus it's practical I have to eat and it's easier to make things healthy when I eat at home....

i like cooking , i used to cook all the time with my mom. i think its fun

i hate cooking. but its ok. i like tasting new drinks. not new foods though.

im getting paranoid and been thinking about conspiracy theories all day

well not all day just right now but its close to bedtime. i took my meds.

I'm going to give myself self discipline through increasing severity of self punishment.

If it gets bad. I don't care. I will study.

i used to do that by cutting myself

im too paranoid of people to ever know love or loving someone intimately

Sorry to hear. No one really understands cutting. Same with my psychologist.

The moon is red

Right now? I was watching the NASA live feed but the awful music made me turn it off. I went outside to see it but there was nothing in the sky here.

Irish friends on Facebook saw it 4 hours ago. Right now in Canada it's pretty cool. Gives me memories of when I saw it years ago on our first day in the Canary Islands.