[Crazygrl882]

Anyone ever feel like this? I have a lot of paranoia and paranoia of thought broadcasting. But this is different. I feel like my ex husband and now my psychiatrist are inside my body and can feel everything happening inside my body and everything I see and think. (If I work out they feel the workout, etc.) it's making me crazy. My ex husband has been inside me a while. This is a new dr so just like a month inside me. I have conversations with a girl in my head too. Oh I'm schizoaffective obviously haven't found the right meds yet. Other people come and go in me as well....

[BipolarBear32]

Originally Posted by Crazygrl882

Anyone ever feel like this? I have a lot of paranoia and paranoia of thought broadcasting. But this is different. I feel like my ex husband and now my psychiatrist are inside my body and can feel everything happening inside my body and everything I see and think. (If I work out they feel the workout, etc.) it's making me crazy. My ex husband has been inside me a while. This is a new dr so just like a month inside me. I have conversations with a girl in my head too. Oh I'm schizoaffective obviously haven't found the right meds yet. Other people come and go in me as well....

Yes, I think I know what you are talking about. I have felt what I thought were demons inside of me and they could actually move me and talk through me and tell me to do stuff, which I would never do. I was fully convinced they were there and that I could hear them talking to me. Is this what you mean? I am on meds now and the voices have stopped talking to me. I hope they are gone for good! What medicine are you on now?

[neodoering]

Hmmm.
I am schizoaffective, and there are voices in my mind. One of those has a personality; the rest are just neutral, disembodied voices. Like yours, mine give me commands; they tell me to kill myself, or to do harm to others. So far I have fought them down, most times. My meds have stabilized my voices but have not eliminated them. It's not like having several people inside me, just some voices and one other person.

Crazygrl, when I am around other people I am convinced they are inserting thoughts into my head, and I know they can hear what I'm thinking, which they report to my imaginary girlfriend and the police. Deep paranoia. Frightening, isn't it?

BiPolarBear, I'm glad to hear your voices are silent now. Good luck with keeping them away! Mine are quiet sometimes, too, but the little buggers keep coming back...

[Crazygrl882]

Originally Posted by BipolarBear32

Yes, I think I know what you are talking about. I have felt what I thought were demons inside of me and they could actually move me and talk through me and tell me to do stuff, which I would never do. I was fully convinced they were there and that I could hear them talking to me. Is this what you mean? I am on meds now and the voices have stopped talking to me. I hope they are gone for good! What medicine are you on now?

Haldol, lamotragine, seroquel, and klonopin as needed. I have I'm basically tranquilized and need to be. Ha ha. There's kind of a mean internal voice
That talks and says stuff I normally wouldn't say and then there's me and I can sort of sit and zone and talk on my head. But the people inside me are a bit different. It's the actual person. My ex doesn't live with me. We don't even talk and have been divorced 2 years. But I believe he can see out of my eyes and like he is in my body and can feel every sensation like when I'm sitting or working out or shopping and also knows all I think. It sucks because I want to be left alone! Also I felt
Like I didn't need to tell my pdoc what had been going on with me at my appointment because he Knew all I did, thought, and felt. Strange and terrifying. Disturbing. Want it to stop. My disease is getting worse.... I'm not getting better.

[ray68]

Crazygrl im sorry that you are dealing with this.

I have a demon that is almost always present living inside me telling me to do things. sometimes he takes control of my body. Even when I am in control he knows everything that I do and vice versa.

One of the problems I have in therapy is talking, because I know that they know everything that is going on With me already. So why bother? But I have come to find that it is helpful to get it out even if they do already know.

[StarSeedPleiades]

HI Crazygrl882, sounds like you're going through some struggles, sorry to hear that. I too think I know what you're experiencing, as i think I experience something similar, my affliction being with people who have recently passed and with demons. Celebrities invade my body after their death and start to see everything through my eyes and that's really irritating because some things I like to keep private, writings and such, I don't need them in my business. Demons do the same, then they mock me or divert my thoughts or inject weird, gruesome images to distract me or disturb me.

I have many theories of why I feel like these things happen. Whether they really do or not, I'm convinced they do, others say it's not possible, but I don't think anything in this world is ever as certain as people like to think.

Do you and your ex-husband talk? If so, are you guys on good terms or is it bumpy? I feel maybe a tension or stress could be causing this interpretation of him being inside of your body. Same with the doctor: do you trust this doctor? You said he's new, perhaps this is the way your brain experiences a type of nervousness around these two people, and maybe others. Just a thought--if the thought makes sense.

[Crazygrl882]

I love my doctor. It just started happening with him out of nowhere. It happens with boyfriends or ex boyfriends mostly.:... unfortunately I had been really wanting to get back with a boyfriend and all of a sudden he was in me! Then he went out but I was talking to him I think.

I don't talk to my ex so I decided to meet with him to apologize for things (my severe mental state and swings between mania and depression ended the relationship - he wouldn't stand by me - and he drank a lot to deal with stress). Anyway our meeting was good and I apologized and he said we are good and he had no bad feelings and he went to therapy as well for the drinking and is doing well. So we left on a good note and for like one day he wasn't inside me but then he came back! Weird thing is I moved across the country back to where he lives (I had moved away) and I hadn't told him but I told him I was in town. Didn't say I lived there I could have been visiting. He knew I had moved. Mind reading? He is in my body like I believe? He has my phone tracked and bugged? All three I think........

I have panic attack sometimes. I can't deal with all this. I want my privacy and can't have it and can't be in public and look others in the eyes because then they know my thoughts.

Sorry so long.

Originally Posted by StarSeedPleiades

HI Crazygrl882, sounds like you're going through some struggles, sorry to hear that. I too think I know what you're experiencing, as i think I experience something similar, my affliction being with people who have recently passed and with demons. Celebrities invade my body after their death and start to see everything through my eyes and that's really irritating because some things I like to keep private, writings and such, I don't need them in my business. Demons do the same, then they mock me or divert my thoughts or inject weird, gruesome images to distract me or disturb me.

I have many theories of why I feel like these things happen. Whether they really do or not, I'm convinced they do, others say it's not possible, but I don't think anything in this world is ever as certain as people like to think.

Do you and your ex-husband talk? If so, are you guys on good terms or is it bumpy? I feel maybe a tension or stress could be causing this interpretation of him being inside of your body. Same with the doctor: do you trust this doctor? You said he's new, perhaps this is the way your brain experiences a type of nervousness around these two people, and maybe others. Just a thought--if the thought makes sense.

[fuion]

i have mini invisible people inside my body and from what i have found they only seem to harm my body.