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#851
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I feel like my mood has shifted... Like I'm more tired. Apathetic. Almost sad. I... I think I've been slightly manic for quite a while. So alert so focused slightly psychotic not sleeping much. Now I'm down...
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![]() Atypical_Disaster, Door2015, Sometimes psychotic
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#852
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Hey guys, it's very almost tomorrow for me, oh! nope. Now it's tomorrow. I've not been on for what seems like ages, and it took me awhile to get caught up as much as I could. My ipad is broken, so no more mobile posting for me. I'm super tired, so I'm going to go let time and gravity take its' toll. But I'm looking forward to talking to y'all soon.
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![]() Angelique67, Atypical_Disaster, Blue_Bird
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#853
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Good morning all! I was finally up by 4! Now I just have to see if I can stay up. Having coffee.
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#854
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Things are getting harder again. Being around people, going out, sleeping. The world has a dark tinge. It's blurring again. Everything feels wrong. The darkness from outside is invading the inside. Maybe it's the planetary alignment. I'm a channel through dimensions my powers are a danger but I'm not dangerous. Who can I trust. Don't know what to do.
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![]() Atypical_Disaster, Blue_Bird, Door2015, junkDNA, Loial, Sometimes psychotic
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#855
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Morning!
![]() I've managed to eventually get around to doing some job hunting. Hate having to trawl through endless amounts of irrelevant or unsuitable postings to find just a few that might be ok. Most promising one I found was a course administrator at a local Uni's business school. Unfortunatly they seem to want previous experience in a "busy administrative role", which I don't have. Been trying to figure out if I can blag some experience somehow but I don't think I can. ![]() Found another two that I might apply for, one was just a basic admin job with mediocre pay but the other seems to be aimed at graduates with career progression opportunities although the job description is so vague I've no idea what it entails... I think it's a new company because their webpage is a single page with "web page under development" at the top. I'll aim to do a little job hunting every day from now on, so hopefully that'll give me some more opportunities although going on past experience I think finding 3 in one day is pretty lucky....
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![]() Angelique67, Atypical_Disaster, Door2015, junkDNA, Sometimes psychotic
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#856
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Hey Loial, you can still try for that position. If you interview well they might be willing to take a chance on you despite no experience.
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#857
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My pdoc agreed for me to try stopping the 2 meds I felt like I don't need anymore, I am still on my 3 main medications and 2 prns
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“All the darkness in the world cannot extinguish the light of a single candle.” -St. Francis of Assisi Diagnosis: Schizoaffective disorder Bipolar type PTSD Social Anxiety Disorder Anorexia Binge/Purge type |
![]() Atypical_Disaster, Door2015, junkDNA, Sometimes psychotic
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#858
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morning.
drinking root beer and coffee. i was gonna goto the fair today but i decided not to. i think im denying how down i still feel. i dont feel like doing anything yet i want to do things.
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"We're all born to broken people on their most honest day of living"
The Dopamine Flux www.thedopamineflux.com Youtube channel https://www.youtube.com/user/MozePrayIII |
![]() Anonymous37841, Atypical_Disaster, Sometimes psychotic
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#859
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I want coffeeee. Can't have it yet though.
I've been listening to the kpop mix that youtube picked out for me and it's "fantastic baby." Also, I'm cleaning out my closet and realized that I'm a collector of odd coats and hats. I could totally dress up like Edward Gorey for halloween.
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The wound is where the light shines through. ~ Switchfoot |
![]() Angelique67, Blue_Bird
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#860
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im cleaning my house for when my sister comes today. i cleaned a lot already. my cat is drooling all over me. i hate that!
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"We're all born to broken people on their most honest day of living"
The Dopamine Flux www.thedopamineflux.com Youtube channel https://www.youtube.com/user/MozePrayIII |
![]() Angelique67, Door2015, Loial
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#861
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The noise started about half an hour ago. Oh my God it's so disruptive. I've been fully appreciative of the quiet I've had the past two weeks. I guess he has a part time job now and hasn't been home. All I know is that when he's not around there's blessed peace.
I'm very scared about the pdoc appointment tomorrow. I don't know if I can make it. I got an inexpensive Lumia phone to play with and it somehow signed me out of Tapatalk on my Android after I signed into Tapatalk on the Lumia. Confusing stuff. But it's a cool little phone and fun to add to my small collection. |
![]() Atypical_Disaster, Door2015, junkDNA, Loial, Shmooey, Sometimes psychotic
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#862
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#863
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#864
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I just wish I didn't have to go. My body is really aching today. I'm so tired. Thanks, though, Loial. |
#865
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I just came back from getting labs drawn and from going to Target. I was super scared to do that. I hate going to Target but we needed stuff. Usually my husband goes with me, but that didn't work out over the weekend. I feel like I'm going to drown when I go in there, it's so big. But it's better than Wal Mart. *shivers*
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the world is too loud Dx: Schizoaffective Disorder Depressive Type, PTSD, and Agoraphobia. Current meds: 30 mg Haldol, 10 mg Lexapro, 100 mg Lamictal, 0.5 mg Klonopin PRN |
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#866
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#868
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Been reading about high expressed emotion in schizophrenia families and the stress vulnerability model. My cpn said she thinks my problems are related to stress and I thought she was minimising things but turns out stress is a major factor in relapse of symptoms in sz. I didn't know that. Been reading a lot about sz and how it relates to me. I can see it all. My story makes sense. But am I faking. Is it all a lie. Maybe I want to be ill. But no I don't. I'm not lying. Why do I feel like a fake when it fits. This is the people who said I was lyings fault. They have damaged how I think. My parents are classic examples of high EE. My prodromal phase was misdiagnosed and now I think I'm a liar and a fake. But I don't have what they said I did it doesn't fit. Need to learn to trust what they say now. Try and think they aren't playing games. Messing with me. No they are trying to help. I wrote down all my problems and its a 'classic case'. Even my hostile disbelieving parents believe I have sz. So I need to accept it.
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#869
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#870
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#871
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sorry i am rambling
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#872
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#873
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i stayed out of my bed today to spend time with my sister. but i got back in bed after. im like dying from having no motivation. NOT LITERALLY. but its like a death or a depression. im just not wanting to do anything. i feel 0 energy for life. i feel so miserable.
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"We're all born to broken people on their most honest day of living"
The Dopamine Flux www.thedopamineflux.com Youtube channel https://www.youtube.com/user/MozePrayIII |
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#874
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I feel energized now for some reason. I didn't order any food so all I have to eat here is a little peanut butter (no bread or crackers), a few slices of cheese, and two old waffles in the freezer. And my last can of tuna. That should be more than enough through tomorrow though.
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#875
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junkDNA - I can't imagine the hell of working at Wal Mart! That place is just so cavernous, it makes me act out every time I go in there. That's why I prefer Target, all the stuff I buy is in the front right quadrant of the store so I can make fast trips. My pharmacy is there too right at the front of the store so I don't have to go too far into the store.
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the world is too loud Dx: Schizoaffective Disorder Depressive Type, PTSD, and Agoraphobia. Current meds: 30 mg Haldol, 10 mg Lexapro, 100 mg Lamictal, 0.5 mg Klonopin PRN |
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