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#876
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Just woke up from an unplanned nap, and now I am really disoriented.
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the world is too loud Dx: Schizoaffective Disorder Depressive Type, PTSD, and Agoraphobia. Current meds: 30 mg Haldol, 10 mg Lexapro, 100 mg Lamictal, 0.5 mg Klonopin PRN |
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#877
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i shop at target too. i prefer it over walmart because theres a different demographic that shops there.
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"We're all born to broken people on their most honest day of living"
The Dopamine Flux www.thedopamineflux.com Youtube channel https://www.youtube.com/user/MozePrayIII |
#878
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it really grates my nerves to hear people scream and especially children. the 3 yr old upstairs had 3 screaming fits today. there was screaming on tv and it made me really mad, i turned off my tv. now there are children outside screaming. it makes me really angry and i just dont like it at all. you guys will probably think i am a bad person but i do not like kids. i would never be a good mother. at work i am polite and nice to the kids, i do not act mean to them at all. i would never do anything to insult or harm a child. but i just do. not. like kids.
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#879
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this is why i dont want to take my meds in the first place. i gained 10+ pounds plus im tired as heck.
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"We're all born to broken people on their most honest day of living"
The Dopamine Flux www.thedopamineflux.com Youtube channel https://www.youtube.com/user/MozePrayIII |
#880
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i know how you feel junkdna. im not fond of kids. ive learned to like a few in my early 20s but i just stay away!
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"We're all born to broken people on their most honest day of living"
The Dopamine Flux www.thedopamineflux.com Youtube channel https://www.youtube.com/user/MozePrayIII |
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#881
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I don't like screaming kids either. They're cute when they're playing or in line for school but I never know what to say to one if I have to meet one.
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#882
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i have the same problem. i dont know how to interact with them
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#883
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me with spook, 2008
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![]() Angelique67, Blue_Bird, cogladaid, Door2015, Loial, newtus, Sometimes psychotic
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#884
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i had some nighttime coffee and it perked me up a bit. but now its time to goto bed...
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"We're all born to broken people on their most honest day of living"
The Dopamine Flux www.thedopamineflux.com Youtube channel https://www.youtube.com/user/MozePrayIII |
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#885
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This is gonna sound stupid but I just said bye to my imaginary friends. It's kind of semi delusional so I have made the decision to move on from "them" with my life and no longer get caught up in conversations with them. I think it was a coping skill I developed to deal with the stress of being homeless when I was younger and not having friends. Hours will go by and I'll be standing there talking to them, I need to be focused on reality..
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“All the darkness in the world cannot extinguish the light of a single candle.” -St. Francis of Assisi Diagnosis: Schizoaffective disorder Bipolar type PTSD Social Anxiety Disorder Anorexia Binge/Purge type |
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#886
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That sounds like a massive step blue bird. I hope it helps you
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#887
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Whenever I see children's presenters I always imagine they are miserable and cynical in real life.m and have to pretend to be happy and bubbly lol
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#888
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Trying to focus on what's happening as part of an illness rather than the truth otherwise I will lose myself again. It's hard not to get sucked in. It all feels so real. I have to learn to accept what is wrong and what is right. The dimensions may be real but I need to live in this one because they won't let me through anyway. So focus on this life. Muddled muddled.
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#889
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Having coffee. Up at 4 am. Luckily I slept most of 5 hours.
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#890
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i woke up early. i think im sick. AGAIN! ugh.
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"We're all born to broken people on their most honest day of living"
The Dopamine Flux www.thedopamineflux.com Youtube channel https://www.youtube.com/user/MozePrayIII |
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#891
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I'm so tired. I guess I'm as mentally prepared to go as I'll ever be today. Which isn't saying much at all. I'm feeling sick and everything is kind of awful.
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#892
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#893
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Thank you, Loial. I have a bad feeling about it. I look pretty bad and I just don't think today is a good day for me. I wish I'd made the appointment on a different day. Oh well, if it really goes disastrously I have a referral from the therapist to another pdoc away from the clinic. So that's good. I just wish I were feeling better. My whole body is aching and it kills my back to stand up. Plus I'm hungry. I'll eat a little cheese in a few minutes. Have to call for the cab by about 10:30. Maybe earlier. I have no idea which jacket to wear. It has been years since I've been outside in fall weather.
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#894
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The wound is where the light shines through. ~ Switchfoot |
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#895
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Thank you, Door. I wish I didn't have to see anyone.
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#896
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Well I'm sitting outside the clinic. A little warm. Too bright.
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#897
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The waiting room is a nightmare today. I knew it would be.
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#898
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It's a nightmare hers and I want to leave. They're late and I feel like I could do harm.
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#899
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I've been waiting over 45 minutes. I might just leave. This is my worst nightmare.
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#900
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The pdoc is there to help you. Dedicated his/her whole life into being a doctor and helping people.
My new pdoc had to convince me that he is there to help and not against me even though it feels like it. |
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